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 Posted: Fri Nov 09, 2007 3:46 pm
Yes, more depressing song lyrics by me.
Why do I cling
To false hope
Like a drowning man to a rock?
I'll only exhaust myself
Slip and go under again
Chorus: Even though I know
It's so ******** hopeless
I still hold on
Even though I know
It's so god damn futile
I don't let go
Why do I cling
To a life that makes me hated
Even by myself?
I push everyone away
Just to wallow in my pain
Chorus
What's the point of trying?
It all goes to hell in the end
My ******** life stands before me
And I'll take it to the end
Torture myself till the end
Chorus
It's ******** hopeless!
All this s**t is hopeless!
So mother ******** hopeless!
And I just feel hopeless!
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Posted: Mon Nov 12, 2007 6:23 pm
Several years ago I wrote some exteremely depressing (and horrifyingly bad) poems. When I wrote them I told myself I was telling a story. That it wasn't how I really felt. I was wrong, and when I go back and read them now I know that. Our writings often tell what we really feel, even when we can't say it aloud and even when we ourselves don't want to admit that is how we feel. If this is how you are feeling, which I'm not saying that it is but just in case, then perhaps you should talk to someone. Even if it's just a friend. Life doesn't have to be hopeless. It took me a long time to learn that, but it's true. If you really feel this way there are things people can do to help. Reach out to someone you care about. You don't have to be alone.
The lyrics themselves are very well done. I like them a lot. I would love to hear them with the music.
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Posted: Mon Nov 12, 2007 7:01 pm
Hydra-Star Several years ago I wrote some exteremely depressing (and horrifyingly bad) poems. When I wrote them I told myself I was telling a story. That it wasn't how I really felt. I was wrong, and when I go back and read them now I know that. Our writings often tell what we really feel, even when we can't say it aloud and even when we ourselves don't want to admit that is how we feel. If this is how you are feeling, which I'm not saying that it is but just in case, then perhaps you should talk to someone. Even if it's just a friend. Life doesn't have to be hopeless. It took me a long time to learn that, but it's true. If you really feel this way there are things people can do to help. Reach out to someone you care about. You don't have to be alone. The lyrics themselves are very well done. I like them a lot. I would love to hear them with the music. It is how I feel. Unfortunatly I'm also fairly paranoid and don't want people I know having that kind of information about my life. And I'm starting to notice a theme to my lyrics. They both mention suicide and the fact that I'm not going to use that to escape my pain (in this one "I'll take it to the end/Torture myself till the end", and in Thorns "The only other option/includes too much bloodshed/too much pain [or something like that]")
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Posted: Thu Nov 15, 2007 8:19 pm
Luciferian_Depression Hydra-Star Several years ago I wrote some exteremely depressing (and horrifyingly bad) poems. When I wrote them I told myself I was telling a story. That it wasn't how I really felt. I was wrong, and when I go back and read them now I know that. Our writings often tell what we really feel, even when we can't say it aloud and even when we ourselves don't want to admit that is how we feel. If this is how you are feeling, which I'm not saying that it is but just in case, then perhaps you should talk to someone. Even if it's just a friend. Life doesn't have to be hopeless. It took me a long time to learn that, but it's true. If you really feel this way there are things people can do to help. Reach out to someone you care about. You don't have to be alone. The lyrics themselves are very well done. I like them a lot. I would love to hear them with the music. It is how I feel. Unfortunatly I'm also fairly paranoid and don't want people I know having that kind of information about my life. And I'm starting to notice a theme to my lyrics. They both mention suicide and the fact that I'm not going to use that to escape my pain (in this one "I'll take it to the end/Torture myself till the end", and in Thorns "The only other option/includes too much bloodshed/too much pain [or something like that]") Talking about it is hard. I didn't tell my parents until after I had almost tried to commit suicide. And I never meant to tell them either. I was mad and it just sliped out. But if you're thinking about suicide you need to talk to someone. It's hard to put yourself out like that. Real hard. And for me at least the real scary thing was that once I said it out loud it was suddenly more real. I couldn't take it back. But it's a release too, and in all likely hood one you need. I won't claim to know why you feel this way or understand everything about you, because in all likely hood I don't, but in the end there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It's hard to get to it, and it takes a lot of time, but the first step is talking about it. Until you talk about it, you can't let it go. Or at least that's the way it was for me. There is a way out. It's not easy and it won't be given to you. You have to work for it and sometimes you'll slip up. But with hard work and a little luck you can get to the point where you'll be happy again, and it's well worth the journey. Take it from someone who's made it.
