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Well i Decided to Take The First Spot on THe Official Rant Thread So Here it Goes.

Gosh where to start oh i know...i'll start with my parents. Ok i love my parents sooo much like they do so much for me, but after my drinking problem last year and almost failing out of university, my dad seemed to have lost a lot of hope in me. All of last semester he would hardly talk to me and whenever we got on the subject of school, he'd just reply with sarcastic remarks of me failing again... So to prove him wrong i studied my a** off and got a 95% average for last semester. However he's still acting like he thinks i'm going to break down and fail again. So yeah it's not really encouraging and i dont really know what to say to him about that.

ok next. I HAD TO STAY HOME ALLLL BLOODY WEEKEND THIS PAST WEEKEND CUZ MY FRIENDS ARE ACTING LIKE DOUCHEBAGS!!! yes it's ridiculous. Alright well my girlfriend is off at school again about 1300 miles away so i wont get to see her til summer. That means the only way i can communicate with her is by using instant messenger/webcam. my friends however are being fags about the situation and dont understant it even though i tell them 100billion times. not only that but most of my friends are dating and stuff...it's almost like a relationship group we have going haha. So yeah when i hang out, i dont feel like being an 11th wheel so i just stay home. And they think i'm being a loner! but how can i help that? i mean i'm freakin jealous that they get to be with the one they love while i'm here trying to ignore it and have fun with them but it just doesnt work!!! i really really miss my girl and my other friends arent even attempting to make it easier it really sucks.

And my sister is a retard. but thats all that needs to be said about that.

Well, for the first rant I know how it feels to not get any support from your parents. My dad and mom are the same with me. So I understand what you're going through. As hard as it may sound, you're just gonna have to stand up for yourself and pick yourself up whenever you're feeling down. By doing this I'd recommend looking for an outlet of some sort. Find something you can let your stress out on. I haven't quite found anything yet for myself, but I think playing video games usually puts me at ease.

As for the thing about your friends. Yeah, I know how it feels to hang out with a friend who is with their gf. They get all cuddly in front of you and kiss each other and s**t, and I agree that it tends to get very annoying. It's wrong of them to accuse you of acting like a loner. You should just straight up tell them that the only reason why you're not hanging with them is cause seeing them with their gf is reminding you about your gf that you can't see right now and it saddens you because you feel left out and really want to be with your gf too.

Well, there's my input. 3nodding

no prob. 3nodding

I would just like to throw out there, love ******** sucks. Sucks. At first, it's wonderful, but then it sucks. And hurts. And continues to hurt. So when you have to weak people in love, you continue to hurt eachother. Non ******** stop.

And I don't know why I can't let it go.

I second Keebee's rant.

Though I think love hurts more when the one you love turned out to be just pretending to love you just to play with your heart. Keebee knows the story...anyway, yeah I agree love sucks. Once you get your heart broken it's very hard to put yourself back together again on your own. It has taken me about 2 and a half years to forget about that incident, and I'm glad to say that I'm finally over that fake b***h. However, the scars are still there. It's hard for me to open up to anyone now and I have trust issues. Can't really blame me though since almost all of my rl friends have backstabbed me at one point. Anyway, I think I'm going to go to work now.

Oh, and Keebee, I agree with Ark's advice. Look for reasons not to love that person and just focus on that.

Neko. there's a reason why there's so much red, pink, and hearts on Valentine's day, the hallmark holiday. It's quite simple. February is the grayest month of the year. its the end of winter and its gray. And everyday it gets grayer and grayer, then wwhen you think it can't possibly get any grayer, the day is worse! So about half way through the month, we slit our wrists to see color. and that's valentine's day.
but yes Valentine's day is a stupid pointless holiday, that reminds the single they're single and makes the coupled spend lots of money on stupid things. and yes.... there's too much pink. my grocery store looks like the barbie asile at toy-r-us. But look on the bright side. It's over. Spring is coming up, and March was St. Patrick's day, which means lots of green. and you like green. so put the ultimate hallmark holiday behind you look forward to the spring of march and the green of St. Patrick's day.

