Hanabira - Delicate Words

[5huga]

~Delicate Words~

Her Character
Hana is very shy and usually keeps to herself. However, she tends to warm up to people who have kind hearts and good personalities quite fast. Her bashful ways make the grown-ups love her, but she never has really made friends her own age. Since its boring to play by yourself, Hana has taken up to reading quite a bit.

A year in Shimagakure has made Hana a little more talkative, but she's still rather shy. Her voice is always a soft whisper, but everyone hears it more than they used to. Being in the Academy for a year has made Hana a little tougher, but she's still physically challenged and can't keep up with the other students during class. Her confidence is fading, but she tries to take on the philosophy of a girl named Aya. Hana always tries her hardest even though she know she can't do it. Sometimes if you try your hardest, you end up doing what you think is impossible.

The path she wishes to take... {Updated 1-4-10}

Minor Chakra Heal
Requirements: 10 ranks in Control, 10 ranks in Knowledge
Need: Met!

Unanswered Prayer’s
Requirements: Genjutsu 20 ranks, Control 15 ranks
Need: Met!

Projectile Weapons [Tobidōgu]
Cp Cost: 10
Requirement: Fuin 10, Knowledge 5, Control 10
Need: 9 Fuin

Demonic Illusion: Tree Bind Death [Magen: Jubaku Satsu]
Requirements: Genjutsu 100 ranks, Sneak Attack 50 ranks, Control 40 ranks
Need: 89 Genjutsu, 45 Sneak Attack, 29 Control

Great Long Ranged Technique [Dai-Kyori Nagai no jutsu]
Requirements: Detect 40, Ranged 40, Control 30, Ninjutsu 10
Need: 32 Detect, 33 Ranged, 19 Control, Ninjutsu 10

 

[5huga]

~Autumn 7th of Year 102~

I thought it would be wise to begin a journal where I can write down my thoughts since I have a hard time expressing myself to others... I'm sure I'll only be writing when I have emotions pent up inside, but I hope that's ok.

Last week... Hide-sama lost his life in an attempt to rescue me. At first, I blamed myself and felt terrible. I couldn't stop crying for the longest time. My tears flowed with out taking a break for an entire day and a half. I understand that the duty of a shinobi has risks and there is always a high chance that one could lose their life on a mission... but why did it have to be Hide-sama?

I used to believe in karma and if you were a good person, good things would happen to you! If you were kind and generous to others, fortune would smile upon you and grant you wishes. It doesn't seem to be like that though... Hide-sama had never done anything wrong. He was also kind to everyone...

I've stopped blaming myself for what happened to Hide-sama. I made a promise to myself that I would live to my fullest and try my hardest to make Hide-sama proud. I will honor his memory by not giving up! I'll find my strength one day... Right now, I still need the help of others to continue.

Kane-nii is always there for me. This morning he woke up and made breakfast. I couldn't eat much since I was so upset... It was truly delicious though. Thank you, Kane-nii. I hope to truly become a Yamanaka and carry on Hide's name just like you will.

Aya-senpai's actions and words are always a foundation for my motivation. With out Aya-senpai, I may have quit going to the Academy during my first year. I'm really happy that Aya-senpai took interest in me and taught me her way of training and moving on. I hope to follow in her footsteps some day...

Nara-kun... I got to spend time with him for the very first time at the festival. He was really the one to pull me free of my tears... I can feel my cheeks blushing when I think about him! He is truly a kind person... I hope that we can continue being friends with one another. I know he'll become a strong person in the village.

I'm just very thankful for the important people in my life. I'm too shy to tell them myself... but I'd like them to know just how important they are to me. Aya-senpai and Kane-nii are going on a very dangerous mission tomorrow. I hope they'll be well and come home safely along with the rest of the shinobi leaving.
 

[5huga]

~Winter 5 of Year 102~

Today was the sports and health festival here in Shimagakure. I had too many things on my mind, so I didn't attend. I've been working on creating a technique that could help be better talk to others. Very diligently I've been researching others' personality and picking out the good traits that attract people and bad traits which push people away. I'm going to be applying this information to the henge technique, but I'm not going to use it as disguise. My thought process on the technique hasn't fully formed yet, but I hope it will come together when I speak to a sensei about this...

As I went to the bamboo forest to study alone and away from the festival, Shin found me and asked me to help him train in some academy techniques. I was more than happy to help Shin since he had helped me overcome my depression when Hide died. The Kun Kumo girl, Tanu, joined in as well. I was really scared to teach her and I really didn't want to at first, but as she trained with Shin I came to realize she's a very gifted shinobi. I know that she's strong, but I never thought she'd be able to control her chakra as well as everyone else. Being around Tanu really makes me miss Kazuma. I haven't seen or heard from him in awhile. I hope he's doing well...

On another note, there's been talk about new genin squads being formed. I'm more than excited to become a genin. My name was brought up for squad formations. I really hope that I could be in Kane-nii's squad. He could teach me a lot and I'm really excited to learn from him. I hope that Shin would be in my squad as well. He's someone I wouldn't be scared to work next too.

