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Can someone be so busy that they can't even take the time to message me (offline or online, doesn't matter to me, and this one is well aware of it) and to either tell me to ******** off, or something nice like "Oh sorry, you gotta start messaging me at _____!"

Something other then being flat out ignored? Goddammit!

As you can imagine, this involves the boy.

I've tried bothering him time after time, I'll give him space, and then I'll try again to see if possibly he'll message me back. I've left open-ended questions, requests, stupid threats, and pretty obvious comments that say something along the lines of "I know I'm being ignored, and I will continue to be ignored until summer time. ):"

The only time he ignores me so much is when there's another girl in his life that's better then me, and catches his interest. Like Becca.

Becca is the chick that he fell in love with. Becca is the chick that has been avoiding him. Becca is the one girl that he could relate to so much better, and could talk to 24/7.. literally. Becca is the one last time who made him ignore me for THREE ******** MONTHS.

If Becca is back, and taking his attention again, I am no competition to her. She gets him, I lose.

Which, if she is back, why doesn't he message me back and say "Oh hai, I'm busy talking to other people that doesn't include you because you are not as awesome as the other people IE BECCA OMIGAWD SHE SO CUTE I LUF HER SO MACH, so please don't be worried; I'm still alive, and I'll talk to you when summer time comes around because I don't have anything else to do with my time during the summer, so I guess I could use you for awhile for a dumb distraction. kbye!"

It would hurt me to know there's a chicka out there that captures him better then I ever could, but atleast I would be less restless if I knew he was busy, not just ignoring me. Or even if I knew he was ignoring me.. I just want to know what he's up to, and how he is. I could care less about who he's in love with, just as long as he tells me he's okay, and doing well.

I read somewhere that if a guy is into you, he'll go out of his way to try and talk to you, and just generally be with you. If this is true, then what he's said was a complete ******** lie. He doesn't like me, he's not into me, and he probably never has been or will be.

He's not the only fish in the sea, I know.. But he was a damn good catch that I got my hands on, which happened to slip out of my hands and go back into the sea.

I'm just so confused by how he acts..
He says he likes me, he acts accordinally for a week or two, and then forgets me.

We both talked about this before well.. something similar, and he once told me that since I'm 14 and all, he can't expect much from me yet, and him being.. well, older, I cannot expect anything from him.

Does that mean I get absolutely nothing, even on a friendship terms? Is it so wrong to expect things out of him as a friend?

I feel guilty knowing I shouldn't expect something from him, but I do. All I expect is a message or two back. I don't care what the message contains, preferably filling me in with details and things that I should know.. but if it was just one stupid message, I would be a lot happier..

Or maybe not?

I don't know.

I'm really frustrated, angry, and hurt.

I have to agree. But, should I write him off completely, ie: end the friendship? I've known him for 3-4 years, it's kind of hard to cut a friendship that's lasted that long off..

I mean, he's not a bad guy, he's actually pretty great and all.. he's just not into me. Is that worth ending the friendship? Is it possible to be friends after he's discovered I'm moving on, and a friendship is all he's getting?

I know it would not be wise to try that anytime soon, because that'll just slow the progress of "moving on", but.. maybe sometime in the near future, when I'm sure of things, maybe I can still hold a friendship with him?

Or.. is that just a disaster waiting to happen?

Do you know him in real life?