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 Posted: Wed Jan 23, 2008 2:43 pm
Alright, here's the dealie. Recently, I've been questioning psionics, parapsychology, all that jazz. I have a bad habit of over exaggeration and finding mysterious, interesting stuff to occupy my head with out of sheer boredom. Basically, I really wanted to believe it was true but I had to seriously question if what has happened to me thus far was really just my imagination.
I've been practicing for a couple weeks. I had been into this stuff before and could already create a simple, weak psi ball. Micro PK was also not too hard for me. But nothing I did, even going through 100 trials of dice and getting a nice 24 rolls of 6 instead of the average 16-17. Still, I wasn't convinced very well. I decided I would face my fears and do something risky.
I have an emotion bottling problem. I can often feel my emotions of hate and anger at the back of my head locked away. It was night time, I was laying in my bed yet wide awake. I tried making a psi ball with the energy I had left over from the day. About the same strength as always but took awhile. I had the brilliant idea: "Let's get a kick start, see if I can do something. All I have to do is borrow some of that pent up emotion. I can also see if I can control myself while in such an enraged state."
As you can guess, I opened it up and let flow into my body. The anger I had stored up and released... It was kinda scary. However, mentally I could keep it in check, control it. However, physically, I had a very rough time. My mouth opened and my teeth showing, nose scrunched up and eyebrows low. I tried to use it to make another psi ball. I couldn't find ANYTHING. Nothing. When I tried to focus energy to my hands and out, I couldn't get anything outside my hands and my fingers twitched rapidly and uncontrollably. After I settled down, I felt like I was going to throw up and I wasn't feeling all too good.
The next morning, I wake up with a horrid pain where I try and draw energy from. I also had a really bad headache on the sides of my head. A little while later, like I do every morning, I tried to meditate and circulate energy. I couldn't and managed to make my headache flare up. Of course I stopped. The headache went away pretty fast but randomly for about 4 hours after waking up, the area above my stomach would hurt and cramp. It wasn't like a normal cramp, I didn't even have to move and it would only last about 7 seconds at the most.
So, what the heck is going on? Should I stop trying anything psi related for a couple days or something?
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Posted: Wed Jan 23, 2008 3:01 pm
I don't do much of anything with psionics, but I find when I get angry and enraged like that, my stomach and/or head are usually messed up for a few days. It sounds like muscle spasms to me.
Just thought I'd drop that in there. As far as psionics go, I don't know. I wouldn't try that again until your stomach settles back down, but I don't see why you shouldn't keep practicing.
It sounds like what happened was that instead of going into a psiball, the pent-up energy and anger was expelled through normal outlets. If your stomach and head didn't hurt, you'd probably feel refreshed and relaxed.
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Posted: Wed Jan 23, 2008 8:15 pm
Just take it easy until you feel better. No reason to force anything and really hurt yourself.
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Posted: Wed Jan 23, 2008 9:45 pm
I used to try to make psiballs out of the anxiety I felt in my stomach, but they always just returned to where they came from... so it doesn't look like making psiballs out of negative emotions is a good idea. You could've been forcing it too hard as well. Psi tends to be more cooperative if it's allowed to flow instead of being pushed... at least... that's how I've seen it work. Also, EFT might help you with your pent-up emotions, if they're bothering you. I haven't looked too much into it yet, but even if it is a placebo, it's a pretty good one.
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Posted: Thu Jan 24, 2008 3:08 pm
On a side note, there's a stomach virus going around that's kind of consistent to with the stomach pain you're having. Sharp, painful cramps at the top of the stomach. It could be that if it's accompanied with the nausea or any diarrhea, too.
I know this because I woke up with it this morning.
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Posted: Thu Jan 24, 2008 3:18 pm
Moonlit Jade I used to try to make psiballs out of the anxiety I felt in my stomach, but they always just returned to where they came from... so it doesn't look like making psiballs out of negative emotions is a good idea. You could've been forcing it too hard as well. Psi tends to be more cooperative if it's allowed to flow instead of being pushed... at least... that's how I've seen it work. Also, EFT might help you with your pent-up emotions, if they're bothering you. I haven't looked too much into it yet, but even if it is a placebo, it's a pretty good one. >_>... You calling me an Emo? That's not very nice of you, I'm anti-emo. I'm the kid that manages to smile even when things look bad. I just happen to bottle my emotions of sadness and hatred. I've gotten better about it but I still have enough to warp my personality.
