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Shadow if you have any complain you should post it here, not in the main section. And this not about teaming on people so no jumping into attack a single person and as a viewer from above I feel that what you did, so if you, or Artea or anyone else whats to I made this here for a reason.

I'm just saying you should post it here not reimplementing you on saying it where did you said it and I can't control his actions if he wishes to leave its not something I can control and if you wish to leave because you feel I'm being an "illogical-a*****e" then I can't control that either I'm just doing my job

Now hold on, I think we are forgetting that Renton is a moderator. He has to keep neutral. You and I may not know if he has sent a private message to Artea to try to ask him or tell him something. Just that here inside the guild he must be neutral on all accounts.

As far as Artea, nobody can force him to do something that he does not want to do. Unless a moderator asks him to leave I would say that I hope he stays. I find him highly intellegent and amusing, just his posting habits are abit annoying. I would hope that you do not feel the need to leave as well, one of the reasons I am here is that I find your posts to be very insightful into the way you think and I would miss you.

This'll be my only post here for awhile.. if you want to talk, send me a Pm...

To all who care: I'm staying. I'm just leaving for awhile. What Shadow said struck a chord with me because i already felt like someone was against me here, and it was confirmed when i came back to find Oki's post.. Shadow's post made me feel that more than one person didn't like me posting as often as i did. The first part of his post made me feel like i was guilty of something, that just because i posted in a thread meant i was denying someone else, that it was like i ruined the thread.

The second part only helped foster my worry that more than one person was against me, mostly this part, "If you want to know why everyone's ticked off about this.. there's your answer. " I underlined the part that worried me the most about it.

And the third part just made me feel like i should just leave. It made me feel like just because i posted in a thread that i killed it, that i poisoned it.. It's not a good feeling.. Shadow may have meant something else, but thats the way it seemed to me, especially after reading the other parts. Just leaving for awhile seemed like a good idea after reading it. and if i didn't come back, then well. everyone would be happy.. Thats how it felt after i read it..

It felt like my presence here was bad.. that i was ******** everything up.. That it was all my fault.. So i reacted the way i did.. I wasn't angry, i wasn't mad.. i was hurt.. It hurts to have the feeling that every one in the guild secretly resents me.. ::shakes head:: thats why i reacted the way i did.

If Oki feels that she "couldn't handle it anymore" to read my "nonsense" , i have only one thing to say.. I can't be amusing or intellectual all the time. I'm playful and silly in addition to what i am. If she wants to ignore me, Fine. I thought she was my friend, but I can't stand being ignored without being given a reason to help make it better. With Branny or Vulca i understood when they ignored me. Oki i didn't find out till i came back and saw her rejoicing. I can't be friends with someone who stabs me in the back like that, and heralds the pain it brings.

I never trust my eyes. They lie.. but my heart doesn't. If I feel something's up, I do what I can to fix it cause I can't judge the weight of the consequences of doing nothing. I don't trust my heart either.. I fear it because it decides weather I live or die. If my eyes go.. I'll live.

Artea's invested waay too much of himself here for this issue to end it.. that much I know, so I just couldn't stand seeing him go out like this.

It's uh.. anticlimactic.. ?

To me, your case seems more a reaction to something than an actual ailment. Not to mention I feel helpless when it comes to fixing it.. If it's something like asthma, then you've got to make sure you know what flares it up and avoid it at all costs. -and that means you've got to make sure there's no dust on the windowsil.. for some reason, if there's dust there in my room, it feels horrible in here no matter how dusted everything else is. Once I dust that one spot with some wet paper towel, the air just clears up. -Make sure there's no dust there.. and don't sleep in the same room with shoes you just wore.

I'm use to eating differently more fruits and vegetable to keep my vitamin level high all the time now I'm eating 1 meal a day so that like not even half the vitamins I use to take so now anything can bend me and take me down

@ Renton: Yeah.. looks like you'll have to stay 'green' as far as the eating goes smile

@Atea: Well, just mind the unearthing of really old threads -I don't exactly mind you replying to everything so long as it's relevant.. then again you can be the judge of that.