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Posted: Fri Nov 16, 2007 5:07 pm
Hydra-Star Luciferian_Depression Hydra-Star Several years ago I wrote some exteremely depressing (and horrifyingly bad) poems. When I wrote them I told myself I was telling a story. That it wasn't how I really felt. I was wrong, and when I go back and read them now I know that. Our writings often tell what we really feel, even when we can't say it aloud and even when we ourselves don't want to admit that is how we feel. If this is how you are feeling, which I'm not saying that it is but just in case, then perhaps you should talk to someone. Even if it's just a friend. Life doesn't have to be hopeless. It took me a long time to learn that, but it's true. If you really feel this way there are things people can do to help. Reach out to someone you care about. You don't have to be alone. The lyrics themselves are very well done. I like them a lot. I would love to hear them with the music. It is how I feel. Unfortunatly I'm also fairly paranoid and don't want people I know having that kind of information about my life. And I'm starting to notice a theme to my lyrics. They both mention suicide and the fact that I'm not going to use that to escape my pain (in this one "I'll take it to the end/Torture myself till the end", and in Thorns "The only other option/includes too much bloodshed/too much pain [or something like that]") Talking about it is hard. I didn't tell my parents until after I had almost tried to commit suicide. And I never meant to tell them either. I was mad and it just sliped out. But if you're thinking about suicide you need to talk to someone. It's hard to put yourself out like that. Real hard. And for me at least the real scary thing was that once I said it out loud it was suddenly more real. I couldn't take it back. But it's a release too, and in all likely hood one you need. I won't claim to know why you feel this way or understand everything about you, because in all likely hood I don't, but in the end there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It's hard to get to it, and it takes a lot of time, but the first step is talking about it. Until you talk about it, you can't let it go. Or at least that's the way it was for me. There is a way out. It's not easy and it won't be given to you. You have to work for it and sometimes you'll slip up. But with hard work and a little luck you can get to the point where you'll be happy again, and it's well worth the journey. Take it from someone who's made it. Maybe, but first I'd need to find someone I actually trust. That's why it's easier for me to open up online, I know I'm never going to meet any of you, so there's no chance of you using anything I've said against me.
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Posted: Sat Dec 01, 2007 11:41 am
Luciferian_Depression Hydra-Star Luciferian_Depression Hydra-Star Several years ago I wrote some exteremely depressing (and horrifyingly bad) poems. When I wrote them I told myself I was telling a story. That it wasn't how I really felt. I was wrong, and when I go back and read them now I know that. Our writings often tell what we really feel, even when we can't say it aloud and even when we ourselves don't want to admit that is how we feel. If this is how you are feeling, which I'm not saying that it is but just in case, then perhaps you should talk to someone. Even if it's just a friend. Life doesn't have to be hopeless. It took me a long time to learn that, but it's true. If you really feel this way there are things people can do to help. Reach out to someone you care about. You don't have to be alone. The lyrics themselves are very well done. I like them a lot. I would love to hear them with the music. It is how I feel. Unfortunatly I'm also fairly paranoid and don't want people I know having that kind of information about my life. And I'm starting to notice a theme to my lyrics. They both mention suicide and the fact that I'm not going to use that to escape my pain (in this one "I'll take it to the end/Torture myself till the end", and in Thorns "The only other option/includes too much bloodshed/too much pain [or something like that]") Talking about it is hard. I didn't tell my parents until after I had almost tried to commit suicide. And I never meant to tell them either. I was mad and it just sliped out. But if you're thinking about suicide you need to talk to someone. It's hard to put yourself out like that. Real hard. And for me at least the real scary thing was that once I said it out loud it was suddenly more real. I couldn't take it back. But it's a release too, and in all likely hood one you need. I won't claim to know why you feel this way or understand everything about you, because in all likely hood I don't, but in the end there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It's hard to get to it, and it takes a lot of time, but the first step is talking about it. Until you talk about it, you can't let it go. Or at least that's the way it was for me. There is a way out. It's not easy and it won't be given to you. You have to work for it and sometimes you'll slip up. But with hard work and a little luck you can get to the point where you'll be happy again, and it's well worth the journey. Take it from someone who's made it. Maybe, but first I'd need to find someone I actually trust. That's why it's easier for me to open up online, I know I'm never going to meet any of you, so there's no chance of you using anything I've said against me. It can be hard to believe, but most people won't do that. If you really can't find someone you could go to someone who is legally bound not to do anything. A councilor, a teacher, a therapist, a doctor. There are organizations made to help. You could ask your doctor about anti-depressants. Whatever you choose, some burdens are to heavy to carry alone. If you're really thinking of suicide you need to get help.
