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my 1st bf called me up a month ago, and since then we've been talkin a little, and hung out once. today he called and i had a bad feeling but my friends told me that i should try and be friends with him so i concented(but told my friend to call me at 2pm and pretend she was my mom, so he had to go home) so we got lunch and went to my house and i took out all the dvds and shows we could watch but then he asked me if he could do somthing. i was shocked and he attacked me and tackeled me to the ground and kept saying "sorry i'm so sorry" but he wouldn't stop and i was so shocked/numb i couldn't push him off but i kept saying "what are you doing? what's going on?" then he'd stop then attack me again. i feel sick/disguisted with myself and i can't get the taste/smell away from me, i feel like a slut for not screaming or kicking him off me, i just couldn't move. after i stoped him from taking off my cloths (finially had some feeling and wanted to throw up) he said sorry again then promised that "nothing will ever happen to you i promise" then he started pouting and i comforted HIM! i don't know what the hell i was thinking, i just feel like it's all my fault and i feel so gross......then he told me "this" didn't mean anything and not to tell anyone (bullcrap!! ironic ) i don' t like him, i hate myself and i feel disguisting

am i overreacting? i can't stop crying and gargeling....i feel pathedic

I dont think you will be safe around him......<.< if you hadnt stopped him, he might have raped/molested you. You should react to this situation because he attacked you. I would be scared if I were in that situation

I'm more conserend for the boy than her. She has been through alot yes, but whats going on in that boys head. He has mental issues and needs help before he hurts himself and others, and before he makes his crime worse. She'll live, and she wasn't raped, but I wish she would actualy tell us what happened. As long as she is ok now there is no worry. Just get that boy mental help.

i no what it like to have somtheng don too you men boys have owes don thans to me and get oway whith it so if you need some 1 to talk to im here to talk to becosu i dont whont you to end up like me scared and always have to feel like you need to watch your back like me sweatdrop pm me if you need to talk sad

You weren't raped, thank God, but you could have been. You're not a slut for not pushing him off. After all, it's not like you went over to his house and said, "Gee, wouldn't it be fun if you tried to force me into sex I don't want?" This guy has issues and you need to stay away from him. This is without a doubt the type of person that could rape you. Don't give him another chance to do it.

Cut off contact with him. Sure, he has problems in his life, and he probably had a really ******** up childhood. So what? It's his goddamn problem, and nothing gives him an excuse to go around trying to rape people. There are lots of people in this world that were sexually abused as children that don't do this s**t.

I'm really sorry that you had to go through this. I have been in several situations similar. One happened with an ex-boyfriend only it went to far. You have to remember no matter what that it is not your fault. It is NEVER the victims fault and you are a victim. Don't be afraid to come out and tell your parents or somebody else about it. My stepdad molested me for 6 1/2 years... and I believed I could never tell anyone about it.. but, now I am out about it...

If you ever need anyone to talk to I am here for you. Feel free to PM. I will always respond.

I would tell your mom at least. One thing I know is that silence is a powerful tool of repression.

unfortunatly.... the corts will be an a**... if he had raped you that is.... because he -as a guy and the guilty party- will claim that you told him it was okay... and since you allowed him over to your house, it would, if they beleived it was raped, be put under the catagory of "date rape" meaning that you infulanced him to do what he did or he was under the influence that there was npothing wrong with what he was doing because by the laws eye, what you were doing was considered a date: a pre arranged meeting between people of the opisite sex.... so he would probably get away with it.

i don't want you to think that i am cold for saying that, i just think that people need to know that that happens, cause there are, unfortunatly enough, girls out there that say, "okay... take me" and the turn around and say "rape". i know what it is like to have a guy try to do things to you that are not okay... alot of s**t has happened to me... but i have just recently started confessing... so feel free to PM me if you wanna talk k?

becca...