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I kinda feel depressed and feels need to talk to somebody but no one's here so I'm gonna talk here..well no one really come here anymore..
I was going to my archery club which is really really far and I usually use my electric wheelchair or use handivan system, when one day handivan busdriver told me that the normal bus has handicap boarding system too and I was really really excited because one of my dream was to ride a bus like a normal people for once..and my batterys will be saved..
well.....all the buses' handicap boarding systems are either not working/broken(same thing) they say..they don't usually fix it when it breaks down to save money and handicaps don't really ride buses anyways.. one was working so I got my hopes up but then it stopped in the middle and the bus driver had to get off to pull it down by hands and it was taking long time and I felt everyone's stares..whether it was annoying stares or sympathetic stares..it doesn't matter.. I said I changed my mind and got off of the lift(which wasn't lifting me anyway) and I turned around and I really felt like crying for some reason..I've been through worse and didn't cry I don't know why I cried..I guess I kinda had my hopes too high
and really thought I was gonna ride the bus first time in my life. And then I realized I had no one to talk to...not here..cause I just moved to this college and don't really have best friends..and all..and that got me down more..