Here I am ready to slit my heart open and share every drop of love with her and she smiles and says "OK" and I release a silent blood curdling scream.I tell her I love her and she says OK! I hate her for that I just want to bring her to her knees with the very pain she's inflicting on me! But at the same time I understand the fear behind her brown eyes.She's shy and full of folly not seeing the pain she's wrought in my soul.I wish just wish that she would have her eyes opened to see that I'm not like her past I'm tainted by a different brand of sin the sin that melts away with her touch.The only sin that's permanent is the sin you never let go.All I want is for her to say she loves me every day and night.To speak the three words that make the many voices in my head fall silent.I love her so much and can't stand it when she holds my hand with that look of sadness in her eyes.I want her pain,sorrow,agony.I want to hold it all pull it from her chest so she can finally speak the words that diminish my pain to that of a mustered seed...."I love you." But I just sit and wish surrounded by a scream!