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 Posted: Tue Jul 01, 2008 6:13 pm
MATE. FEED.
Okay.
You can pretty much find all of my interests in my profile. >o>
Umm.
I'm Hannah. :3
Right now, I'm ranting and complaining all of my problems to Master Zeffy. xD;;
I'm pretty closed off from everyone. Which plays in why I hate counselors so much. And it's also why I hesitated to make this thread for so long.
I'm a MAJOR introvert. I fear new people. D;
Even though I do rant and complain a lot, and if you give me sympathy, I'll shrug it away. Don't mind it, it's just how I am. I really do appreciate your sympathy.
I don't really know how to accept the fact that other people care and worry. >.< It's how I've been raised, I guess.
I'm really shy. Terribly so. I need to get to know you before I do any serious ranting. D:
I AM SCHIZOPHRENIC.
...Er.
Well.
I haven't been diagnosed.
But I have the symptoms.
>___>
So, uh. Yeah.
KILL. REPEAT.
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Posted: Tue Jul 01, 2008 7:42 pm
'ello there!
*glomps*
I'm ish very glad you finally posted here ^^
I know what you mean about the 'accepting the fact that people care and worry'. My sister and mom are always all up in my business about my eating disorder. They practically watch me eat o_0 And they say, "We just care about you!" So then sometimes I wish they didn't care >.<
Do you feel that way?
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Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2008 2:45 am
MATE. FEED.
n_n
Finally. Lol. I thought about it a few days ago but my head got the better of me.
Sometimes, yeah.
My mom... yeah. She worries.
My dad.... -shakes head-
He doesn't show that he cares, but I know that he does.
Like, I remember when he was drunk once. We were watching Gettsyburg and well... yeah. It was weird. He brought up the issue of my gayness and yeah.
KILL. REPEAT.
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Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2008 7:12 am
Was he being negative about your sexuality? :/
Parents can be so frustrating at times, so we just have to remember that they brought us to this world, so we have to try to make the best out our situations ^^
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Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2008 9:35 am
Heya.
Well done in posting, I don't mean that as if you say wehn done to a child and give them a stick *puts stickers in back pocket*. I mean its good you overcame your fear.. .. ..
I don't know how to explain, but when I read your posts I connect straight away with my past. Not in all the same ways, my dad was never drunk when he caused trouble.. but yeah. I feel as if I am a bit further along the line though, what I am trying to say is, it will work out for the best and if you have nothing else good to think about, one day you will be able to move out of your family home and have full control of your life.
Accepting things take a while to get used to, I think the first time I realised that people cared was when I met a teacher who I actually realy disliked. He'd really wind me up because he always told me off when I got into trouble and checked up on me. I realise now he was doing the right thing but it didnt feel like that at the time.
You know we're all nice people by now I hope? Don't worry about posting or not posting, go with the flow and how you feel we will all be here no matter what you decide to do. It will come in time.
loves
iFairy
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Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2008 2:21 pm
skylark_101 Was he being negative about your sexuality? :/ Parents can be so frustrating at times, so we just have to remember that they brought us to this world, so we have to try to make the best out our situations ^^
More or less, yeah.
n__n That's a good way to look at it.
@Fairy- Yeah. But for now, I'm trying to make the best out of it, even when some things don't go right.
Well, I know that people care, but... I just can't accept it. o__o; Like my 5th grade teacher. I know that she cared. But.... well, you understand, right?
Yeah, I know. I've known. =3
KILL. REPEAT.
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Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2008 8:33 pm
DrugInducedHallucination skylark_101 Was he being negative about your sexuality? :/ Parents can be so frustrating at times, so we just have to remember that they brought us to this world, so we have to try to make the best out our situations ^^
More or less, yeah.
n__n That's a good way to look at it.
@Fairy- Yeah. But for now, I'm trying to make the best out of it, even when some things don't go right.
Well, I know that people care, but... I just can't accept it. o__o; Like my 5th grade teacher. I know that she cared. But.... well, you understand, right?
Yeah, I know. I've known. =3
KILL. REPEAT.Hi. All I wanted to say. Nothing witty, or an attempt to connect with you. Just hi, because sometimes that's all it takes. If you wanna be buddies that's cool, if not that's cool too. But I enjoy reading your rants, most than others. I can relate to your fear of spiders, and the parents thing, except I get the complete opposite with my folks.. Dad cares, and shows it, lets me know it's okay to be who I am.. my mom... we'll just call her evil, cause frankly that's how she acts. She's gotten better over the years, (I'm compareing that of when I was 15 and dealing with too much death to me being 24 now)
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Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2008 10:52 pm
MATE. FEED.
This is one thing I feared in making this.
I don't know exactly how to reply to what some people say. Ten... maybe 20 minutes of sitting here, thinking of what to type.
Fear... is taking it lightly. To me, spiders really don't have a point except to scare me senseless.
Hmm, I didn't really say anything about my mom.
She's gone a lot of the time. What with school and work. Same with my Dad.
She can be... kind of careless at times.
Like when I was in Texas in the middle of a freaking STORE, she wrapped her hands around my neck as if to choke me.
Purposely.
It scared me.
...My dad would've done worse if he was there in her place. Much worse.
Because he isn't all talk. He can and will back up his words.
gonk
KILL. REPEAT.
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Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 1:14 am
Everyone has a different life, no one expect you to respond to everything. Do it in your own time. biggrin
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Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 10:30 am
It's fine if you dunno what to say to everything.
You can just ponder about them and soak up all of the advice 3nodding
Our focus right now is to help you through any problems you may have.
We don't expect anything from you, like a page or paragraphy reply or something 4laugh
Just whatever you're comforatable with.
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Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 10:34 am
Parents are very much known to embarass their kids o_0
Like there'll always be the crying baby that gets spanked or something.
But that wasn't nice at all of your mom confused
If your parents get mad easily [if that's what you were trying to say..sorry if I misinterpreted it] then maybe the less you say the better.
That's what I do around my mean brother.
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Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 1:33 pm
MATE. FEED.
Hmm.
I guess they do get mad easily.
...My dad especially.
>___>
It's kind of good that they're not always aound then.
Lately I've been spending whole days at home with no parents.
KILL. REPEAT.
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Posted: Sat Jul 05, 2008 9:02 pm
MATE. FEED.
Ugh.
I remember a time a while ago when a really good friend of mine said they loved me.
I kind of had a panic attack.
>.<
My stomach started clenching and I felt like crying.
It was... insane.
KILL. REPEAT.
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Posted: Mon Jul 07, 2008 11:02 pm
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Posted: Tue Jul 08, 2008 5:56 pm
MATE. FEED.
Joh.
8D
KILL. REPEAT.
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