Ok, I've been getting extremely frustrated these past few weeks and I really need to let out some steam so here goes:

Ok, where to start? Ok...my co worker, Heaven, (who I lended a printed copy of my story to) claimed that she had "lost" my story. My other co worker, Joe, said he found my story at my assistant manager's house. Heaven has been a long time friend of my assistant manager.

Anyway, ever since she told me she lost my story, she has been acting strange with me. All alienating herself from me and not making any conversation whatsoever. When I bring up my story you can tell that she pretends to be interested. So how do I respond to this? I say in my mind: "******** this b***h!" and completely ignore her now.

I can deal with constructive criticism, but I can't ******** stand liars! I don't give a s**t if it was for a good cause! I'm always straight-up with everyone, and I'd expect others to be straight-up with me in return. Yeah, it would've hurt my feelings for a brief moment if she had given me some criticism on my story, but I would've gotten over it and would've went back to fix things. But to lie to me about losing my story and try to avoid me afterwards...that s**t straight out makes me ******** sick!!! Honestly? I think Heaven is ******** pathetic! How insecure can one possibly be? I mean, what can she possibly gain by avoiding conversation with me? What? Does she hope that I will disappear?! <******** that!!

People like that make me sick.

On to my next rant:

Feels like I'm losing all of my friends. One of my best friends, Derek, who I've known since the 6th grade came over to my house the other day. It felt very awkward with him around. Like he and I didn't really converse that well and he and I don't really see eye-to-eye anymore like we used to. We went to a bar to hang out and he wasn't talking at all, like I was the one sparking all the conversations. Eventually I gave up and started conversing with some strangers beside me. I'm an a*****e for doing that, but hey, if you're not gonna talk to me, why the ******** should I talk to you?

It just feels like I'm losing everybody, not just Derek, but other friends I've met here on gaia. The guild feels like it's withering away, but I know it's my fault since I'm not advancing the storyline. Forgive me, but I'm not God, my mind is not that creative and it takes me awhile to think of new things for the RP. Also, I see no point in continuing the RP since we only have like maybe 4-5 people who actually post. New members never know what's going on and it would be too hard to explain everything. It feels like I'm electrifying a corpse, sparking a bit of life every so often, then it dies again.

I'm also having second thoughts about whether continuing with my book or not. Everyone I've asked to read it, has either been avoiding me or lying to me about reading it. Let's face it, my story ******** sucks and no one cares about it except maybe a few people in this guild, but the only reason why they like it is because they were apart of the story. So ofcourse you guys are going to enjoy reading a written story of the guild. Will I ever get anywhere with the story? No. And that is what makes me want to give up, because I need to stop wasting my time on stuff that doesn't matter and get my s**t together.

I'm 21, soon to be 22 in October and I have done absolutely NOTHING with my life since I graduated. I have no ambition whatsoever. I have no goals. No passions. I live a mundane and boring life working a dead end job that I don't even like that much. I'd give anything to be free. Free to have anything I want, to travel the world whenever and wherever I want. Free to learn martial arts, train with firearms, workout and get fit, etc.

I want to BE somebody, but I have no idea how...I lack the knowledge and motivation to do any of these things or to find out HOW to do any of these things. I've lived a sheltered life my entire life! My mother always did EVERYTHING for me. My father always ignored me and my sister only cared about herself. I was a very lonely kid who played alone in his room every day and night with his action figures or video games. I didn't have any real friends until the 6th grade. Got backstabbed by my best friend in 7th grade and got my heart broken that very same year. 8th grade, kids wanted to be my friend because I worked out and lost a lot of weight and looked much meaner. During highschool, I got my heart broken again, performed an honorable deed only to get backstabbed again, then moved away during my senior year to a school full of strangers. Graduated in a school with a bunch of people I didn't even know. Moved again to this ******** ghetto place. Been working with Gamestop ever since.

*sigh*

I'm such a ******** loser....I hate it. -_-