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Posted: Mon Nov 17, 2008 11:55 pm
It had been a week since the "Change", which is what Wisp liked to call it, with a capital C and the hushed whisper as if everything was either before the change or after it. B.C. and A.C.
Irelia hadn't thought much of it, since her hormones were raging, her skin was breaking out (those horrible under the skin ones that had their own heartbeat and hurt like a b***h and no one really knew she had them so she couldn't bemoan to anyone), and she had gotten her period for the first time. Not to mention the sheer number of LOOKS she had raised from people on the street. For the first time, she felt it wasn't because of her horns, or her short stature, but more of how she had grown.
She knew her assets.
She had been sent home from school, TWICE, to change. Bea had shook her head and lectured her on correct dress, but Irelia was enjoying the looks that she was given by everyone, including some of the teachers. She was sort of getting a reputation at school, though there was no evidence of her being any more slutty than anyone else, though the students she was being compared to were as wholesome as white bread.
Breasts aside, most everything else had stayed the same. She was an incorrigible know-it-all, and a busybody and probably the biggest gossip anyone could ever meet. She "hung out" with people at lunch, devoured large teen books about sparkly vampires and had a poster of said sparkle vampire above her bed.
So she could look in to his cold, undead eyes every night.
But there was one very large part of her life that had changed. Jace had barely spoken to her since. Well. The Change. And it bothered Irelia. Yes, they were sort of adopted sisters. And they had shared their first kiss so long ago (which was sort of squicky and Irelia had put some thought in to moving out). Jace was such a large part of her life that her being out of it was just weird.
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Posted: Tue Nov 18, 2008 12:05 am
Wisp and Irelia had been paying a lot of attention to each other: they were both sent home for outfits, of course, especially because they used it to their advantage that Beatrix couldn't see what they were wearing, and talked about hair and clothes and sat in the bathroom as -- alternately -- Irelia helped bleach Wisp's mop and as Wisp painstakingly anti-frizzed Irelia's into slinky chestnut curls. This had not gone unnoticed by the third: though it seemed like it might have been, as Jace had escaped pretty much every day to go out on her clunker of a bike, ostensibly to go and see Uncle Jack.
She'd been avoiding Irelia. It was obvious.
She stood playing hackey sack on the concrete outside the cafeteria at school, hastening its destruction with her metal legs, eyes half-closed in tangerine concentration as she messed around. She had made loud, puking noises over Wisp and Irelia squeeing over "some f** called Edward Cullen," and had stuck her nose high in the air over it. Jace was being irritatingly offhand; she spoke in fluent, easy Spanish over the dinner table to herself, just to annoy, though Beatrix answered back curtly.
Jace was very much miserable.
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Posted: Tue Nov 18, 2008 12:16 am
Irelia had noticed Jace out of the corner of her eye, and felt her heart twist as she saw her beating a poor hackey sack in to submission. So she was a little rough around the edges, Jace was her best friend. And she had thought that she would be forever.
"Ja-" Irelia started to call, when another girl in the group pulled on her arm.
"So when are we meeting on Friday? My dad got us tickets to Twilight-"
Irelia turned back to them and answered quickly. But when she turned back, Jace was gone.
She sighed. It seemed like everyone, including Jace herself, was conspiring to keep the two of them from reconciling. It was pissing her off, when everyday she'd come home from school and Jace would just. Take off.
After suffering through french, "Ou est le salle de bain??!?", Irelia trudged home, the bitter November wind blowing her hair in to disarray, and making her cheeks blush and chap. But she had a destination in mind.
Turning left from the school, Irelia smiled despite herself. The park had so many memories, some good. Most of them sort of melancholy.
Irelia sat herself down on a swing and started swinging miserably. When had things become so complicated?
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Posted: Tue Nov 18, 2008 1:50 am
It was more than a little reminiscent of Harper's death, the meeting Irelia and Jace had had then, as little more than familiar strangers. The swing on the other side of the swing-set creaked suddenly as Jacoba eased herself into it, the bark crunching underfoot as she sat herself down, the destroyed hackey sack leaking out of her pocket.
