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 Posted: Mon Dec 03, 2007 11:58 pm
The spotted femme stalked through the trees, her nose keeping her safely away from the scents of her brother's lands. It was pleasure enough to know that he would agonize over her proximity to his beloved little family, so she would bide her time before stepping foot over his little border.
Skipping over a fallen branch, she snarled savagely in joy at the memory of her little brother's face when she had attacked that blue male with him. That . . . Alexander. But lately, as she had stalked the huge alpha, she had seen him with another wolf. This one was black, with blue splashed on him like the Northern Lights in winter. She had bit back a contemptuous giggle when she had heard her little brother call the other male his "Northern Lights."
Could be a good game to play, a voice murmured boredly, interrupting her thoughts. The femme lifted her lips in a silent snarl as the other voices joined the first.
Your little brother is just as twisted as you are, dear Moirai.
Yes, but she's not an abomination. Our little dear is simply . . . misguided. That filthy spotted giant, however, is sick.
"Shut up," Moirai growled, her small form darting under a stand of thick green firns without even disturbing them. She sought the river to quench her thirst, and possibly to find some fish. The femme pondered bringing a morsel back to her play toy, but then she giggled and remembered that she didn't care.
Moirai had already gotten what she wanted.
Your pups will probably kill you, later on.
The spotted femme froze, eyes glassy as the words penetrated her thoughts.
Just like you killed mommy dearest, little Moirai.
Do you remember that?
Do you remember killing her?
Ripped her to pieces, you did. What a bloody sight.
"NO! I didn't kill her!" The femme snarled viciously, pawing at her ears in an attempt to quiet the voices. She hadn't killed her mother! Deimos had! Not her!
Than why isn't she here now, Moirai?
Where's your mommy dearest, if you didn't rip out her throat?
Whining now, Moirai leapt forward into a full run, her anguish and rage blinding her. She didn't feel the rocks that tore at her pads, or the branches that dragged sharp points through her fur, laying open her side in a line of blood. Her run was one of madness, and she didn't remember the drop off until it was too late.
Paws scrabbling ineffectively, the small wolf went tumbling over the edge into the river below.
Mommy killer, mommy killer, mommy killer . . .
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Posted: Tue Dec 04, 2007 11:32 am
Bia had been heartbroken ever since she had found her sons, and had them turn their backs on her. She still kept alive the hope that her daughter was alive somewhere, and hopefully sane. If her sons could not forgive her, perhaps her daughter could? After all was a mothers love for her children not the most powerful feeling in the world? Perhaps not, or she would have been able to stand her ground and remain with her own. How it had tormented her day and night never had she known that her pups had been fatherless and lonely. If only she could have seen what would happen she never would have left any of them.
"Moirai could you too be alive?" She sighed and headed towards the nearest river, now she had no intent of walking into the water. She wishes only to quench her thirst and draw up the memory of her first born.
Bia turned curiously her ears perking at the sound of a splash, a rather large one at that. She curiously followed the river up her nose twitching but no scent could overcome the waters moisture.
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 1:20 pm
The impact and the biting cold of the water knocked the breath from her lungs, and sent the voices back into the darkness. Dazed, Moirai paddled her legs listlessly, trying in vain to discern what was up or down. Her entire left side ached where it had impacted the water, but it was quickly growing numb, making it harder to move.
The current dragged her body against a rock just beneath the water's surface, and she used it to pull herself up, breaking the surface with a whimpering gasp, oxygen filling her lungs painfully as she took in great gulps.
Shivering violently, her claws scrabbled at the rock, worn slippery smooth over time by the river. Finding a tentative grasp, she clung to the boulder feebly, exhausted. She was in the middle of the river, at its deepest point, and her body ached too badly to even think about swimming for shore.
It would be so easy to fall asleep, let the darkness take her before the water did. Than she wouldn't feel her lungs filling with the cold liquid, wouldn't notice as her heart sped briefly before slowing.
So easy . . .
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 9:13 pm
Bia gasped as her eyes rested on what had created the splash, how ironic that she had been saved from a drowning only to save another like herself. She ran as quick as she could to the bank and looked around uncertainly, the river was strong here she could lower a branch and rely on the others strength, or jump in and rely on her own.
