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 Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:26 pm
I'm so utterly sick of people saying that they have a worse life than I do. I'm sure nobody's been beaten both physically and emotionally/mentally, raped, having your home taken from you and moving to 11 different places in a matter of 10 months, being blamed for everything that's happened to my parents marriage and financial security, having all of your family's life savings taken from you in an attempt to get a house again, getting beat [again], threatened to be killed by several people, and almost being kicked-out of your house all before age 13? No. I don't think anybody has had that happen to them. It just pisses me off. Here's the story:
When I was little, my family was fairly well-off. My dad and mom were never happy, and they took it out on me [this was before my brother was born]. I'd be beat, screamed at, locked outside in the middle of rainstorms, held underwater just for their sick, twisted pleasure of guilt. I'd get slammed into walls, have sharp things thrown at my face [I have a scar under each of my eyes from my dad throwing a knife at my face], told I was a worthless b***h who would never do anything with my life. Mind you, I was five [tops] at this time. Then my little brother was born. I was in Kindergarden. My parents completely left him to my care while they went out and did whatever. I was five, pushing six, taking care of an infant. He used to call me "mommy" and depend on me for his life.
Fast forward three years. My dad buys a motel in Michigan and sells our house, so we're ******** into moving back there with him. The beatings continued when my mom was out of state. I'd get thrown and thrashed around, getting bruises. My dad smokes pot and drinks, so he's very mean. He's even mean when he's sober. Anyway. My brother and I got beat, but moreso me. I'd save him. I'd protect him. It was my duty as the older sister/mother figure in his life. He's so ungrateful of it now. He doesn't even remember. It's for the better, though.
Fast forward a year. We move to 11 different places in 10 months. My dad's, my aunt, a rental, another rental, yet another rental, my uncle's cabin where the roof is caving in, a car, a van, a motel, and an apartment. We've moved to a bigger apartment, but it's still horrible.
Fast forward to 2005. My mom gives our builder who built our first house a payment of $170,000. He was a very close family friend; he was like my uncle. I loved him. My mom loved him. He was a very sweet guy, and would never hurt a fly. But he stole that money after he got our house framed. He took it, and left. Now we're in a huge financial situation full of courts and everything. I have to go to a meeting with the state court with my mom on Friday. Wish me luck, girls.
Okay. If you read all that, bless you. If you didn't, that's fine. I had to get it out. My dad no longer lives with us, but he's still married to my mom. I hope they get divorced, because my mom doesn't physically hurt me or my brother. She loves my brother because she didn't have to raise him. He's so lucky. He gets whatever he wants, when he wants. I'm so envious of that. Him and my mom have a loving relationship. The relationship I have with my mom is one of hate and disownment. I can't wait until I graduate and move in with my fiance. Don't worry about me though, girlies. I'm pretty much safe now. I know so many people in the court systems, my parents are like, "Zomg. D:"
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:35 pm
He destroyed my life...
I usually find encouragement in thinking that someone has had a worse life than me, but I suppose that is just the way I think.
It's such a shame what has happened to you.
I have experienced similar, but of course, it is never the same so I can say I understand, but I can never KNOW what it has been like for you.
Your little brother is lucky to have you. I used to have to protect my older brother. >_< Although he would never admit it now.
You are lucky that you are able to freely plan your future, though, and get the good things that you deserve.
Now I will destroy him.
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:42 pm
oh, fago.
i'm at a loss
for words.
i'm so sorry
for you that
all that happened
to you.
but, at the same
time, i'm really
happy that you
have pat [is that
his name?] now,
and that you're
safe.
and i hope you
know that i'm
here for you, no
matter what.
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:42 pm
Pure Vampyre He destroyed my life...
I usually find encouragement in thinking that someone has had a worse life than me, but I suppose that is just the way I think.
It's such a shame what has happened to you.
I have experienced similar, but of course, it is never the same so I can say I understand, but I can never KNOW what it has been like for you.
Your little brother is lucky to have you. I used to have to protect my older brother. >_< Although he would never admit it now.
You are lucky that you are able to freely plan your future, though, and get the good things that you deserve.
Now I will destroy him. Yeah. I pretty much have my fiance and you girls for saving me. D': I've known all of you gals longer than my fiance. I love you all. And I'm so glad that I'm able to talk to you gals about everything. Thanks for your support, Vampy. <3
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:45 pm
I always know that there are people that are better off than me, but there's people out there that definitely have it worse.
You prove to me that you have it worse than me, and I'm sorry to say that, but thanks for sharing that. You've made me realize that I shouldn't complain about a lot of s**t.
I love you, remember that.
I hope you're okay, and you will remain to be okay.
I know how it's like to be beaten, physically and mentally. I know how it is to have irresponsible parents, and I feel your pain. Not exactly and to the extent of it, but I do.
*hugs*
I love you.
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:46 pm
I always told my friend that they're is people that probably have it worse.
And She freaks out about how she looks and how she got bullied other stuff that is stupid.
And YOU! Even though you went all through that. You keep yourself up and your head up high and alway think on the positive side of life!
I've always use to get beat up at school in elementary, but I always pulled through and thought positive.
There should be more people like you.
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:46 pm
Wow Fago....
just... wow.
I don't know what to say...