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Posted: Thu Jan 24, 2008 5:45 pm
Pyrokin132 Moonlit Jade I used to try to make psiballs out of the anxiety I felt in my stomach, but they always just returned to where they came from... so it doesn't look like making psiballs out of negative emotions is a good idea. You could've been forcing it too hard as well. Psi tends to be more cooperative if it's allowed to flow instead of being pushed... at least... that's how I've seen it work. Also, EFT might help you with your pent-up emotions, if they're bothering you. I haven't looked too much into it yet, but even if it is a placebo, it's a pretty good one. >_>... You calling me an Emo? That's not very nice of you, I'm anti-emo. I'm the kid that manages to smile even when things look bad. I just happen to bottle my emotions of sadness and hatred. I've gotten better about it but I still have enough to warp my personality. No, I am not calling you an Emo. xP The URL could just use a better name. >>
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Posted: Thu Jan 24, 2008 5:56 pm
iknow this isnt my busyness...but dont bottle every thing up! let it out! thats what were here for! to help! and we can only help if you let it out! if ya need...i'll allways be here to listen!
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Posted: Fri Jan 25, 2008 4:02 pm
So-chan 15 iknow this isnt my busyness...but dont bottle every thing up! let it out! thats what were here for! to help! and we can only help if you let it out! if ya need...i'll allways be here to listen! Sure it's your business. That's why I posted it here. But it's only at times of great stress, or anger. If I'm ticked at a friend oh well. I'm angry a few minutes and I get over it. More delicate things of great emotional difficulties, such as preventing a suicide, or my mother going into the hospital. I don't have time to go rant online, and emotions will just get in the way. I can't imagine how much those things would suck if I let me emotions run free.
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Posted: Fri Jan 25, 2008 4:45 pm
Pyrokin132 So-chan 15 iknow this isnt my busyness...but dont bottle every thing up! let it out! thats what were here for! to help! and we can only help if you let it out! if ya need...i'll allways be here to listen! Sure it's your business. That's why I posted it here. But it's only at times of great stress, or anger. If I'm ticked at a friend oh well. I'm angry a few minutes and I get over it. More delicate things of great emotional difficulties, such as preventing a suicide, or my mother going into the hospital. I don't have time to go rant online, and emotions will just get in the way. I can't imagine how much those things would suck if I let me emotions run free. Agreed. There are some things that are better dealt with by keeping a calm facade. But only a facade. I mean, maybe it's for the best to keep it all in while these things are happening, but afterward, it's good to talk to someone about them. Even if it's just some random dude on the bus. Seriously. That had me ******** up for years. It's debatable whether I'm actually better now, but...that's just because I'm me. And I can't deal with s**t like a normal human being. Yay for developmental ineptness.
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Posted: Sun Jan 27, 2008 3:02 pm
I guess... It's been getting better but I suppose talking to a friend couldn't hurt.
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Posted: Mon Jan 28, 2008 9:07 am
'bout the pains.
Really, you've got yourself screwed up. I did something along the lines of that once. I was sick for some time. I can't remember when I did it (about a month ago) but I used too much energy/magic into something (I can't remember if I was making something light up or my healing. /: Prob'ly both)
Heck, I still have a pain in my sides from it. I can't run, or I do some crazy crap when I get those pains.
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Posted: Sat Feb 16, 2008 9:13 am
nnegative energies rarely work to anyone's benefit as you found out, the best idea is to convert that energy to good energy..... such as anger at a dog to love for a cat.....positive energy works alot better in my experience, *thinks back to the huge storeroom of pent up emotion* yep.... and my advice about the pains or any other imbalance is to ground and center, then exchange energy preferably to your breathing. Bad energy out, good energy in..... holding bad energy in, is destructive, trust me, i see it all the time....
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