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Would it be redundant if I said "Don't do it,"?

Because I don't think you should.

I speak from experience. Suicide isn't worth it. It's a permenant solution to a temporary problem. When I found out that my girl was actually married, and never even told me anything of the sorts, I had my blade to my wrist and was ready to go. I forced myself to stop and assess the situation, my life and all things in it.

Ok, yes... I wanted to die cause the hurt was bad. It would make the hurt go away. Time heals all wounds, and no matter what Ray Charles sang in this tasteful movie, doesn't necessarily make it true. It's always going to hurt, there's always going to be that sting left in your heart but dammit, people are stronger then that. Especially people here. We survive ridicule, people who are too intolerant, people who don't believe. <******** 'em. If they don't want to see the truth, they can shove it. And whoever hurt you, if she doesn't want to have the best thing in her life, too bad for her. She'll regret most choices one day. Don't make a choice that you can't regret. Be stronger then that and use this as another obstacle in the road of life. How boring would this s**t be if there wasn't a speed bump on the road listed at 90MPH?

Learn and overcome.

The fact that you've posted on the internet your intentions is evidence enough for me that you don't plan to go through with it. But even if you were, you have no reason to.

i told you guys because your the only people that care. nobody else gives two shits at the moment even if i did tell them. only reason i havent done it yet is because theres a slight chance i might be over reacting so im goign to wait until the situation is acctualy settled before i do it because if i killed myself and she ended up actualy caring then it would be painfuly ironic.

unfortunately though right now shes not talking tome because she needs time away or somthing so i have to stick around to see what happens.

Eh. I've been on the edge before. It's no fun. Pills, razors...traffic (yes, now that I live in a city, I could just throw myself in front of a car and hope for the best, though it wouldn't be quite as promising). But in retrospect, it's kind of funny. For all those times I've had a pill bottle in my hand or a razor on my wrist (or my foot on the curb), there are at least 3 times I can name that I've been in an emotionally or mentally worse place, and suicide wasn't even on my mind. It's all circumstances. Things can get worse, but they can also get better. Some girl who treats you like s**t isn't worth your life. If anything, it's worth hers (no, I'm not saying you should go out and put a bullet in her head, I'm just saying that if she can't be civil to you, then she's not worth worrying about).

I know it hurts now, but in 10 years you're going to look back and think, "Damn, I was young and stupid and lovestruck. Those were the days."

And, this post wouldn't be complete without a Fight Club quote. Next time you're thinking about suicide, think about Tyler Durden laughing and saying, "We just had a near-life experience!" Because that's what's happening. You're on the edge of experiencing life as it really is.

blaugh im glad i read this when i did. i originaly was going to do it later on tonight, but i read this, went to my aunts to just try to tune it out with some good old halo3, and my buddy mahoney told me she was looking for me so if i woulda killed myself it would have really ******** me over in an ironic way.
im going to see whats up tomorrow and hopfuly ill report back to my family with good news. (you guys are my family btw, all of you).......
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(killedbykarma is too i guess).

Glad I could help. I know the worst part of it is the feeling of being alone.

Sleep, video games, and Fight Club: If you can't find any other reason to live, at least you always have them.