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 Posted: Sat Jun 07, 2008 10:33 pm
 Midnight on Sunday, June 8, 2008--Violence, Lesbians, and a Lack of Parental Support
Well, let me jump right into it. Writing and editing a cannibalism scene is hard. I had to go back and edit it a million times because I just wasn't happy with the result. It's not the first one I've written, but somehow I didn't feel as able to convey the mood of terror like I usually do.
My parents managed to convince me that in terms of horror, it wasn't lacking. They were quite disturbed, in fact. They think my writing is far too sadistic. I really don't want to change the way I wrote the scene, though, not when I got it so satisfying. Lately I haven't held back in my writing, and I'm afraid that if I do I won't be able to write as well. I just don't like to censor myself.
Well, after that violent episode, the novel's taking a romantic detour for a couple of chapters. Where I am now, two lesbian girls are about to reach the next level in their bonding. Once again, Mom doesn't approve. She fears lesbians.
That's what's up in my writing, now for what's happening while I'm writing. My family's always doing things so I'm hardly ever home, so all the writing I do is usually late at night. Yesterday I was writing until 6 in the morning and I even got to watch the sun rise, which was beautiful. On the downside, I got so hungry it was crazy, but didn't want to risk going downstairs to wake up the whole house just for a Mars bar.
I've got that problem taken care of today, though. Kool-aid powder is stashed in the cabinet and ready to go!
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Posted: Mon Jun 09, 2008 9:42 pm
 Monday, June 9, Somewhere in the realm of 11 o'clock--I Am A Jubilated Ball Of Squee
That's completely right. I am so excited to be killing off a character who I've wanted to kill off for months, but I wasn't at that point in the story yet. I hate to say I'm having a fangirl moment, least of all with my own work, but I really do want to squee right now to cheer on my quaint, eloquent diplomat, the killer, who has all but made a dissection table of the parlor floor. Sadism for the win.
I'll probably be up all night writing this. I'll definitely need to bring out that Kool-aid today.
So, that's all I've really done today...write and outline. I'm much overdue to do something else, but I don't care.
I am exploding with motivation.
For those that need some motivation, I would just love to slather you in motivation right now. You're all wonderful people with wonderful ideas and the caffeine is just making me love you all. I love you, PYPians!
And if you're actually reading this and you're wondering about the images, I like to doodle when I'm not writing or planning. The one up at the top is an old sketch of one of my characters, and the one to your right is my main character's torture chair.
I don't think I've ever had a character that wasn't emotionally unsound.
Most of us aren't, at least not us here in my head eek
Just kidding.
SUPPLEMENTAL: Bob has left the building. 1:45 AM. Violently and messily. And I didn't even need the Kool-aid.
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Posted: Mon Jun 09, 2008 10:38 pm
I have honestly never written cannibalism. I can't imagine how tricky that must be. Anyway, that's fab you managed to pull it off after so may attempts.
I really wish I could offer advice for quelling your parents' various fears, but I've honestly never had that problem. Err, at the very least, you could point out to your mum that fearing lesbians is silly when there are people munching on each other.
I love killing off characters after a long wait. It's very satisfying. Like a 6AM Mars bar.
The little drawings in your journal here are awesome! They make me happy to see. And your enthusiasm is inspiring ^^.
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Posted: Tue Jun 10, 2008 9:03 am
Thanks for the advice. My mum's feedback really isn't that bad though, because she tells it how she thinks it is but reminds me to believe in myself. With my dad, I can never tell...
And about the character killing: I know, really, right?! It took so much editing...whenever I kill a character, I do a little something different with the death, so I'm always out of my 'comfort zone'...and I can't move on with the story until I get the scene just right. stressed
Well, thanks for dropping by and for your encouragement. Good luck with your own project! heart
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Posted: Tue Jun 10, 2008 10:51 pm
My father doesn't understand how it is I grew up to love mocking classic sci-fi when that was all he read me as a child XD. And the fact is, I don't know either! A writer's destiny is surreal and probably crossed with really bad puns.
Character killing- oh man. I wrote a VERY long story with another girl once. Towards the end, we started bumping off everyone who had given us trouble through the course of the thing. We were venting our frustration and things got kind of disturbing. But in the end it was worth it!
Personal favorite death? Guy had a giant stained glass window break and fall on him. It was slow, painful and aesthetically pleasing all at once.
The edge of your comfort zone is always a good place to be. That's where learning happens. And amusing deaths.
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Posted: Wed Jun 11, 2008 1:18 am
The edge of my comfort zone is a lot of fun. And I'm sure when I'm a parent, I won't understand my kids at all either. It's all part of the cycle. Anyway...
 Three In The Morning, Wednesday, June 11--Writer's Block and Kool-Aid
Not much to say about this. I'm punctuating another streak of horror with a romantic subplot. But there's a twist: instead of revealing their dark secrets to each other and fall in love, one character keeps her secret and remains distanced. The male character will be pissed at her soon enough, and a scandal is brewing...
But I have writer's block. After writing chapters of action, gore, and mess-with-your-mind plot twists, this sequence seems a bit...tame.
Nonetheless, I am determined to finish the scene by sunrise.
