These Actions are Ridiculous Still I Go on and Act Like I Have a Reason

Oh, this feeling is killing me on the inside
Oh, I just can’t put it away
I, find it difficult to look in your eyes ( look in your eyes )

Cause I, I’m not like others
And I, cry more than I should have to
This secrecy isn’t worth it
Yet why do I hide
I lean more towards being dependent
When I deserve much more ( much more )
Much more ( much more )

I cannot refuse these feelings
I cannot hide the obvious
Still I try and lie
To escape these feelings

Why must I hide
I don’t wanna be alone
Yet I don’t try
To find one for my own
But I, know that I deserve
Much more than I have, more than I have

Cause I, I’m not like others
And I, cry more than I should have to
This secrecy isn’t worth it
Yet why do I hide

Cause I, I’m not like others
And I, cry more than should have to
This secrecy isn’t worth it ( isn’t worth it )
Yet why do I hide
I lean more towards being dependent
When I deserve much more ( much more )
Much more, yeah, much more

Feel the Feeling of Free

I feel alone, so alone, but I really am not
Though mentally and emotionally, I’m isolated
From their ways and from their thoughts
I cannot understand
Why I just cannot, fit in

This is not a place for me
I want to feel the feeling of free
Allegedly free, but I know, yes I know
I’m not so free

So far, it’s rare they comprehend
Most of the time, there’s no one for me
I wanna stash my emotions away
So maybe I’d feel the feeling of free

This is not a place for me
I want to feel the feeling of free
Allegedly free, but I know, yes I know
I’m not so free

Take me out, take me out
This just ain’t worth it
Find me a place, find me a place
Where I can find my feeling of free
I wanna feel the feeling of free

My Quest

I’m searching for myself
I know I’m better than I seem
This can’t be the real me
I know of my potential
I will not back down
I will find myself
If I make it through
My next quest will be for you

If I am like this
Why do I, feel as if there’s more
Oblivious, to who I am
This quest, I am up for

Running fast, looking in
And out glass windows
They’re shouts are loud
But I won’t quit
I’m almost there

If I am like this
Why do I, feel as if there’s more
Oblivious, to who I am
This quest, I am up for

Oh, but I can feel
The other side covers my true self
I see a hand reach out
Towards me, I’m almost there
There’s just a few risks I must take
And I must be fully awake
This is what I’ve been waiting for
Yeah, this is what I’ve been waiting for

To be continued…