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Disclaimer: I recognize fully that posting this thread will probably only make things worse. However, in the interest of keeping the peace, I'm going to post it anyway. If there's even a slim chance of s**t getting better, it's worth it. Yet frankly, I don't know why I feel like I have to do this. I could just leave. I should probably just leave. But I won't. Here goes nothing.


I have never been more disappointed in my life. I know I was gone for a long time, but I had some s**t going on that I needed to sort out. I'm not going to go into it, because frankly, it's irrelevant. However, I came back to find..s**t.

There are a few things I think we all need to realize. I say "we all" so that everyone knows I'm including myself in this. I know I'm not the nicest person, but I try to argue intelligently and not blatantly attack people for no apparent reason. Regardless:

1) This is a forum on an anime website. Anime. If you know me, you know I hate anime, so you have to take everything I say about it with a grain of salt. However, the majority of anime fans are--you guessed it--children and teenagers. This means that several things are going to be expected: immaturity, poor spelling, poor grammar, angst, fluff, and ignorance. While we ask these things to be kept to a minimum, we can't eradicate them entirely. So we need to just...learn to ignore them. Not ignore the people, but ignore these qualities that cannot be avoided.

2) The purpose of this forum is the discussion, research, and teaching of highly controversial and questionably nonexistant subjects. This means we're all going to have different methods, opinions, and beliefs. Your beliefs are not "facts". Scientific laws aren't even "facts". They're highly supported, widely-believed theories. So your method of writing spells or bending spoons or mind reading is not the only way, it's not the right way, and it's not thebest way. It's your way. The way that works best for you. You can give suggestions and alternate ways of doing a task, but do not tell them their way is wrong.

So. I think we all need to just calm the ******** down. Stop posting intentionally hostile things. I hate the fact that I had to threaten someone just because they were being ridiculous.

I know a lot of you guys hate me right now, and that's fine. But you need to let it the ******** go. I can be a b***h sometimes. We all have our bad days, and I have them a little more often than others. I realize that is most likely my fault. I'm trying fix it. But it's ******** ridiculous when someone says something that might be a little offensive, or borderline bitchy, and 20 people jump in and start a screaming match. So just ******** quit it, guys.

And this is where it goes off the deep end.

Well this has been quite the anagnorisis.

If that's sarcasm, LoBo, I don't need it.

If it's sincerity, then...er...congratulations on reading Aristotle?

Do you know who LoBo is?

Hes not taking anything out on us, he is kinda like chemo. He is more are less testing us to see how his baby, the MPRILC is doing.

Damn skippy. Which, incidentally, is a freaking awesome peanut butter... Especially the All Natural one. 3nodding

Please, show me an instance where I have been completely and ruthlessly mean to LoBo. While I may have said things that were bitchy, I said them in a nice way. Lots of pleases and thank yous, I believe.

I like LoBo. We're friends. Or, we were. He doesn't seem too fond of me now after I asked him nicely to stop spamming the forum and he completely overreacted.

I'll try to keep my mouth shut, when it's necessary.

My best friend is suicidal every day of his life... I've grown used to it.

Not much out of the ordinary... Every day I wake up, curse all the things that have betrayed me... Do some type of work. Try not to fret over financial issues and low mortgage payments. Try not to upset my bro. who has asperger's. Wonder if there's a God, and if so why I'm still left to destroy his "beautiful" creation. Hope my friends haven't thought about the things I do, because they'd probably kill themselves. Go online, see that only like three people are online. Chat a little. Sit online alone all night reading comics. Go to sleep.

That sums up my daily routine, excluding casual variances in accordance with schedule, order, and possible other things that may happen.

People may think it's a sad life, well maybe it would be if they lived it. I'm not extraordinarily sad though.


Why did I snap at Dras? Because she snapped at me long ago for not understanding my "Evil Plan #3", probably still doesn't. I doubt anyone does, that's why they gang up on me, if they gang up on me. And I am still hurt. Not all "Emo" hurt, but like... If you punch me in the arm, I go "what the s**t!?" and kick you.
So I snapped 'cause of that, and because I felt she was trying to say that my posts are nothing more than toys, when they were tools of my own quest for knowledge. And I made the Maprialc as a tool for quests of knowledge. Maybe it just changed since I left...