She frowned, her mind and heart were weary from emotional trauma, but her body was as fit as ever, a life alone even after pups had shaped her back into a muscled form despite being a bit slimmer then was the norm. She tooka deep breath and howled.
"Hold on!" She leapt into the water trying to get the jump to land her near the other to avoid a swim. She grabbed Moirai by the scruff and turned to swim towards the shore, but the she wolf was heavy. Bia gasped as the water hit her, the other wolf sapping her strength and dragging her down, but if she couldn't save the other female she would go down with her, no more leaving others behind!
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 9:24 pm
Moirai was beyond numb, yet she suddenly felt the muted grasp of fangs on her scruff, and then she was being pulled from the rock. Disoriented and weak, she struggled feebly to keep her hold on the only thing saving her from drowning, but then the other wolf had pulled them both away from its rough embrace, and she let her body sag.
The water slowly started creeping back over her again, and she belatedly realized that she was dragging them both down, her numb body dead weight in the current.
Dragging up the last, flickering strength from her deepest reserves, Moirai filled her lungs, hoping it would help to keep her somewhat bouyant. Using her feet, she paddled as best she could, but mostly she tried to keep her body from becoming hazardous dead weight again, hoping it was enough.
She had no more to give.
At least the voices are gone, she murmured to herself, not realizing that she spoke outloud.
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 9:51 pm
Bia would have liked to ask what voices, to comfort the weak she wolf, but she was too busy throwing herself and the other onto the shore. She panted and finally let go of Moirai's scruff after making sure they were safe.
"Wha..what Happened?!" She pulled in the sweet lungfulls of air and slowly rose to her feet to shake off. Slowly she moved to lean over the she wolf and a gasp escaped her, the scent, the markings...
Bia backed away and sat down shocked as if she had been thrown back into icy waters. "Moirai..." she choked.
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 10:01 pm
Shivering violently, the lean spotted wolf weakly coughed up water, her ears flattened to her skull in misery. She looked like a drowned rat, and felt worse.
All she wanted to do was sleep . . .
But then the other wolf, whom she had almost forgotten about, spoke her name, and Moirai grew puzzled, lifting her head to stare at the other wolf with bleary eyes. She couldn't focus on the wolf, and didn't recognize Bia for who she was.
"How . . . my name . . . " she managed, but then her head fell back to the pebbles littering the shore, and she slipped thankfully into the dead sleep of the utterly exhausted.
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 10:15 pm
Bia frowned as Moirai passed out and moved forward to bury her muzzle against her daughters neck. Deeply she inhaled the old familiar scent and a soft sob of horro escaped her. How many more of these run ins could she take? Was this finally her daughter, sane and needing her mothers love? Or had insanity driven her beloved firstborn into the waters.
Bia moved to lay beside Moirai the red tearstreak markings that ran down her face fit well with the tragic emotions that raged within her heart. Would this child of hers reject her as well? She couldn't blame them, any of them for wanting naught to do with her. Still it was a mothers right and duty to hope for the love of her own children.
Gently she nosed her sleeping daughter and waited for her to come too. All the while Bia pressed close to keep her warm.
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 10:24 pm
It took little more than an hour for Moirai to pull herself from the darkness of sleep. The voices had followed her into her sleep, and it had done little to revive her.
Shaking with weariness, she bolted to her feet, unsure of her surroundings at first. Then the mad dash, the fall, and the rescue all came roaring back, and she looked down at the wolf next to her, blinking her eyes in utter, shocking surprise.
Mother . . . she thought to herself stunned. The voices suddenly stilled, growing silent. They had no fodder to throw at her anymore, what with the touchable form of her mother just feet from her.
She saved me.
Without realizing it, she had cowered down, her tail slipping between her legs as her ears flattened to her skull. She wasn't afraid; her body was filled a warmth so amazingly sweet, she felt like weeping. And then she was upon her mother, covering her face and ears in sweeps of her tongue, puppy whimpers falling in a constant song from her throat.
"Momma!"
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 10:30 pm
Bia sat shocked for a moment before she moved closer to her only daughter and placing a paw round her licking her face, neck, and nuzzling her tenderly.
