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 Posted: Mon Mar 24, 2008 3:44 pm
The months had gone by. Seasons changed quickly from one to the other.
The ware and tear was not only physical but emotional on Chu'mana. Sometimes she wondered if having a family was the best thing at all. Sure, she loved her mate and all her children.
But...
As soon as they grew they all took off. Rarely ever to come see her. Save for Taipa. The young mare always seemed to stick really close. Weither or not she wanted her own mother to know she was nearby. Chu'mana had caught glimpses of the girl trying to hide from her view.
It was silly.
But for the most part the older mare kept to herself now a days. If her children wished to visit her it would be on their own times. It wasn't like her to go pushing them around for visits or anything. But it worried her that it had also been quite a while since she had last seen Hok'ee. She knew he was probably off doing his own thing. But it would be nice to see his face every now and then. They were mates after all.
Perhaps it was mostly her fault. Rarely did Chu'mana ever leave the expanse of land that she claimed for her own. She tried, but usually never got very far. It was her comfort zone.
Chu'mana walked along the small river side. Bright green eyes fixated upon the world around her as her curly mane and tail rustled about in the cool afternoon breeze. She loved her home. It was were all her children had been born. Where Hok'ee and her had re-united after he had gone missing for so very long.
Who would want to leave such a place as is?
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Posted: Mon Mar 24, 2008 3:52 pm
The days might of whizzed by for Chu'mana, but for Yiska they seemed to drag on forever. Everyday it seemed the sun took forever to rise and then took forever to set.
What was in this world for him anyway?
He wanted that family life. Yearned for it. And everytime it seemed he'd come close it was snatched away.
It just didn't seem fair to him sometimes. Why was it that everyone else could find that happy new life, while he was stuck. Stuck alone. A bachelor for all eternity maybe?
Wandering was all he could do now. And for some reason his feet took him in a familiar direction. The sights and smells were so familiar. He remembered the trees, the small rolling hills and the little river that dwelled here. And the old mare who did so as well.
That thought quickened his pace. Heavy hooves quicked up soft sand along the river's banks as he moved deeper into his mother's home. And in just that instant he saw her. As beautiful as the day he had first seen her out of the basket.
Light green eyes welled up with tears as his pace quickened even more. Now at a run as he called out to her, a tremble in his voice as he nearly stumbled over his own hooves to get to her.
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Posted: Mon Mar 24, 2008 5:34 pm
Chu'mana was startled a bit.
Not by the sudden appearance of her middle son, but by the horrid look of sadness upon his face. The larger stallion looked like he was going to cry.
She waited for him as he barreled towards her. Knowing full well he'd stop before running into her. It made her heart wrench watching him like this, and also curious as to why.
Chu'mana hated seeing any of her children sad. Especially Yiska. He was one of her children that she had the strongest bond with. "Yiska...." Her voice called to him, soft and filled with concern. Eyebrows furrowed with worry as she took a few steps forward herself.
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Posted: Tue Mar 25, 2008 3:43 pm
Finally he reached her.
How he had longed for his mother's touch. Instantly he buried his face into her chest. Knees bending heavily as he did so and ears flicking back. A heavy sigh passing through his pale lips as his nostrils flared to take in her scent once more.
It was one thing he would never forget. How she smelled. It was always the smell of blossoming flowers. No matter what the season, weather or not there were flowers growing at the time.
"Mother.....I've missed you."
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Posted: Tue Mar 25, 2008 3:46 pm
She stood strong. Even if he was heavier than he had been as a foal, she let him bare his weight against her. Wrapping her head around his neck, she slowly lowered herself and him to the ground where it would be easier for both of them to be like this.
Chu'mana licked at the back of his ears in a calming manner. A soft smile on her lips, but still worry in her eyes. What was it that had her child in almost tears?
"Yiska...I've missed you as well." A slight frown now replaced her smile as she leaned back a bit to get a better look at him. "But what is it that worries you my child? You seem to distraught. It pains me to see you without your handsome smile."
