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Posted: Fri Sep 30, 2005 4:29 pm

Wow, I'm so sorry to be getting back to you guys after so long I've just had complications. Hmmm. Were to start.

I banished my step dad from my house, I thought since I was a beginner it would never in a million years work. Hardly a day or two later he devorced my mother and left. But they never fought before and they never acted like they were desperate to get out of a relationship. I don't think it was me, but it could by chance have been.

Next I was hanging out with some friends, A girl and a guy. We were going through the graveyard on the new moon, making it extra dark. The guy, Mike, had been acting kinda wierd like he was seeing things. I concentrated for a moment and It was like my nmind exploded because I could see these things, like demon wierd things and I wanted to cry. Mike told me to chill and I calmed down after about 5 minutes. Then he started yelling at us to get out and I could see what he was talking about. I couldn't explain it without being called plain crazy minded. But I was s**t scared. after a moment he looked at me and called me some kind of Catalyste. or catalyiste... I don;t know what it means but he said I draw their energies to me. We wandered around and I felt so threated I had to sit on a church step, I was sitting there and decided to see if I could find my own energy. I did. it was amazing, like a orb, clear and outlined with so many colors, it was so beutiful... But when I sent it off I noticed that both the girl who has no natural talent with energies and the biy, who was plain freaking me out were watching it. I asked them to tell me what they saw and they both explained it perfectly. It scared me and I didn't do it again.

I just don't know whats happening to me.

I can feel things draining me when I go to the old battle field and graveyard. It feels like they ... It is drawing it right out of my core. But it feels phisically like some one is punching me in the stomach repeatedly. I am so frusrated because I got a 101 fever afterwards. and I'm not sure what to think now.

And the guy in the wicca store keeps giving me funny looks. Like I have a blue nose or something. and the phycic refused to do my reading. I getting freaked out now. any words of confidence will help now...

Posted: Fri Sep 30, 2005 9:12 pm

for a good minute, it confused me what you were talking about, then i reread your post, and i realized that i've heard of a catalyst before. it was in a fictional story, and i didn't think that they really existed, but here you are! a catalyst is someone who takes in the energy of others, then mingles their essence with the new energy, and sends that energy out for their own purposes. not just draining, and forcing someone else's energy at a target you choose, like Light of the Blade can do, but truely integrating someone else's energy into your own. it's like looking at a friend's picture, then redrawing that picture in your own artistic style. the reason why it hurts you to be in places of power, like graveyards, is because you're open everywhere, and all kinds of things are drawn to places of power, and then they see your energy just everywhere, and they suck it up. the probable reason why the psychic wouldn't give you a reading is becasue s/he didn't want to be overwhelmed by our energy, and the wicca guy gives you weird looks because he can FEEL you just everywhere, and he thinks it's strange. you have great power, and it's just languishing all over the place. you need to clam up, quick! i don't know the extent of your powers, but the fictional character actually almost sucked all the life out of an enemy, nevermind the fact that the enemy was a vampire, like the blood-sucking kind, but he had that energy somewhere. i'm betting you would too, if you made the concerted effort to draw energy out of someone else. that's probably why your banishing spell worked, because you drew on the energies of those more powerful than you, integrated it into yourself, and focused it where you wanted it to be. you must be VERY, and i can't stress thiss enough, VERY careful what spells you do, and even what you think, until you have your power under control, because you can do some major damage, and even managed to banish a living person, who's energy was in your home, in a few days, so be careful about that.

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Posted: Sat Oct 01, 2005 1:01 am

@Galdrea: Please don't tell people my abilitys... sweatdrop You know I will tell people about them if they need to be told too... Though I do agree with you, I belive I can tell her...

@Lady Doom: Where shall I start? Its almost 3am where I am but I will try to say this the best I can... But first, congrats on finding the road to 'find yourself' and I think you will figure out what I mean once you reach the 'destination'.

For right now, cause im to tried to really think, I want to say you are not at all alone. I cannot go anywhere without empaths looking at me funny and avoiding me like I had the plague. We both have an unique 'energy', and because of that we feared... Its typical for humans to fear the unknown, simply because they do not want anything to crash their reality that they have created for themselves...

To keep a long story short for right now, please PM me and I would love to talk to you about this. I fell we might be able to learn a few things from each other. I'll be posting more here later on, but there are somethings i cannot post here...

Till then, my pillow is summoning me... sweatdrop

Edit: BTW, i am a very strong empath, and i have felt some unusal energy from the NorthEast here lately. I am not talking about what is in my "Fellow Empaths - Can you fell it?" thread. If that is indeed you, WE NEED TO TALK!!

Posted: Sat Oct 01, 2005 7:06 am

Hey thank you guys. I understand it alittle better because I have been trying different part of energy last night after I posted. I created a energy ball... thing. But my rat went crazy, my mice started to squeak and my snake started to acctually come out of his hiding bow. I was shaken right away and I couldn't understand it.

I tired to feel any energies around me and I got sick. Is something up with New England lateley?

I centered it and I could feel something draining me and one of those things was looking at me. I screamed and it banged on my wall, woke my parents but I told them it was me. I was almost crying.

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Posted: Sat Oct 01, 2005 8:13 am

@LotB: sorry, but i had a thing, and i was going with it.

@Lady Doom: i'm glad you were able to use you power to do something different, but like i said before, you need to confine your power, because every time you look at on of these things, or try to look for it, they feel your energy focused on them and drain it right back out, because you have a lot. please, PLEASE confine your energies, or you'll hurt yourself

Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 10:50 am

How exactaly can I confine it?

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Posted: Sun Oct 02, 2005 1:09 pm

bad choice of words on my part, but you should sort of bring your energy into yourself, make a shield that keeps you in, and all else out, or, if you're like me, make a grate that keeps out all the bad, but lets in a little of the good, because i, personally, cannot take the silence of keeping everything and everyone out.

the best way to make a shield is to envision yourself somewhere very safe, where nothing that you don't want to come in, can come in. maintaining a shield is hard, at first, but if you manage to keep it up for a while, it'll become second nature to you. that's about the best advice i can give you on that subject, i'm afraid.

Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2005 2:22 pm

Thanks .

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Posted: Wed Oct 05, 2005 2:31 pm

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