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Posted: Sun Dec 02, 2007 4:58 pm
Hydra-Star Luciferian_Depression Hydra-Star Luciferian_Depression Hydra-Star Several years ago I wrote some exteremely depressing (and horrifyingly bad) poems. When I wrote them I told myself I was telling a story. That it wasn't how I really felt. I was wrong, and when I go back and read them now I know that. Our writings often tell what we really feel, even when we can't say it aloud and even when we ourselves don't want to admit that is how we feel. If this is how you are feeling, which I'm not saying that it is but just in case, then perhaps you should talk to someone. Even if it's just a friend. Life doesn't have to be hopeless. It took me a long time to learn that, but it's true. If you really feel this way there are things people can do to help. Reach out to someone you care about. You don't have to be alone. The lyrics themselves are very well done. I like them a lot. I would love to hear them with the music. It is how I feel. Unfortunatly I'm also fairly paranoid and don't want people I know having that kind of information about my life. And I'm starting to notice a theme to my lyrics. They both mention suicide and the fact that I'm not going to use that to escape my pain (in this one "I'll take it to the end/Torture myself till the end", and in Thorns "The only other option/includes too much bloodshed/too much pain [or something like that]") Talking about it is hard. I didn't tell my parents until after I had almost tried to commit suicide. And I never meant to tell them either. I was mad and it just sliped out. But if you're thinking about suicide you need to talk to someone. It's hard to put yourself out like that. Real hard. And for me at least the real scary thing was that once I said it out loud it was suddenly more real. I couldn't take it back. But it's a release too, and in all likely hood one you need. I won't claim to know why you feel this way or understand everything about you, because in all likely hood I don't, but in the end there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It's hard to get to it, and it takes a lot of time, but the first step is talking about it. Until you talk about it, you can't let it go. Or at least that's the way it was for me. There is a way out. It's not easy and it won't be given to you. You have to work for it and sometimes you'll slip up. But with hard work and a little luck you can get to the point where you'll be happy again, and it's well worth the journey. Take it from someone who's made it. Maybe, but first I'd need to find someone I actually trust. That's why it's easier for me to open up online, I know I'm never going to meet any of you, so there's no chance of you using anything I've said against me. It can be hard to believe, but most people won't do that. If you really can't find someone you could go to someone who is legally bound not to do anything. A councilor, a teacher, a therapist, a doctor. There are organizations made to help. You could ask your doctor about anti-depressants. Whatever you choose, some burdens are to heavy to carry alone. If you're really thinking of suicide you need to get help. But the thing is, I'm not, at least not as an option I ever intend to resort to, which is the point I was trying to make when I oringinally mentioned the developing theme in my lyrics. Through all the depressing lyrics, there's a little glimmer of hope in my thinly veiled statement in both songs that for me, suicide is not an option.
