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Date: 9/13/08 (early morning, I'm guessing as I fell asleep near midnight)

It was quite a long dream and I'm sure I've already forgotten something from it by now, so I won't worry about forgetting and just remember what I do know.

There was really no beginning. I recall sitting in the passenger's seat of my mom's car and she was driving me to this place across town which wasn't very busy. Even though it was in the city, it still seemed rural because there weren't very many people or cars around.

We pulled into the dirt parking lot and entered this store, which from the outside seemed as small as convenience store but upon entering was the size of a large warehouse, perhaps like one of those Costco stores or a Home Depot.

Anyways, I payed little attention to what my mom was doing and just looked over all of the typical store items. Shiny, colorful fake jewelry caught my eyes at the end of the aisle, where cheap useless stuff like that always hangs on metal stands. I noticed the jewelry was all inverted cross necklaces, something I had been looking for but could never find because of how "bad" they were. I reached into it and pulled out a purple one.

I asked my mom if I could get it, but she told me 'no' so I just wrapped it around my wrist as we continued through the store, noticing a really big security camera was right in front of me. I caught a stare with it for a second, then looked away and tried to act casual in fear that it may have seen me take the cross.

We left the store and I felt a little bit of a high about getting away with stealing it, but just like that I seemed to forget about the cross because I was walking across the street near the store over to this forest-looking area. Before I entered the trees on the other side of the road, I looked back and saw the store and I noticed there was a giant tower standing near it that I hadn't noticed before. My mom had long ago left the picture and I was by myself.

I pushed through the forest and came into the site of an old-looking building, which I went inside. I fell into shock when I learned it was where none-other-than Jonathan Davis was recording an album.

It looked like and old hospital/museum. There were only a few other people besides Jonathan there, just a few fans who I had never seen before. I didn't see Jonathan at first, just heard he was there. Old television sets littered the place, and every now and then they'd flicker on and I'd see Jonathan's face, or see him sitting in a small room, not facing the camera, as I made my way down the hallways.

I kept hearing people say he was sick.

Eventually I went into a room that reminded me of a small doctor's room, where they evaluate you, give you a shot or take your blood. Jonathan was sitting on the cot, answering some questions from KoRn fans that were already there. I slinked in the back, and watched him for a few minutes. He got up and left, and only me and this other girl followed him.

It was like that for a long time, just following him. We found out he was getting ready for a signing, so we ran off to the place where it was at. It was a giant room, but the inside made one think it was outside. It was like a park. There were trees and grass and fences everywhere, and a skylight let some sun shine down, but it was still pretty dark anyways.

Jonathan came around, but he seemed really irritated with all of the loud fans surrounding him when he sat at the table. He told us he was going to charge us for his signature, which right now seems crazy, but in the dream it almost seemed routine. The loud, rowdy group of fans pulled hundreds of dollars out of their pockets and showered Jonathan with it as he signed all of their albums.

I ran off to a sandbox, having the Issues album cover with me and the See You On The Other Side booklet Munky had previously signed. But I had no money. I sat there on the edge of the sandbox for a good few minutes, then reached into my pocket and found a fat roll of dollar bills. I looked to some random person, excited, "My pay check, I left my pay check in my pocket!"

By that time, everyone had left Jonathan to sit at the table as the marveled over his signature. I was nervous but I had no problem in stepping up to Jonathan. I told him I didn't have very much, but he didn't respond. He just kept staring at the booklet with Munky's signature on it, looking so depressed. I fell quiet, not able to ask what was wrong. He signed his name over my booklets/album covers, and didn't take my money and (after gathering up all the money the rowdy group of fans had given him) he left.

After that, I tried to stalk him a little bit more, but soon felt it was wrong. He looked really sad, and I started worrying about all the people saying he was sick. I felt something tug at my wrist, the bracelet I had stolen had gotten caught on something. Then I noticed it was now a pink, non-inverted traditional cross.

Then there was a giant commotion going on downstairs, so I followed to it. It was like a casino/museum...I remember the carpet being colorful and slot machines to my right, but to my left there was this section of the giant room that had all these dinosaur statues that were all animated and moving around. Apparently a show involving them had just ended, and people were flooding out, all excited and happy.

I saw a group of my friends congregating near the area of the entrance that wasn't swamped with people (who were continuing down the stairs on the other side of the platform we were on) and we chatted for a few seconds, nothing too special.

I looked to my right and saw Jonathan standing by himself, looking over at me. Without thinking I just ran over to him, and he caught me in his arms and kissed my forehead, and everything and everyone around us just stopped moving. Everyone was just frozen in place. I was dazed of course, usually stuff like that claims to make time stop, but time had literally just stopped and Jonathan told me, "I'm sorry."

I pulled away just enough to look at his face, looking worried. I had to question, "Why are you sorry?"

And he looked like he was going to cry. "The band's split up, it's over. I'm sorry. I let you down, didn't I?"

I got sad pretty fast, and he noticed and his voice cracked when he told me, "Don't give me that look."

I hugged him really tight, and noticed we were in a completely different place. There were all these trees, weeping willows I think, that had all these orbs of light blowing off of them. I could still feel Jonathan, who was embracing me back as much as he could, and he told me again, "I'm sorry."

