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So I've always been 100% sure of my sexuality--straight.

Buuuut...last night I spent the night at a female friend's house, along with two other guys as we were all gonna do extacy. The original plan was to have boy/girl cuddly buddy pairs....but once we were rollin it became one mass orgy. I found that I rather liked the female body and its lovely curves and liked cuddleing with her best. Last night, she was my first kiss with a girl.

...Yes, that was prettymuch entirely effect of the drug at work.
But today, now that I'm completely sober....I realize I would like to do that again with her, but without the boys or the drugs. If she would be willing.

Thus, confusion.

I'm not attracted to other girls. I just really liked how things were last night between us.

Does that make me Bi? Or just straight, with room for experimentation, or what?

Thank you....I suppose it does make a lot more sence if you remove the catagorizing terms...

And I know drugs are bad...that was the first and only time I wanted to try it.



And also....I am attracted to her, in a sence, but not the way I am to a guy. In all other ways, I see her as simply a friend. But in a physical sence, I am attracted to her. What does that mean?

That bit at the end was completely random...but I actually am really glad you said it. Makes me not feel so bad about the body fat I do have...


See, I don't know why, but I don't really want to be in a relationship with her. It could be because, like I said, I'm used to identifying myself as straight, and It'd take a lot of explaining to myself and others if I were to date a girl; She's a lot more into drugs than I am and I don't want that to be a strong influence on me; and I don't think she'd want it anyway...

...is it bad if I just want to be able to spend the night with her every now and then...just to cuddle and kiss and stuff, without the relationship? Like barely even 'friends with benefits'...I dunno, I think I'd feel bad because it'd seem more like a 'dirty little secret' thing.

oh, and I did tell her yesterday via text some of how I felt. I told her something along the likes of:
Me-Well, I actually really liked cuddleing with you. Like...if we were ever both bored on a friday night, I wouldn't mind doing it again, without drugs. If you wanted to...
Her- Of course!

And she questioned a bit, that I may be into girls, and that the first time she did extacy was when she realized she was bi.
But I really am quite sure I am not into girls in general...


....can you tell I'm insanely confused??? gonk

^-^ thanks

xDDD

Wow, uhm, thanks XD

You can call me Sagey >.> If you don't wanna say my Gaia s/n xD

BTW, I know so much because I probably am gonna be a sex ed teacher or an English teacher when I actually go into a profession sweatdrop

Aww, but I like calling you Asalashilala. XD

For me, it's much easier than Asashina. I get tongue-twisted on that. I've nicknamed most of you girls anyway, so why not? XD

Friends can kiss and cuddle and have cute binding moments together without being in a relationship, or actually being attracted to women in general. It's okay, really.

On that note, dude, it's ecstasy. Of course you're going to like cuddling and holding and loving up on people more than when you're sober. Women as a rule have softer skin and fun curves and are more receptive than men, so yeah, ecstasy buddies they are. I remember my first time rolling-- I totally wanted to be in a gigantic orgy cuddle puddle as well, but with my best girl by my side at all times. My safety net, as you will.

Then again, I've known I was bi since what, the fifth grade? So maybe we re in different boats.

Classifications mean as much or as little as you want them to. Don't sweat it!