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 Posted: Sat Aug 02, 2008 3:39 am
hi, i sort of need help...this is like big confession
im hallucinating. This thing is following me around(maybe not harmful but its always been there, its kinda weird feeling, sometimes disturbing but then again i think anything abnormal is disturbing freaky because i get startled easily..theres two of them gold light and a blue light or maybe its the same one. i dunno if its a spirit guardian or not but wtf. I shouldnt be seeing these things. They sort of..scare me)and i dont know how to stop seeing them. they appear to be more clear if i feel scared, or errr when i think about it, but sometimes even when i dont think of anything.
Then i have this whole predicting the future kind of thing (i know everyone has a little of this in dreams and stuff but like...i duno it just feels wrong sometimes and i dont see some dejavu's as gifts...srsly it could be a trap the devil made!!! now im just being paranoid. Oh gosh)
i have past life visions(now this really screws up my religious views and i dont purposely try to see them, i didnt even know what they were until i researched..and they just shoot up in my head when im not thinking when im relaxed or something sometimes. i cant help it, its unstoppable!!!) and other fuggered up visions when im not thinking, when im just sitting down thinking of nothing, doing nothing. (i kinda just always think about something or ill start seeing things...srsly things sometimes will just pop up in my vision and its not pretty. Its either s**t scary or weird). (this isnt meant to sound exaggerating.but it sort of does now...)
i feel really guilty/bad that i had a past life vision about me being a witch (wtf)
no i am not a troll
i feel attracted to/interest and fascinated in ...magic which is completely taboo and feel very horrible about it. Then i was really interested in meeting my "spirit guardian" i duno wtf i was thinking. I dont even know why i wanted (my own mind scares me). Then i joined a guild on psychics and now i dont go onto that anymore because i realize wtf im doing wrong(i try not to think about it. i try not look into it, although i did one time. my mind, my curiosity is pulling me into this but i try not to think about it and its kinda working but only covering it up)
...i suppose im errr worried....okay maybe a little afraid. Ok i am scared of myself. I dont know wth i am. I dont want to go to hell D: I dont want to distance myself from God and lose my belief and i already kinda feel distant. I duno. Yes im crazy. I really dont want to be this kind of person.
please help?...what should i do?
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Posted: Sat Aug 02, 2008 5:34 am
and i lol at inappropriate stuff like topics such as "i got hooked on prno and its distancing me from God!" then people tell him they'll pray for him(SORRY KID)...i thought it was freakin hilarious. I feel quilty at the same time i lmao about it. Srsly. I think ive got issues. I have a sardonic demonic twisted evil mind, the way i think, i find humor in alot of things( not all...especially not anything to do with religion but you get what im trying to say)
im not trying to be funny about this. Im actually pretty serious. i want to be just...normal. Like be a better person.
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Posted: Sat Aug 02, 2008 11:53 am
Can I buy some pot and LSD off of you please?
Sorry I had to get that out of my system.
Now as a pagan type person, I of course see no taboo in at least learning and having some interest in magic. Now of course, to a hardcore Christian, it is so very taboo that you are going to hell now. Now reading through those posts, I honestly think you just need some sort of anti-psychotic drug and you will be fine. See a shrink. They can help.
Rude I bet, me saying that.
And the "it could be a trap the devil made" made me laugh so hard honestly. I know you are being serious but, if the devil needed to make a trap such as that, then he would have no need to influence the sins of the flesh and such. Go to a doctor. To be honest and serious, they are the only ones who can really help you. And if you take a pill they give you, it won't distance you from your God.
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Posted: Sat Aug 02, 2008 11:57 am
Oh, and on normality...
I think this would be best way to describe it:
"Normies will fit inside a little circle, and say that what is in there is the socially acceptable way to be, that makes you normal. Now they will take anyone outside the circle and beat them until the fit in"
Okay not exact but, House is a great show for interesting quotes.