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Posted: Tue Dec 04, 2007 11:58 am
Luciferian_Depression Hydra-Star Luciferian_Depression Hydra-Star Luciferian_Depression Hydra-Star Several years ago I wrote some exteremely depressing (and horrifyingly bad) poems. When I wrote them I told myself I was telling a story. That it wasn't how I really felt. I was wrong, and when I go back and read them now I know that. Our writings often tell what we really feel, even when we can't say it aloud and even when we ourselves don't want to admit that is how we feel. If this is how you are feeling, which I'm not saying that it is but just in case, then perhaps you should talk to someone. Even if it's just a friend. Life doesn't have to be hopeless. It took me a long time to learn that, but it's true. If you really feel this way there are things people can do to help. Reach out to someone you care about. You don't have to be alone. The lyrics themselves are very well done. I like them a lot. I would love to hear them with the music. It is how I feel. Unfortunatly I'm also fairly paranoid and don't want people I know having that kind of information about my life. And I'm starting to notice a theme to my lyrics. They both mention suicide and the fact that I'm not going to use that to escape my pain (in this one "I'll take it to the end/Torture myself till the end", and in Thorns "The only other option/includes too much bloodshed/too much pain [or something like that]") Talking about it is hard. I didn't tell my parents until after I had almost tried to commit suicide. And I never meant to tell them either. I was mad and it just sliped out. But if you're thinking about suicide you need to talk to someone. It's hard to put yourself out like that. Real hard. And for me at least the real scary thing was that once I said it out loud it was suddenly more real. I couldn't take it back. But it's a release too, and in all likely hood one you need. I won't claim to know why you feel this way or understand everything about you, because in all likely hood I don't, but in the end there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It's hard to get to it, and it takes a lot of time, but the first step is talking about it. Until you talk about it, you can't let it go. Or at least that's the way it was for me. There is a way out. It's not easy and it won't be given to you. You have to work for it and sometimes you'll slip up. But with hard work and a little luck you can get to the point where you'll be happy again, and it's well worth the journey. Take it from someone who's made it. Maybe, but first I'd need to find someone I actually trust. That's why it's easier for me to open up online, I know I'm never going to meet any of you, so there's no chance of you using anything I've said against me. It can be hard to believe, but most people won't do that. If you really can't find someone you could go to someone who is legally bound not to do anything. A councilor, a teacher, a therapist, a doctor. There are organizations made to help. You could ask your doctor about anti-depressants. Whatever you choose, some burdens are to heavy to carry alone. If you're really thinking of suicide you need to get help. But the thing is, I'm not, at least not as an option I ever intend to resort to, which is the point I was trying to make when I oringinally mentioned the developing theme in my lyrics. Through all the depressing lyrics, there's a little glimmer of hope in my thinly veiled statement in both songs that for me, suicide is not an option. Well good. You had me scared there for a bit. Depression is hard, but the fact that you can admit that you probably are depressed, even if it's only on line, is a good sign. Just be careful not to get to deep in a hole, k?
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Posted: Fri Dec 07, 2007 9:00 pm
Hydra-Star Luciferian_Depression Hydra-Star Luciferian_Depression Hydra-Star Talking about it is hard. I didn't tell my parents until after I had almost tried to commit suicide. And I never meant to tell them either. I was mad and it just sliped out. But if you're thinking about suicide you need to talk to someone. It's hard to put yourself out like that. Real hard. And for me at least the real scary thing was that once I said it out loud it was suddenly more real. I couldn't take it back. But it's a release too, and in all likely hood one you need. I won't claim to know why you feel this way or understand everything about you, because in all likely hood I don't, but in the end there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It's hard to get to it, and it takes a lot of time, but the first step is talking about it. Until you talk about it, you can't let it go. Or at least that's the way it was for me. There is a way out. It's not easy and it won't be given to you. You have to work for it and sometimes you'll slip up. But with hard work and a little luck you can get to the point where you'll be happy again, and it's well worth the journey. Take it from someone who's made it. Maybe, but first I'd need to find someone I actually trust. That's why it's easier for me to open up online, I know I'm never going to meet any of you, so there's no chance of you using anything I've said against me. It can be hard to believe, but most people won't do that. If you really can't find someone you could go to someone who is legally bound not to do anything. A councilor, a teacher, a therapist, a doctor. There are organizations made to help. You could ask your doctor about anti-depressants. Whatever you choose, some burdens are to heavy to carry alone. If you're really thinking of suicide you need to get help. But the thing is, I'm not, at least not as an option I ever intend to resort to, which is the point I was trying to make when I oringinally mentioned the developing theme in my lyrics. Through all the depressing lyrics, there's a little glimmer of hope in my thinly veiled statement in both songs that for me, suicide is not an option. Well good. You had me scared there for a bit. Depression is hard, but the fact that you can admit that you probably are depressed, even if it's only on line, is a good sign. Just be careful not to get to deep in a hole, k? I'll try not to. And with me, I probably won't. I tend to maintain a safe level of pessimisticness were I see most of the stuff that might put me in too deep of a hole coming anyway, so it's not as bad.
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