And I got really hungry and finally had to use the Kool-aid.
It can be eaten or drunk! Myn, you're a genius! And yes, I'm commending myself, thank you.
UPDATE: Three thirty in the morning. Finished the scene. Will edit scene and finish chapter tomorrow. Too lazy and incoherent to use helping verbs and articles. Going to sleep.
Good night morning.
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Posted: Thu Jun 12, 2008 12:11 am
*applause!*
You can always add more gore when you edit it wink . Scandal you say though? That should be plenty interesting in and of itself.
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Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 2:15 am
 FOUR IN THE MORNING, FRIDAY, JUNE THIRTEENTH
Who says Friday the Thirteenth has to be unlucky! I'm doing great down here! I finished another chapter, which this time pertains to unconventional lovemaking.
This is one of those satisfying moments when I've just written something I've had planned for weeks.
In other news, I'm feeling really hyper for no reason. It's probably the satisfaction and euphoria of finishing something at four in the morning.
In any case, I should drink some water. I'm really, really thirsty right now and haven't left the office since ten.
I feel like one of the writers at Whittier's retreat in Palahniuk's Haunted. It's one of my favorite novels of all time, and at one point the writers get really self-destructive. Then again, forgetting to drink and do other body functions for a few hours is different from purposely injuring, deliberately starving, and physically torturing yourself.
That's one twisted book. Palahniuk is my hero.
Anyway, I see all of you are doing a great job, because I've been stalking the updates thread...keep it up! I'm always enthused to see all of you so enthused to be making such progress!
<3 Myn (with a bad case of the four am sillies!)
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Posted: Fri Jun 13, 2008 6:49 pm
I LOVE the feeling of finally getting to something I've been planning for a long time. It reminds me of rolling down a hill. Err, a nice GRASSY hill, mind you. With more grass at the bottom!
Unconventional lovemaking? Oooh, sounds tasty~. YAY 4AM sillies!
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Posted: Sat Jun 14, 2008 10:15 am
Oh, unconventional lovemaking is fantastic! So far, I'm loving the sound of your story. Gore and all!
I suppose I can't really say much about reaching a scene you've been planning for a while. Most of my projects I write out the scenes, then connect them with fillers and what-not. Only one project I am writing in sequential order and it's driving me up the wall (cause I'm stuck on chapter 4).
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Posted: Sun Jun 15, 2008 10:49 pm
Thanks guys! I'm glad to know I can actually have somewhat of a target audience. Anyway, I'm back for more ranting... Monday, June 16, a Quarter To One--Part Three and Partial Nudity...uuh...
So, for once I'm finished with a chapter before four in the morning. Whoop-dee-do! Well, since my brain is relatively organized, I shall now list my rants in...well...list form.
1. I just finished the first chapter of part 3. Yesterday I decided to break this into three parts instead of two, and well, here I am, at the end of a nine-page chapter, ecstatic as hell, and going to edit ASAP.
2. All my subplots are tying together finally. Happy happy joy.
3. I fear I may slowly be destroying myself with this chapter-a-nightmorning lifestyle. But hey, I like staying up until four. It's the only time I have to get my work done. Besides, writing sleep-deprived while living off of Kool-aid is a great way to combat writer's block, as I've stated time and time again.
4. I'm not wearing clothes. I won't go into detail, but suffice it to say that I wrote the whole chapter like this. Why? Because I could and I figured, "Why not?"
Ciao, lovelies!
......An hour later: Well, I've edited, and I'm going to sleep now, earlier than usual, but hey. 'Night.
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Posted: Mon Jun 16, 2008 10:26 am
Hey, you've got a writing schedule. They say that's the first step to being a successful writer.
It's always a good feeling when things start to tie in together.
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Posted: Mon Jun 16, 2008 10:53 pm
It was 110 in the shade here today. You'd better believe you're not the only person who writes sans clothing XD.
I wish I could stay up until 4AM. With my current job, 1AM is pushing it *sob*.
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Posted: Fri Jun 20, 2008 12:39 am
June 20, two thirty in the morning--In Memoriam
Incredibly creative title, I know.
Well, today's my birthday, and I just killed off a character. This is the only protagonist death in the story, and, frankly, I almost cried.
In the afternoon when I edit, I will cry. It's the editing stage that hits me hard. Call me what you will. I'm entitled. I'm emotional!
So, after this, I only have one chapter to go before I force my dad to read the manuscript on the plane to New York, so that's exciting.
I'll probably spend much of tomorrow polishing this up and getting this death to be just perfect. I like Jackson a lot, he's done a lot to push the plot forward, and besides that, his psychotic, murderous, sexually domineering quirks have grown on me. I want to do his demise some justice.
I think I'm headed to bed now. Well, peace out, PYP guild.
R.I.P. Jackson. Thanks for thirty one chapters that continually slipped foreshadowing to your death.
...Do I seem psychotic for talking to my bloody characters?
I probably am.
Good morning to you too.
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DesertRoseFallen Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jun 20, 2008 3:07 am
Haha all your posts make me laugh.
Well you definitely give me more motivation and continue! If you get emotional about your protagonist then you're doing something right! biggrin
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