Sometimes I wish there were no boundaries, to just be able to do whatever, to be able to be with whoever, and that distance was no problem. That you could be with someone in person no matter how far away they are.
I want to just sit in my room listen to every sad song ever made till my heart stops from the pain and the tears no longer flow.
I want there to be no authority, some say choas equals distruction, but I find more distruction is caused by bounderies then anything else.
I want to be able to just runaway and not stop till I find a place I can call home. Somewhere in your arms, somewhere that I feel safe.
I want to forget about all my ex's and focus on nothing but you. Without parents, school, moving, or life to get in the way.
I want to pour out my heart to you and have you understand everything I've ever felt towards you. I want you to care about me and love me and never let me out of your life.
I want my parents to understand that they are no long part of my life and that they should stop trying to be a part of it. They need to understand that they never got me and never will. They need to acdept that and move on with there own pathatic lifes, and let me live mine.
It's the thought of you that gets me thourgh the day. I hope that I might get to see you smile when I wake up in the morning. When I close my eyes your the only one I see. You keep invading my dreams and disturbing my once peaceful slumber. And my biggest fear is that you don't feel the same...
It's really bad when everything you thought you knew about him is wrong. That everything you thought he stood for is false. You told yourself you wouldn't fall for him. But now that you have you won't tell him. You can't tell him. Because your head is so screwed up you can't think straight, and the only thing you know is that it won't work out. So you try to save yourself the heartbreak, but doing so is driving you insane. Your heart jumps out of your chest when you see that he's on, and everything you see him you have to hold back the tears that threaten to spill from your eyes. But when he says hi to you, your heart explodes and you get this stupid a** grin on your face and you don't know how it got there, and try as you might you can't get it to go away. And in your heart you know, he doesn't feel the same.
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