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You are not that big at all.

Frankly, I get that too from my "friend" Travis. I'm 135. It all depends on the person. Todd is not the right kind of person. He's a jerk. It seems these days you either have to show bone or your obese to some people. It's crap.

It think your a real hottie and just because you're sorrounded by girls who are 100-120 and guys who like that, doesn't mean thats what everyone everywhere wants. Look at all the FAs on this forum.

Don't be sad. Be curvy and proud. ALL the time. Dont ever let one persons one little phrase tear that self esteem down.

I think you have a wonderful a**, and I'm jealous... first off. I have a nice one, but yours is real nice. *envy envy*

And now, to the meaningful post: I am 234ish... I've actually lost weight I was 10lbs(ish) heavier, and have been too tired and sore to try to lose weight lately. I'm 5'7, I don't know if that will say anything...but I'm pretty damn heavy. At my heaviest I was 252...although that was stress-induced. I WISH I was at 200lbs again. So 205 is, while on the heavy side, no means "that big".

Here are a few possible situations:
1)Todd really digs fat chicks, and he thinks your hot. He wanted a reason to poke your belly and he felt the need to cover up for his secret and powerful love of fat chicks.
2)Todd is really insecure about his weight, feels he is too skinny and thinks to remind people that skinny people are awesome he should pick on the fat person. You are helping him out by letting him pick on you, you are a good person. (Note: I would have slapped him had it been me... just for touching me. I would've just made a snappy come-back otherwise).
3)Todd learned to dislike fat people, most likely from his parents... it's an unjustified hatred, but really you should feel sorry for him because he's missing out on wonderful friendships and it's causing him to have a shitty personality.

I've heard often of guys who really like the chubbier girl, but are more intimidated by her than the skinnier girl... or afraid of what their friends will think... so while all the guys seem to go for the 100-120lb girls, that doesn't mean that's what they prefer.

And on a side note: you look like somebody I would LOVE to play dress up with. Like, I think it would be so fun to give you clothes to try on and coo over you and your hair and makeup and be like "LOOK HOW AWESOME YOU LOOK IN THIS!". I've watched too many of those shows where they dress people up, I want to do it too crying I have a few friends I really want to do it to, who are also really pretty...so really, it's a compliment... I hope it doesn't sound otherwise gonk *paranoid*

Aw! I love dress up! ^^ I've always wanted to do that, but none of my friends like that kind of thing. :[

And thank you. You really don't know how much that meant to me. I've been really insecure about it lately, and that totally made my day.

That could be it... Any one of those things. Either way, I wish he'd just leave me alone. :[

My boyfriend cheered me up today too. He was whispering really sweet things into my ear, like I meant the world to him, he thought I was beautiful, and he wanted to marry me and have kids with me someday. And just now he was looking at me and saying he was sad because I was sad, and he kissed my hand. =^^= I feel a LOT better.

Oh, and I've seen your a** - it's purdy! I like it! Be proud! <3

Yes!! <33 I wanna play!!

I LOVE to shop. Yeah, none of my friends like that either. Usually I shop with my boyfriend [Who is a bit on the girly side sometimes, which sometimes I like, sometimes I don't] or with one friend, who's so gothic she goes straight for the boy clothes and black makeup, and if you aren't wearing the same things as her she freaks out and screams "MORE BLACK!!" ...Kay. :/

I WISH I had a job. I wanted to work at the nursing home by setting up tables and junk, but I'm too YOUNG. You have to be 18 to set up tables??

:/

I know. My boyfriend is one-in-a-billion. He's the best thing that's ever happened to me, even with both our problems. He's, like, my angel. My fish in the sea.

xD Corny. Hey, that rhymed!! Even more corny! *falls over*

OMG That would be SO COOL!! I would die with happiness. Well, you'd bring me back to life, ne? :'3

Yeah!! *dances* OMG I'm so packing already! lol

But seriously. I think it's a totally awesome idea. We'd, like, have to pick a place. <3 I live two and a half hours away from the Mall of America - The biggest mall in the whole US!! And it's got a bunch of kewl stores. Technically it's in Minnisota, but I live in Northern Iowa. x'D Too much info? D;

gonna close my eyes...and watch you go.

running through this life, darling...like a field of snow.