Basically normality is a concept of the majority that makes you fit into a narrow range of what is deemed "acceptable" behaviours. Now to me it is a bit better to be outside the small circle because in the end, normality is something no one can ever be because in 20 years what we see as normal now, will not be normal than. Hell, what is normal now, was in no way normal 2000 years ago. Normality is a fad. Like fashion!
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Posted: Sat Aug 02, 2008 7:01 pm
was that sarcasm? stare
what so im going to hell?
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Posted: Sat Aug 02, 2008 10:25 pm
No place like 127 0 0 1 was that sarcasm? stare what so im going to hell? The only bit of mocking I ever put forth was the question of buying drugs off you. The rest of it I assure you, I was being serious. And well, if you really buy into that whole God thing, yeah you are going to hell. Especially if you take those pesky Old Testament rules to heart. Other than that, it all depends on what part of the magic you are interested in. Beneficial, I doubt you'd be condemned. Harmful? Any who practices that gets maimed in whatever afterlife they get shunted to.
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Posted: Mon Aug 04, 2008 12:11 am
Ricette No place like 127 0 0 1 was that sarcasm? stare what so im going to hell? The only bit of mocking I ever put forth was the question of buying drugs off you. The rest of it I assure you, I was being serious. And well, if you really buy into that whole God thing, yeah you are going to hell. Especially if you take those pesky Old Testament rules to heart. Other than that, it all depends on what part of the magic you are interested in. Beneficial, I doubt you'd be condemned. Harmful? Any who practices that gets maimed in whatever afterlife they get shunted to. well..okay..i guess it wasnt really magic. I just wanted to see my spirit guardian (i wasnt really successful with the meditation..only thing was, i was already seeing them. But stuff like this usually happens accidentally)...okay now i just realise i didnt technically "do" any sort of specific magic(not that i can thinkg of) that will send me to hell, but just interested in stuff like umm pyrokinesis etc. But im not an extreme religious, i dont believe in every single bit in the bible because some parts of it just doesnt flow. Nor does it make sense to me. But im trying have a stronger faith but things let me down.
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Posted: Mon Aug 04, 2008 6:58 pm
No place like 127 0 0 1 Ricette No place like 127 0 0 1 was that sarcasm? stare what so im going to hell? The only bit of mocking I ever put forth was the question of buying drugs off you. The rest of it I assure you, I was being serious. And well, if you really buy into that whole God thing, yeah you are going to hell. Especially if you take those pesky Old Testament rules to heart. Other than that, it all depends on what part of the magic you are interested in. Beneficial, I doubt you'd be condemned. Harmful? Any who practices that gets maimed in whatever afterlife they get shunted to. well..okay..i guess it wasnt really magic. I just wanted to see my spirit guardian (i wasnt really successful with the meditation..only thing was, i was already seeing them. But stuff like this usually happens accidentally)...okay now i just realise i didnt technically "do" any sort of specific magic(not that i can thinkg of) that will send me to hell, but just interested in stuff like umm pyrokinesis etc. But im not an extreme religious, i dont believe in every single bit in the bible because some parts of it just doesnt flow. Nor does it make sense to me. But im trying have a stronger faith but things let me down. Take no offense to this but, when it comes to your faith, the only thing that can let you down in that regard is yourself. And I doubt you'd go to "Hell" just for wanting to see your spirit guard. I would equate that to guardian angel if anything.
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Posted: Wed Aug 13, 2008 1:01 pm
No place like 127 0 0 1 was that sarcasm? stare what so im going to hell? It's a trap!!! no one is going to hell...they say things like that to force you to think their way out of fear
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Posted: Mon Nov 24, 2008 5:22 pm
Well i dont know... If my mother was here she could help u... Umm only advice i have is pray ur heart out
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Posted: Wed Nov 26, 2008 10:39 pm
Hey hon. Wondering where you went.
You should go back to your original post about these kind of things. You will find a ton of answers there and most of them will be better than "Hell is a lie" or "No matter what you will go to Hell for one action..."
Find those answers and take heart.
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