"Your boobs are going to get cold," she said.
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Posted: Sun Nov 23, 2008 8:02 pm
Irelia shivered, rubbing her hands on her arms. Her thin, stylish jacket wasn't much help in the frigid afternoon and the rounded rubber seat seemed to be made of ice. But the rocking was comforting, and she watched her breath, frosty white, hover on the breeze.
Irelia felt Jace sit beside her, and smiled sadly. She mimed holding a cigarette, and blew her cold breath in Jace's face.
"s**t they're freezing you have no idea."
It was the most conversation that they had in weeks and of course it was about Irelia's melons.
"Do they really... repulse? not the word I want. Worry? no. not that. Why is it that me getting boobs and becoming something of a skank ho change anything? You used to call me that for fun." Irelia's voice trembled.
Being a teen sucked. Being a teen that cried at the end of Disney movies sucked a**.
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Posted: Sun Nov 23, 2008 8:38 pm
Jace was already pulling off her jacket and throwing it around Irelia's shoulders; she took the swing and rocked herself back on it a little, so that it clanked miserably as it slowly swung her up in a little arc. "I'm not repulsed," she said, "you're the one who's grown up and s**t and I'm just small fry now, it's like -- it's like we don't hang because you're grown up and all manicuring with Wisp and s**t, Rel. I feel like -- like I'm too uncool for you to hang with. You read gay a** vampire books."
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Posted: Sun Nov 23, 2008 8:53 pm
Irelia still had her air cigarette. The air nicotine was vaguely comforting.
"The mystery that is peer pressure is a mystery no more. Its either act like every other teen dipshit or be effectively castrated. And I just... can't do that. I like being popular too much." Irelia was sort of sick that this was true, but hey. If you can't be truthful with your best friend, who could you be true to?
"And for your information, i always read retarded vampire books. I just hid them. Now everyone is reading them. And holy hell Jace, these books are SO BAD. Its like. An emotional train wreck that you just can't look away ******** Jace. You've ALWAYS acted like. Way older. Yeah, now i have retarded missiles for boobs and I'm freakishly tall compared to before but like. Maybe we're now equal? I admit that the romance books are sort of a regression though."
Irelia looked hopeful. Being not friends with Jace was HARD. And giggly. If she never giggled again, it would be too soon.
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Posted: Mon Nov 24, 2008 6:49 pm
Jace thought about it. "Well," she said, a little grudgingly, "at least you're open with the popularity s**t -- I wouldn't have been able to handle it if you acted like you just wanted friendship and s**t when you've got more brains than all those teenagers put together. Seriously, you're better at French in how many weeks than Wisp was her whole life, it's crazy."
She swung her legs out. "But do you still want to hang with me?"
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Posted: Tue Dec 16, 2008 1:18 am
Irelia didn't reply at once, and pushed off the ground, her legs pumping as she sped up, swinging to and fro. It wasn't just school life that was different, being at home was different too. Half the time Irelia wanted Bea to yell at her so she could yell back, the other half she desperately wanted Bea to think she was adult so that the two of them could just talk. But she couldn't do either, because even though she loved all three dearly they just weren't... hers. The loss of Asher still hurt, and she saw the looks that the adults gave each other when she mentioned him. She often blamed herself for what happened, she must have deserved being hit, or drove him to it. She worried that perhaps she would drive Bea to do the same. Wisp was easy to get along with, she was sort of vapid and easy to like, and was so full of raw energy that just being dragged along with her crazy plans made you feel like a part of something more. Being popular was fun, but not very exciting. Most of the intrigue was with who was sleeping with who, and most of the kids talked big but none of them had done anything, Irelia knew that. Since being "born" Irelia's powers had grown, to the point where she had pretty complete control over the secret reading, if she so chose to have it. Her concentration often slipped and she remembered something, and the feeling of loss was so sharp that she gasped, and then would forget why her chest hurt in just a moment.
