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Asiya snuck through the trees, her black coat becoming bleached as the snow sifted down upon her. She saw the green and black male jump onto the boulder and froze. All of her children had grown up and gone off to do their own things, and she was hungering for contact with another. She eased her way towards him, staying hidden in the heavily snow-covered forest. After gathering her courage and trying to softly clear her throat, she stepped forward. "Hello," she said and then added mischievously as she processed what she had just heard. "I believe things start growing again and the sun comes out when the snow melts."

Asiya smiled shyly back at him. "But can't the description be the answer as well?" she asked as she swayed towards him. When she got within a few tails-lengths of him she sat. "My name is Asiya. What might yours be?" she asked with a smile as her breath puffed into the snow filled air. She openly admired his odd but gorgeous coloring, even going so far as to get up and circle him to see the full affect of them. She sat back down in the same place as before and then blushed a little. "I'm sorry if that was rude or presumptuous, I've gotten used to being on my own." she said with a small smile as her golden eyes sparkled with contained emotion.

Asiya gasped when he kissed her paw. "Oh! I'm... pleased to meet you as well ." she said as she lowered her paw to the ground. Now she was the one blushing, though one could barely see it. On her cheekbones and around her eyes the golden dots shone even brighter than before. She smiled up at this one called Kazuko, and asked what she had been wondering since she saw him those few minutes ago. "Now, might I ask what you are doing in these woods?" After she asked she realized that that was quite an impertinent question and promptly apologized. "Ah! Sorry again... it seems that my mouth has decided to speak without consulting my mind." She then leaned forward a bit and laughed quietly "But really, why?" she asked as her head tilted to the side.

Asiya smiled as his eyes roamed her face. He really was very sweet and caring, and though she seemed to feel that there was more of a story as to why he had left home she decided to leave it be. When he mentioned that he felt a bit more helpless than expected she nodded, completely understanding the feeling. Side-stepping his question she asked "Would you like to come back to my forest home? It seems to be getting colder, and I would not like to be stuck far from warmth at this point in the winter." She turned and walked a few steps before half-turning back to him and saying, "And as for the answer to that question... I will leave that story for when we are warm again, for it is long and involved." Then she fully turned around and smiled brightly at him, asking "Coming?"

Asiya smiled at Kazuko's blushes, as she thought they were adorable. "Alright then, come along!" she said happily, enjoying the company of another sitara after so long on her own. She looked over at him as they walked along, and noticing that he was trying to control his blush, she tried to distract him. "Well, not that we are on our way, would you like to hear my story?" she asked

Asiya looked over at Kazuko quizzically. "What do you have to be sorry about?" she asked. As they moved along the path to her home she began her story.

"Many months ago, I met Luner_Wolf. He had already had children at that point, from a female named Sohalia. They were grown and 2 were not talking to him, though I had no idea why and as I was infatuated with him, I had no interest as to the "whys" either." She shook her head sadly as her past-glazed eyes teared up a little and then cleared. "Though I now wish I had asked... oh how I wish! But that is no matter, what is done is done. I met him, fell in love with him, and we were on our way to being lifemates when I found out that I was pregnant. We were both overjoyed at the idea and became even closer than before. Then, one day when I was traveling a bit I met Sohalia. She told me how Luner had acted after the birth of their children, namely taking 2 of the children he liked best and leaving her with the others. Hearing this, I was immediately afraid for the outcome of my encounter with Luner. I went back and talked with him, and that in no way re-assured me. I left him then... and I haven't looked back on that decision since." she said emphatically. She looked over at Kazuko and asked "Do you wish me to continue?" as she was afraid that she was boring him, but she wanted him to understand the circumstances that had brought about her current condition.

Asiya smiled softly at Kazuko. "Thank you." she said simply.

Then, turning back to the trail she continued talking. "I went to Sohalia and talked to her, as well as Mei Li and Sirius, and they allowed me to stay near them. I say allowed because that is what it truly was, I had no real reason to stay with them other than that I didn't want what had happened to Sohalia to happen to me. Her two children that had grown up with Luner... they refused to speak to her, to look at her. He had fed them lies the whole time they were growing up, and they couldn't function as adults around their own mother." she sighed here, and then looked at Kazuko. "I think anyone can understand why that would have filled me with terror at that stage, especially as my children were on their way." she said with a fierceness that was belied by her small stature. She shook her head quickly, dispelling the bad thoughts about what could have been. "Anyways. I lived in the bottom of a tree, that I chose for myself, near to Sohalia and Mei and Sirius's homes, so that I was somewhat protected and safe and awaited the arrival of my children. In total I had 5 children, 3 boys and 2 girls. I adored all of them, and they had a wonderful childhood. We visited Sohalia and Mei (and Sirius) and they all had children around the same time. Slowly, they all grew and began their own lives. As of right now... Faebrena is out learning about everything she can get her hands on. Ming Yue is interacting with others, and probably her father. Breck is hibernating. And I have lost track, as sad as it is to say, of Loko and Loke. They went their own way from the very beginning, and I had no way and no reason to keep them by my side once they were old enough to survive without me."

She sighed and stopped and sat in the snow. "And so, once they didn't need me any more and had gone off on their own paths, I moved out here. I needed time to think and to be alone, and to reflect. I've had that time now, and I have given up any regrets I had over my past. I wish that things could be changed, but they can't." She took a deep breath, and smiled at Kazuko. "And that is how I came to be out here."