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So, I looked through the threads, and I believe this is the right place to put this...Umm, please move it if it doesn't fit?
I'm rather shy (horridly, horridly shy ><) so telling you all this, stuff I'm pretty sure my mother isn't even clued in on yet, is a big leap for me. I'm trying to come out of that shell though, so here goes...
This is a current real issue in my life right now.
Everything just seems so...unreal lately. Things are slipping. I feel tired all the time, things just don't seem to be interesting me like they used too, and I can't sleep well. My friends? They're just there. The connections, the bonds are still there, there's just no feeling to it all. I almost feel like I'm drifting away from everyone, and it scares me.
I guess I just need to cheer up right? Grrr, I hate it when people tell me to "cheer up". I'm happy. I have no reason not to be. My entire family is still alive, I get A's in school, I have a passion for writing, I'm moving in the direction of my intended future...It's just this oppresive feeling that something is not right in my life. Not right at all...
I have had a reoccuring dream as of late. Though how weird it might sound, I think I am having glimpses of my "real home". It's like I was put here on Earth by mistake. That I don't belong here.
I'm not suicidal or anything, or incredibly high on fumes smile but this is what I'm going through. And I guess...I just want to know that I'm not going crazy. That maybe someone else has/is going through what I'm going through.
A response is not neccesary. Just knowing someone is reading this makes the burden lighter, but if you have an opinion on it, by all means share. I could use the help...
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So, I looked through the threads, and I believe this is the right place to put this...Umm, please move it if it doesn't fit?
I'm rather shy (horridly, horridly shy ><) so telling you all this, stuff I'm pretty sure my mother isn't even clued in on yet, is a big leap for me. I'm trying to come out of that shell though, so here goes...
This is a current real issue in my life right now.
Everything just seems so...unreal lately. Things are slipping. I feel tired all the time, things just don't seem to be interesting me like they used too, and I can't sleep well. My friends? They're just there. The connections, the bonds are still there, there's just no feeling to it all. I almost feel like I'm drifting away from everyone, and it scares me.
I guess I just need to cheer up right? Grrr, I hate it when people tell me to "cheer up". I'm happy. I have no reason not to be. My entire family is still alive, I get A's in school, I have a passion for writing, I'm moving in the direction of my intended future...It's just this oppresive feeling that something is not right in my life. Not right at all...
I have had a reoccuring dream as of late. Though how weird it might sound, I think I am having glimpses of my "real home". It's like I was put here on Earth by mistake. That I don't belong here.
I'm not suicidal or anything, or incredibly high on fumes smile but this is what I'm going through. And I guess...I just want to know that I'm not going crazy. That maybe someone else has/is going through what I'm going through.
A response is not neccesary. Just knowing someone is reading this makes the burden lighter, but if you have an opinion on it, by all means share. I could use the help...
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