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So yeah. I'm sowwie. For not being around. For not keeping the guild alive. Ect. Ect.

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A lot of things have been going on with me as of late, and naught a one has been letting up.

Least of things, I've been writing a lot lately... trying to get better at it so I can hopefully become an English major in college.

I also have had quite a bit on my plate from school... I go to a vocational school, so they never quite realize how much pressure they put on students. Needless to say, I'm working my arse off... but I still have an F in Algebra (good grades in all other classes, though *squee*).

So, aside from the above, here's how things have started going downhill for me:

[keep in mind that I'm not saying these things to get pity; moreover just to justify myself to you guys]

Around January, I took crew membership of an RP guild that I enjoyed immensely. As one of the only active crew, including the captain, I took a lot of responsibility in cleaning up, recruiting, and starting new RP situations. This means that, along with school, this is the point where this guild began to get neglected by me.

In February, my betta fish died.

Two days after that, my grandfather died. Needless to say, it was not a good week.

I don't need condolences; I can assure you - I'm fine. My family doesn't take a lot of time with grieving... I guess that's our mindset.

His death, however, through into sharp relief many things that needed to be done. For example, there were many expenses that were left in swing that my grandma couldn't handle by herself. She works at Wal-Mart, so there's not much income in that area.

One thing that really sucked was the fact that my grandpa had a 25 thousand dollar credit card that he never took care of... before my grandma had even met him. This bill, by some stupid governmental economical reason, went to my grandma.

Also, before my grandpa had met my grandma, he had another wife. She died while they were married. When he met my grandma, he forgot to change the life insurance from his former wife to her (they were married FOURTEEN years and he hadn't taken care of this).

By default, the 100 thousand dollar policy went to his daughter instead of my grandma. All bills regarding his death went to my grandma. So, my grandma had no money to take care of things with.

Not to mention the fact that this was all unfair because his daughter is quite wealthy. She has TWO FRIKKEN HOUSES for gods sake. That family is mormon, quite well off, and unburdened with debt. Go figure, eh?

In any case, we (as in my mom, me, my sister, and my brother) have to move in with her. As she's sixty + miles away, I have to abandon the school I'm going to and go through all that drama of 'meeting new friends' and all that rotten crap during senior year.

We're crossing our fingers that we don't lose the property out there (10 acres of land - like 2 blocks long and 1 block wide; for reference).

On top of that, my mom lost her job a couple weeks ago. They were unsympathetic of her - taking down time for grandpa's death - and were so tired of that drama that they wanted her out of the picture.

So, now I'm stuck with schoolwork, the RP guild that I'm not active in, writing, packing, having to rearrange my credit plans, 'making new friends' or whatever, and unemployment checks.

I'm moving out of this place at the end of may - so I won't be on at that time - and staying at my dad's house for the remainder of the school year. I also have some summerschool that I have to do for extra credits. Hopefully, because I will have finished all my required credits by the end of this summer and all credits I take next year will be extra, I will be graduating with an abundance of extra credits and an advanced diploma.

-sigh-

It's all been pretty stressful, but know this:

I haven't forgotten about you guys. I love you. I thought (rather guiltily, I might add) about you guys during all the time that I've been gone. Hopefully things will return back to normal once everything is up in the air.

Thanks <3

Thanks.

o3o