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Long story.
Prepare nao.
:c

So yes. You know my ex. And the trouble we've been having.
Well, sometimes I read his Gaia PMs, because of Tellie (I'm actually saying her name now. >_>) and because I am a nosy/jealous little b***h. I usually only read the stuff from her, sometimes much to my despair. (Think of stupid little lovenotes).

Well, on Wednesday I learned they were going for a walk. Of course, I'm nervous now, because he's single, she's single, blahblahblah. So, my friend Cory is trying to calm me down while I freak out about it, because of course, I assume they're having sex, and other things like that. Me and him have had sex before, so of course it's pretty normal for me to get defensive about it. Although, I highly doubt someone as innocent as Tellie would initiate something like that. But of course, the strings have been pulled, and I'm going insane.

So yesterday, since I wasn't at school all week, except for Tuesday, he wanted to come over and see me.
Which of course, is acceptable. I wanted to see him too.

And he comes over, and we hang out downstairs and whatever.
And some things lead to another, and... >_> Yeah. Sex. Which I am sure no one in here wants to hear about, so I will continue on to the depressing part.

So, we're getting dressed, and of course, he just has to say it then.
"I kissed her last night."
Of course, I am absolutely speechless. I have nothing to say, really. I think I went into honest-to-God denial. He told me what happened (I was so zoned out, I couldn't remember to tell you), but after he asked what I had to say.
And of course, I could only say the only rational thought that came up in my mind.
"I have put my trust in the wrong people."

And now he's speechless. "Well, you're single, she's single, and I'm single. So it's not really cheating."
"So, if you're not a cheater, you're a player then."
"N-No!"
"You're gonna go out on walks with her, swap some spit, and the next day come here and ******** me?"
Now he is completely speechless, and I had said what needed to be said.
We started talking about something else, and he asked if I would walk with him to his house, so I did.

And while we were walking, I had nothing to say, really. He asked if I was happy. I said I was. :/ Even though I wasn't.

I'm so angry right now. When I got home, I snapped back to the reality of the situation, and I was so angry that I smashed a plate that was in my room.
:/ I'm violent, okay? Stfu.
And I don't get that angry ever. The only time I ever got so angry that I broke something was when I was ******** nine.

Just... ugh.
I needed someone to rant to.
And possibly any advice that could be thrown onto the table.
._. Anyone else gone through something like this, possibly?

Yes.
That's very true.

For the past few weeks, he's been wondering who he should date, or if he should stay single.
And I remember while we were walking to his house, he said he had made his decision after he kissed her. I guess he wants me, now. Because with her, it's doesn't feel right.
Well, it honestly doesn't justify what he did. It seems as if he's coming up with excuses now.

Edit
And it's also weird, because last Friday when I was at her house, Tellie said he was an a*****e and she would never go out with him, ever.

Yet, there is kissing going on.
Hm.
She obviously a ******** liar, or doesn't know how to reject people who are laying their lips on her.

He is selfish.
But I have to say, he's actually does righteous things the majority of the time. He only finds the easy way out of very small situations.
I honestly could care less about her.
>_>
But if all else fails, I'm not going out with him anymore. Cause I deserve better, at least.

Nononono.
xD I'm not scared to go to school because of him or her.
I'm just home today because if I went today, I would have snapped and like... killed one of them.
:c

It's okay, Katty. <3
Just ranting to someone helps tremendously.