While I was in the bamboo forest training with Shinobu and Tanu, the Kun 'Kumo snapped during training and went into a wild temper tamptrum. I was so scared I ran off as she lashed about in frustration with training. I injured my ankle and Shin carried me back home. He was trying to cheer me up the entire way, but there was really nothing he could do or say to save me from embarrassment. He parted once we reached the Hanaya and we promised to meet up for dinner. He asked me if I liked having him around... I really do and I am sorry that I made him feel unwanted.

While I was at home for a few minutes, a girl with blond curly locks came to the door. She was asking for a bouquet. Before I could supply her one, Tanu came to the house. At first, I slammed the door shut afraid of a confrontation with the Kun 'Kumo. Then I heard the little girl who called herself 'Princess' childishly standing up to the girl. I didn't want any harm to befall her, so I quickly grabbed a pre-arranged bouquet and gave it to her to leave. While I was outside, Tanu apologized and she asked me to teach her and Kazuma the academy techniques. I hadn't seen Kazuma in a while and just earlier that day I had been thinking of him... Hopefully with him around, Tanu won't be so vulgar and wild while training.

The training session went fine and was ended a little early, so that I could attend the dinner with Shin. There were so many people at the dinner! Yuki-sensei was there and everyone I had attended the academy with was there was well. It was truly a joyous celebrating and a great reunion to see everyone. I met some new faces; Rin'Egan Rokugi and Mori Akiko. I didn't speak to the two new students, but I know who they are.  

[5huga]

~Spring 1 Year 105~

I woke up this morning and opened the shop up as much as I could before Kushina came. Since I was rather nervous, it helped calm my nerves just before the genin exams. Being weak and unskilled in almost everything except genjutsu, I thought I was going to fail for sure... Where I thought Karite would be the one waiting for me, it was the other way around. I'm very sorry for Karite's struggle, but I feel more confident in myself now that I was passed so quickly! With my passing, Tenmoki Yuki awarded me with several coupons to retrieve some items. The one I was most ecstatic about was the bow. I have never really used weapons before, so this bow was a big step for me. I truly like it, but I'm still not sure how to handle it. When our genin training is over, I must visit Hamma and ask him for his help. I only hope that he's willing....

We started our teamwork training today, but with out Orika. We spent the whole day with Natamo and Orika hadn't shown her face at all. At first, we thought she was just late and taking care of the animals at the farm, but its afternoon now. We finished our first exercise by Karite guiding me through an obstical course. I was blindfolded and he was bond by Natamo's whip. Once we were done, Natamo informed us that we would be spending the night out here, but Orika still hasn't shown and its rather dark...

Natamo asked Karite and I to prepare a shelter for the night. It was a very interesting learning process and quite a rough experience on the ground, but I'm glad I was able to prepare myself for the outdoors. I had gotten very worried about Orika's absence and I asked if Karite and I could be excused to find her. With Kore's aid, the three of us were able to find her at the clinic. Karite seemed rather concerned, so I returned to the Lagoon where I slept under the campsite that Karite and I created. When he came back to the lagoon, I remained silent and did not ask any questions about what Orika had said. I would make that my mission tomorrow to speak with Orika.  

[5huga]

~ Spring 2 Year 105 ~

I had never thought sleeping on the ground would be so harsh. I awoke with pains in my neck and back from sleeping on the bare ground. I tried to work out some of the kinks in my neck, but my hands are too delicate to fix such knots. Karite was silent this morning as he began his training. I would not ask what he and Orika spoke of. While awaiting for Natamo, I fiddled with my new bow to find that I know nothing about the weapon... Natamo excused us for training and gave us the opportunity to return to her for training whenever we wished. I had always thought Natamo to be an intimidating instructor, but she is very informative with good lessons to teach. Perhaps I will return to her to ask her about bow techniques.

Once excused from the Lagoon, I immediately went to the shoreline to see if Kane-nii had returned from the Chunin Tournament... And indeed he had returned with wonderful news! Kane has become a chunin and leader of a squad containing Tanu, Kiba and Shin. However, the celebration of that squad was short lived as Shin had to return home to the Earth Country to help his father's caravan. Shin had lost his mother... I understand how he feels, and if his father were still alive, than there shouldn't be anything holding Shin back from returning home. My heart is dampened by seeing him leave, but I am not sad. Shin has made a decision that he believes strongly in. As his girlfriend, I accept our parting and give him my best of wishes. I only wished that I may have told him that before he left... Hopefully, one day we can reunite and I can tell him of this; I hold no grudge towards his leaving and I still care for him and his crooked smile!

As Shin left Shimagakure, he suggested that I take his place in the squad. I'm still rather hesitant about training under Kane-nii, but some of the first words under him accepting me was that he would not go easy on me. That I am glad for. Tanu has accepted me into the squad, but Kiba has not said a word. I knew that Kiba and Shin were becoming great friends... I wish I had the charisma that Shin did, so that I may truly fill the gap that he left behind. For the most part, I feel that the three of us will get along nicely, especially with Kane as our squad leader. Shin was right in choosing Kane to be the leader of the squad due to Kiba and Tanu's competitive natures. Already, I think Kane is doing a wonderful job teaching us and preparing us for our mission tomorrow!