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Posted: Tue Mar 25, 2008 3:51 pm
Yiska easily lowered himself to the ground with his mother. Keeping his head against her chest, listening to her heart beat quietly for the moment.
Her words of worry were a bit soothing, but he hated making her worry like this. But at this moment he really just needed his mother. No one else.
Light green eyes glanced up at her through his curly mane as his frown deepened. "I'm failing mother. I try to find what you and father have. That one to spend the rest of my life with...." His eyes shut as his eyelids squeezed together. "But...every time I get close. Every time I think I've found the one it never works out. I've been through all this so many time it seems and I just don't understand!"
He lifted his head just a bit. Eyes watery, they shimmered like pools of water. "Whats wrong with me, mother? Why does it never work out? I try so hard....I just want that feeling of being needed...wanted. I try and be the best I can and it all just blows up in my face. I don't want to be lonely anymore!"
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Posted: Tue Mar 25, 2008 3:55 pm
It seemed like many of her children were having problems in this subject. But it effected Yiska the most.
No one wanted to be alone. Even Chu'mana.
The old mare licked his face tenderly. Trying to sooth him. Comfort him the best a mother could.
"They just don't see what a great stallion they have before them. I know you Yiska. A mother always knows her children better than anyone could. Someone will love you for just the way you are. It seems like it takes forever. And every time you try you end up feeling hurt and upset...." Her tail gave a small flick across the grass behind her. Dark lips nibbling gently on his ears as she used to do to him as a foal.
"You will find the one soon enough, my heart. Sometimes you just have to look a little harder around you and past all those who tip toe around your heart to find what you are looking for. I know you will. Look closer instead of just on the surface."
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Posted: Tue Mar 25, 2008 4:01 pm
Whenever things seemed so bleak, so impossible, his mother always knew what to say.
Furrowing his eyebrows lightly, Yiska buried his nose into Chu'mana's curly mane. Curly like his own and so silky soft. He could of just fell asleep right then and there.
"You always know what to say mother. My heart still aches though. I want it so bad and it just feels so impossible. You and father make it look like it was so easy."
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Posted: Tue Mar 25, 2008 4:05 pm
"Yiska, listen to me. Love it not easy. It may look it. But its not." She let out a small sigh before giving his ears another loving lick.
"Your father and I went through a lot of trials and hard ships before what we have now ever came to be. Before you were even born we had a lot of healing of our hearts to do and a lot of learning to do as well. Life does not come with any instructions and it is never perfect. You sometimes have to go through a lot of strife to find what it is you are searching for. I know it hurts, but in the end you will see."
She gave him a soft and honest smile. All she had said came from her heart. Chu'mana knew exactly what she was talking about. And now she would pass this down to her son in hopes that it would ease his breaking heart. She didn't want him to give up hope. "There is someone out there for everyone..."
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Posted: Tue Mar 25, 2008 4:08 pm
He knew there were some couples out there that had gone through a lot. But his own parents? This was a fact that he had never known.
To him, they were perfect. It seemed like nothing had ever happened in the past and they had always been together. Always been happy. But of course, how could he know? It had all taken place before he was even born.
Perhaps it was silly to have assumed they had not been through some trials themselves.
Nodding lightly, Yiska kept his face buried in his mother's mane. "Mother, could I stay with you for a while?"
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Posted: Tue Mar 25, 2008 4:53 pm
Her smile grew wider at his last words. She enjoyed spending as much time as she could with her children, whenever they came around.
Nodding her head, she nuzzled his cheek lightly. "Of course, Yiska. You may stay as long as you like. You don't even have to ask." Eventually she would move him to the cover of the trees, but for now she would enjoy this closeness. Besides, she had decided to get out into the sun shine today anyway.
And what better way than to enjoy it with her dear son?
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Posted: Tue Mar 25, 2008 4:55 pm
He smiled.
Yiska knew that his mother would have never turned him away. But still he felt the need to ask. He hated burdening her with him sticking around. But really he needed her right now.
His eyes stayed closed as the warm sun shone on his dark pelt. The warmth of the rays lulled him into a half sleep. So relaxed, he just didn't feel like moving at that moment. "Thanks, mom."
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