It was a lot for one girl to feel at once, and she mostly worried that if she told Jace any of that that well. Jace would make fun of her. And it hurt Irelia to realize that she couldn't tell Jace what she really felt because well. She had more respect for Jace than for anyone in school and if she made fun of her, Irelia thought she might break.
"Ok," It was more of a concession than an actual agreement, and Irelia coughed, clearing her throat, "I'm sorry Jace. We should totally hang."
Irelia smiled, but it felt sort of hollow. What the ******** was wrong with her?
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Posted: Tue Dec 16, 2008 1:24 am
Jace knew when Irelia didn't put her heart fully into something. She squeezed into the seat next to Irelia -- it so wasn't made for two people -- and gruffly rested her head on her shoulder, one arm around her waist, the other hand carelessly smoking her pretend cold-air cigarette so that long streams of white curled out her mouth. "Don't say that unless you goddamn mean it," she said roughly, "okay? Don't."
That felt a little better, at least. Being together, even if it was awkward, the old physical intimacy.
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Posted: Tue Dec 16, 2008 1:35 am
So familiar, and yet, so strange. It had only been a couple of months? since they had been in the park so long ago, crying and moaning about Harper, their mutual friend and what ultimately brought the pair together. Irelia had forgot the feeling of being prepared to follow Jace on any crazy adventure she might think up, or knowing that whatever mental thing that Irelia decided they better do was the s**t.
Irelia leaned her head down, her curls creating a rustling canopy around the two of them.
"Its weird, you being the little one and me being the big one. I don't feel big, just more well. Lost, to be perfectly honest. I'm sorry for being stupid about s**t, the popular kids didn't even want me there. So much so that it sorta. Leaked over to me."
Swinging softly, Irelia sighed.
"Remember the good old days, as retarded as that sounds? Remember when we went camping and then you-" Irelia stopped swinging with a tremendous lurch, slamming her feet down in to the dusty gravel.
Half formed memories and words and information flooded in to her, and she sorta. Fell out of the seat.
On her knees, she looked up at Jace, horror in her eyes.
"Jace, we left that ******** ghost there. I didn't remember until know." She gulped, feeling as though her world was about to crash down, "We left him ******** loose and i think we did more than that but i can't remember."
Irelia spoke the last in a harsh whisper. Her mind was her treasure, her stronghold and to have it invaded by someone else, even as hypocritical as that was, shook her to her very ********>
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Posted: Tue Dec 16, 2008 1:41 am
"Hey, hey," said Jace, wounded, wounded by Irelia's misery and fear and pain -- the ghost had lain at the back of her mind like a needle of worry, though it was obvious she had thought that it would be something passive -- something for them to go back and do. "Hey, are you on the rag? C'mon, cupcake. C'mon. Don't worry about this stuff -- let's go home and eat icecream, okay? Don't make me worry about you or I'll have to go kick someone's a** by myself. It's okay. I'll look after you."
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Posted: Tue Dec 16, 2008 2:25 am
Irelia smiled weakly.
"Sorry Jace. That was a little crazy, i totally remembered about the ghost part before but it wasn't important, you know? Just something ******** scary that happened a long time ago. But now... now we have to be responsible. Or at least I have to be. I let him out with my weird a** voodoo you do to do whatever."
Taking Jace's hand, Irelia leaned on her like she used to, happy to make her strong friend do all the work.
"Ice cream would be insane in this temp but hell. If we have chocolate tell it to BRACE ITSELF. PMS IRELIA IS COMING FOR IT!"
Walking away, Irelia shivered, not from the bitter cold but from the realization that perhaps her mind was not as sacred as she once thought it was. The ghost had triggered it, she knew, these memories of strange writing and incantation that she KNEW she had done but didnt remember doing. It was weird and it was worrying, but she didn't want to freak Jace out anymore. So she kept it to herself.
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