Kazuma and Aya came to the island today as well. While Kane analyzed Kiba and Tanu's abilities, I decided to head to the bamboo forest with Kazuma to get better wood for arrows. We didn't stay in the bamboo forest long since it got rather dull, so Kazuma had an idea. I followed him, curious as to what we would do. Heading to the apartment complex, he asked me to keep watch. I didn't know he would be breaking into Tanu's apartment! Once we were in, I wasn't sure what Kazuma was going to do. I had stopped to look out the window and smelt smoke. Kazuma had set fire to some of Tanu's things and the fire had gotten out of control! We ran out and both froze at the site of the flames growing wildly among the entire complex. Luckily, Kane and Aya arrived along with Kanami, Tanu and Rokugi. The fire was quickly extinguished. I tried to cover for Kazuma so he wouldn't get in trouble, but he admitted to what he had done. I really admire Kazuma for taking the blame. Its very noble of him not to lie and I will too try not to lie. I still feel that it was partly my responsibility. Tanu was very upset and I hope that she can forgive Kazuma and I for letting the fire go out of control. I especially hope Kane-nii can forgive me for lying...

Those were my thoughts until Aya knelt down and looked at me with her deep blue eyes. I've always admired Aya, ever since I first came to this village. Having my role model speak to me so directly nearly made my heart skip. She told me I have a big heart, but it needs to be strengthened. I understand now that I am passive. I am shy and I am no strong. I have a desire to become friends with Kazuma and for some reason I wish for others to understand that he is merely misunderstood and not as terrible as they think he is. Now when I think about it, I feel as if there are butterflies in my stomach. I'm learning to grow strong as I stand up and speak my mind. I have been trying very hard to please everyone and to agree with them, but Aya has told me that is not the path I should take. I need to be strong. I need to... become my own person. I feel that if I am with Kazuma, a young man I can not predict, I will be able to find my own calling. I know I can grow strong as long as I am with him.... He will not give me special treatment.  

[5huga]

~ Spring 3 Year 105 ~

I woke up rather early this morning. Kazuma had spent the night and he slept in. I thought that Kane-nii had slept in as well, but he had been up and getting ready. He looked very nice today, like every day. I should ask for some pointers on taking care of my skin. It is very delicate to the sun, so I should learn his cosmetic secrets. After cleaning up from making cakes last night, I took a small trip to the library to research the books that Yuki-sensei had given me. It was mostly review, but I did enjoy reading them. When I returned, I finished my entry from yesterday in this journal and then Kane came down stairs inviting me to make breakfast with him. Sweet omelets sounds wonderful this morning! Breakfast was cut short, as we were late to arriving on the boat.

Once on the boat to the mainland, everyone began taking time to sharpen their skills. Aya and Kiba practiced with their swords while I was sure that Tanu was off practicing something as well. I eagerly awaited Aya and Kiba to finish training, but it seemed that they would take some time practicing their sword skills. Instead, I decided to turn back in my notebook and begin the testing of my henge no jutsu variant.

Learning Kawaii - Training I: When I began my training, I was slightly hesitant. I had a feeling that I wouldn't be able to portray the characteristics I have been studying so closely, but I proved myself wrong. I was able to trick two people into giving me candy by acting as cute as can be. I kept Eri and Aya in mind as I played with a teddy bear and asked a fisherman and Midori for a piece of candy. It was... exhilarating. To trick someone with such a mild test of skill was just exciting and so much fun. As I became a 'prankster' myself, I now understand why characters such as Kana like to pull harmless pranks on people. I should play safe with this fire that I've come to enjoy though...

The boat ride to Tonato was rather peaceful. Aya told us of a special bomb that the Samurai were using. It was called a "Frost Grenade" and was being used against the Kun Kumo. I'm very interested in how they harnessed the power of ice into a grenade. I hope that I'll be able to investigate this thoroughly!

On our arrival to Tonato, we found that we need Ryo to ride the ferry to the Kun Kumo village. Aya, Kane and Tanu went shopping since Tanu had no clothes to wear due to the fire that Kazuma started the other day. So, Kiba, myself and Kazuma set out to find a few odd jobs to make some Ryo. I really had a fun time pretending to be someone else on the boat ride to the mainland, so I wanted to continue that fad. If Kane-nii ever knew what I had done, he would be rather upset with me. I acted as a gatherer for a brothel in town. Using Henge, I disguised myself as a rather scandalous woman and set out to seduce men. I did not do anything dishonest, but merely brought them in for the whores to take care of. I made six Ryo in commissions.

Transforming into a different character, I took the disguise of an old man who would make a great storyteller. I told a story about Shinichi that wasn't true at all, but it definitely entertained many people. I made 10 Ryo all in all about my story of the game of cards with red devils. As I went to find a deserted alley way to transform back into myself, I spotted Kazuma drinking. Its a rather dangerous thing to do by yourself, but I kept my disguise and watched him compete in a drinking contest while putting a wager on him.