I guess all that's really there for me to say is,
I'm sorry.
And I hope that everything in your life goes well...
You know,
sometiems I have good days,
and sometimes I have bad days,
and PPS has been therefore me and helped me a lot...
and I just wish I could return the favor for some people,
take a bit of the pain away,
and put it on myself.
I wish more than anything I could...
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:47 pm
The Shindig oh, fago.
i'm at a loss
for words.
i'm so sorry
for you that
all that happened
to you.
but, at the same
time, i'm really
happy that you
have pat [is that
his name?] now,
and that you're
safe.
and i hope you
know that i'm
here for you, no
matter what. Yes, that be his name. I love him with all my heart. I'd be dead without him or you gals.
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:48 pm
Fagosaurus Rex Pure Vampyre He destroyed my life...
I usually find encouragement in thinking that someone has had a worse life than me, but I suppose that is just the way I think.
It's such a shame what has happened to you.
I have experienced similar, but of course, it is never the same so I can say I understand, but I can never KNOW what it has been like for you.
Your little brother is lucky to have you. I used to have to protect my older brother. >_< Although he would never admit it now.
You are lucky that you are able to freely plan your future, though, and get the good things that you deserve.
Now I will destroy him. Yeah. I pretty much have my fiance and you girls for saving me. D': I've known all of you gals longer than my fiance. I love you all. And I'm so glad that I'm able to talk to you gals about everything. Thanks for your support, Vampy. <3
No problem.
I am always here for a chat, or to give advice and stuff.
Now I will destroy him.
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:49 pm
WinterBean Wow Fago....
just... wow.
I don't know what to say...
I guess all that's really there for me to say is,
I'm sorry.
And I hope that everything in your life goes well...
You know,
sometiems I have good days,
and sometimes I have bad days,
and PPS has been therefore me and helped me a lot...
and I just wish I could return the favor for some people,
take a bit of the pain away,
and put it on myself.
I wish more than anything I could... It's fine. My life's getting better now.
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:51 pm
Miss Em Malicious
I always know that there are people that are better off than me, but there's people out there that definitely have it worse.
You prove to me that you have it worse than me, and I'm sorry to say that, but thanks for sharing that. You've made me realize that I shouldn't complain about a lot of s**t.
I love you, remember that.
I hope you're okay, and you will remain to be okay.
I know how it's like to be beaten, physically and mentally. I know how it is to have irresponsible parents, and I feel your pain. Not exactly and to the extent of it, but I do.
*hugs*
I love you.I love you, too. *Hugs back* I'm sorry you know a similar feeling. D':
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:53 pm
SakuraWars I always told my friend that they're is people that probably have it worse.
And She freaks out about how she looks and how she got bullied other stuff that is stupid.
And YOU! Even though you went all through that. You keep yourself up and your head up high and alway think on the positive side of life!
I've always use to get beat up at school in elementary, but I always pulled through and thought positive.
There should be more people like you.
Aww. I've never thought of myself as positive. I always thought I was pessimistic. Lmao.
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:55 pm
Fagosaurus Rex Miss Em Malicious
I always know that there are people that are better off than me, but there's people out there that definitely have it worse.
You prove to me that you have it worse than me, and I'm sorry to say that, but thanks for sharing that. You've made me realize that I shouldn't complain about a lot of s**t.
I love you, remember that.
I hope you're okay, and you will remain to be okay.
I know how it's like to be beaten, physically and mentally. I know how it is to have irresponsible parents, and I feel your pain. Not exactly and to the extent of it, but I do.
*hugs*
I love you.I love you, too. *Hugs back* I'm sorry you know a similar feeling. D':
It's nothing bad.
I mean, it really sucks, but dude, it's fine.
I'm glad that I've experienced those things because then I can relate to people like you that are going through all this stuff.
It really helps.
And if I can help someone, then that means I have a purpose. And I love having a purpose.
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:56 pm
Fagosaurus Rex SakuraWars I always told my friend that they're is people that probably have it worse.
And She freaks out about how she looks and how she got bullied other stuff that is stupid.
And YOU! Even though you went all through that. You keep yourself up and your head up high and alway think on the positive side of life!
I've always use to get beat up at school in elementary, but I always pulled through and thought positive.
There should be more people like you.
Aww. I've never thought of myself as positive. I always thought I was pessimistic. Lmao. Nooo, your a very bright person.
I've never thought that someone as nice as you, would go through that.
-hugs-
I love you
D":
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Posted: Mon Feb 04, 2008 8:58 pm
SakuraWars Fagosaurus Rex SakuraWars I always told my friend that they're is people that probably have it worse.
And She freaks out about how she looks and how she got bullied other stuff that is stupid.
And YOU! Even though you went all through that. You keep yourself up and your head up high and alway think on the positive side of life!
I've always use to get beat up at school in elementary, but I always pulled through and thought positive.
There should be more people like you.
Aww. I've never thought of myself as positive. I always thought I was pessimistic. Lmao. Nooo, your a very bright person.
I've never thought that someone as nice as you, would go through that.
-hugs-
I love you
D": Aww. *Blushieblushie* Thanks. *Hugs back* I love you, too. D': <3
Gahhh. I'm so lucky to have you girls here. You're all like my second family. D':
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