"My baby...my poor lonely little girl..." She gently nuzzled her closer and muttered against her ear.
"I'll never leave you alone again Moirai...I promise...I'll never leave you again..." She rocked slowly close against her firstborn and amazed at the rising joy within her. She had one of her babies back, she would do anything for her child now, anything at all.
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 10:45 pm
Aww, mommy dearest seems happy to see you Moirai. But, what was that? She left you?
Of course she left you, Moirai.
You're insane.
Who wouldn't?
Shaking her head savagely, Moirai snarled, willing the voices to be quiet. Then she pressed herself against her mother, tail wagging feverishly. "I thought you were dead! But you're not. You're . . . You're alive. Alive! And back. My momma." Nuzzling the older wolf, Moirai felt her heart soar with joy.
She'll leave again.
Leave you all alone.
Alone . . .
Alone . . .
Moirai grew more and more tense, her ears flattening against her skull. "Noooo . . . " she moaned, panting in fear, her eyes squeezed tightly closed.
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 10:52 pm
Bia frowned at the snarl but still she pressed close against her baby girl. She wouldn't draw away as she had when Moirai was a pup, now she understood that her child needed her to be strong in the face of this malady.
As Moirai tensed Bia pressed closer gently licking and nuzzling her. "Shhh shh I won't ever leave you again Moirai...I promise I'll never leave you again. I'll stay with you as long as you want my little one, I'll do whatever you want me to make it up to you, I never meant to leave you so alone...my poor little girl."
Gently Bia licked at Moirai's closed eyelids and nuzzled her. "Come now...relax..open your eyes I'm here...I will always be here for you." Bia promised herself she wouldn't turn from her own child ever again.
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 11:08 pm
When Moirai opened her eyes, the were glassy, seeming to swim with the madness that had been slowly driving her to the brink for years.
"Momma . . . why did you leave?" she suddenly asked, her voice utterly devoid of any emotion. It would have sent chills down any wolf's spine, and her eyes were still glassy, and unseeing, though the lean female turned her head in the general direction of her mother, cocking it slightly.
She left because she didn't want you.
You're not good enough.
Not good enough for your own mother.
Insane . . .
Alone . . .
Not wanted.
Not loved.
Freak, freak, freak . . .
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 11:17 pm
Bia frowned at the glassy look and nudged Moirai gently. "It's hard to explain baby..." You left your own children because you feared you had done this to them...and maybe you did do this. Maybe Moirai suffers so because of you... She took a deep breath.
"I didn't want to hurt you...I thought if your father raised you...you wouldn't...hear things...you wouldn't be so angry baby..you were always so angry!" She gasped softly and looked down.
"But...I won't leave again Moirai...no matter how angry you get...I understand now...It'll be okay baby you'll see..." She could only think to let the loving soothing words of a mother pour from her heart. Yes she remembered the vicious little pup, how she had startled at tiny growls, but even if her daughter attacked her she wouldnt back away again. Never Again.
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Posted: Thu Dec 06, 2007 11:30 pm
Hard to explain???
See how she mocks you?
You're nothing to her.
You were better off without her.
Moirai shook her head feebly, another snarl bubbling from her throat. Her hackles were raised, her legs stiff as she fought to keep herself in place. Then she started pawing at her ears, at first half-heartedly, but the voices continued.
You ARE better off without her.
One little bite.
That's all it would take.
Snap her neck and you can pretend you never saw her.
Just a figment.
Just a figment . . .
"No . . . " she moaned, the word cut off as her jaws clamped shut on her tongue. The femme tasted coppery sweetness. Her paws dug desperately at her ears, trying in vain to stop the words; she ground her head against the pebbles in agony even as she continued to claw. All at once, her paws started coming away stained with blood, but still the voices wouldn't stop.
"No. No! You left me! You LEFT ME!" she howled, her attention suddenly focused on Bia. Her eyes weren't nearly as clouded, but the temporary clarity only served to show the rage that tinged them red.
"It won't be okay. It won't! You don't . . . " Moirai seemed to collapse upon herself, her chest heaving. Then she shook her head, sending blood droplets flying to shower the earth, and to stain Bia's pelt even more. "You don't understand . . . "
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