Hold Me Like You Held Onto Life...
Eh...
Why does life have to be so difficult?
I'm in the process of filing for a legal separation from my husband, which I never thought would be so hard, since I have to figure out property aspects, custody agreements and other things.
Sad thing is, my husband doesn't know I'm filing, but then again, it isn't my fault.
The thing that set me into motion, since I've been considering this for forever, is that for the last two weeks or so, excluding this week, he's been telling me that he was going to try and make it home (he's a truck driver) and then he'd get a load and not be able to.... Well, when he finally got an opportunity to come home, what does he do? Goes down to his mothers. Which I don't care, you know, but he hasn't been home to see his daughter, who's now six months, since Christmas.... She's now crawling and has a tooth in, which he hasn't seen.
If it was just me and him, I guess I wouldn't mind much... Well, that's a lie, since I'm positive that he's cheating on me. And another thing is, I'm in love with another man, have been for years. And it's never struck as deep until Cody told me that he'd adopt Hannah Grace and be her father when Sam and I split.... It hit in my heart that I married the wrong man.
The thing that's going to upset me most about this separation is that I'm going to get a lot of people doing the whole "I told you so" bit, which yes, in a way I understand, but what they're not going to think is that because I married Sam, I got a beautiful daughter that I'd never regret having.
Life's a pain in the a**, the way things work out.
Plus that, I need to get laid.
Badly.
Another problem with Sam.
*shakes head*
Whatever...
My rant is over...
...Love Me Like You Loved The Sun