Then it just went black, and I woke up.

Previously that day:

-Spent the day at home, mostly on the computer
-Looked up a lot of video footage of Jonathan over YouTube
-Spent a lot of time on YouTube, going through different KoRn videos
-Spent a lot of time on KS trying to advertize my Got Money video
-Had a conversation with Irene about dreams and nightmares

Dream/nightmare.

Date: sometime last week.

I had a dream of all the problems going on in my life. it was really really freaky because ive had dreams about stuff going on in my life, but never every problem all tied into one.
when i woke up i wanted to cry. haha..



Dream/nightmare

Date: like when i was 9.

It was like in a movie. and i was on the main street by the house we lived at a few years ago. and i was standing in the middle of the street, it was night time and surprisinhgly there were no cars.. but i could hear cars in the distance.
and there were the yellow street lamps.
and far off into the distance i saw a shadowy person standing in the road looking at me.
so i ran after the person but they ran away. and i was just chasing after the person on the empty dark street until i woke up..

it was so weird.. ive had a lot of weird dreams but that one sort of stuck with me. i never got to find out who i was chasing and it was creepy as hell.



So i guess the first dream from last week was because i was under stress.

and i think the second dream was because i was really really really lonely around that time. i was a sad little kid. haha..


i have alot of creepy dreams but i usually forget them. some of them i dont want to remember. haha..

DISCUSSION / Dream thing / Nightmare

This happened when I was in 8th grade. I was 13. I could probably look through my journals to find the exact date, but eh. xD

duckii: I had a dream like your first one, except it's slightly different because I passed out. ^^" I was under a lot of stress because I was dealing with death in the family and a bunch of other problems and I couldn't take it. So, during class, on a day that I was extremely depressed, I fainted. My health teacher was talking about how big the uterus gets when a woman goes through pregnancy, and I just blacked out and fell down. I was only passed out for a few minutes, but I saw the outline of a person (it had no gender, it was just a black outline) with their hands on their head, screaming. There were a few dark, sharp colors around the outline that seemed to be making the person scream. There were gunshots (someone in my family had recently been shot) an image of my grandmother (who recently died) and something else, I'm sure, but I can't remember. The scream became impossible to bear, and I woke up.

^^" It really sucked because everyone had crowded around me and the teacher was in my face. Before I opened my eyes I heard one of my classmates say, "She just fell." When I opened my eyes I realized I had been crying uncontrollably and I still hadn't stopped.

XD I remember being upset because I met eyes with the person I had a crush on at the time (who is now my boyfriend >__>) and I remember thinking that he probably thought I was weird and would never want to be my friend.

But yeah. That dark outline with its hands on its head screaming still haunts me every once in awhile. I'm pretty sure it represented me.

Dream? idk?

Date: two nights ago


Basically i was at our school only it was really dark and gloomy outside and the school looked almost deserted even though there were kids.

It was like in between classes, and i was with this guy i liked a few weeks ago. and in real life that guy told me he liked me too, and then i started talking about killing people and he starting talking about sex so we both lost interest.
but in the dream i was with him and he was like my boyfriend or something. and we went into this like torn up girls locker room thing to be alone or something. and then like i told him to wait a second and he knew what i was gonna do somehow so he waited and i went up to this girl i know in real life. shes seriously a slut, and i punched her in the face and i pinned her down and beat her until she left me alone.
then i went back to the guy and he was laughing. then her friend who i also knew in real life [her name is kellyn and she use to be one of my best friends until she became a whore.. seriously though i lost respect for her so we arnt friends anymore] came up so then i did the same to her, only im sort of mad at kellyn in real life so in the dream i really went all out on her, and i beat her untill she died...

so then i went back to the guy, and he was smiling, and then one thing led to another and i went on a killing spree through the school and he helped.

and like then when i finished everyone off and everything i felt really happy and better.
and he said he was proud of me and stuff, and then suddenly hes like "its gonna suck when you go to juvie"
and then i suddenly realized that there was no way i could get out of going to juvie after i killed so many people. and i was really really mad at the guy because he encouraged me to kill everyone and didnt tell me i would get in trouble.

and then i woke up.


so basically that day i was thinking about how me and kellyn arnt friends anymore because of the other chick. and i just wanted to beat the s**t out of them [im violent]
and i think the whole him encouraging me thing was weird because when i was talking about killing everyone in real life he didnt encourage him. hahaha
so yeah..
weird dream

whoooa dude thats intense..


last year people were talking about not seeing dreams in color
and they didnt know if people saw dreams in color

but i said that my dreams are in color
because every dream i have, like the sky is purpelish gray. and like evil looking.
even when its the middle of the day

evvvery single dream i can ever remember.
the sky is like eerie.
sometimes its dark redish gray and sometimes its purpelish gray


my dreams are pretty vivid too, so i guess people just dont pay attention to their dreams or something

I dream in color for the most part.

I do remember having a dream that was in black and white though, and only a red rose that was in a puddle had any color. Weird. xD

thats kinda weird when you think about it.
maybe the eerie evil looking colored skys are symbolic for something.?