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I had an idea last night to make a thread for us to post personal problems, concerns, dilemas, whatever.. to seek advice from fellow guild members.
I figure we might all be, to some extent, of like mind.. so we might be able to help eachother out.

So if you need advice or outside opinions (which almost always help), post your issues here. Hopefully someone will respond.

(I hope this works)

Eat some. Satisfy that desire. I hope this helps.

What should I do if I suck as a person in general?

Well most of what I say annoys people. Also, even though I try not to be, most girls consider me chovanist phsyco. Every person I have ever been friends with have either been hurt emmotionally, physically, or directly by me. I try to make jokes that arn't funny, I often create ice at parties, and everyone thinks I am lazy, or too uncaring. Everytime I try to make somethign of myself I find some amazing new concept, religeon, process, or hobby, then I realize it kind of sucks, and slump down for a couple months.

Lastly I get in fights too easily and allways win.

Asperger syndrome is a social disorder. It gives me the oportunity to observe other people from a viewpoint most people can not comprehend.
I have tried to explain it many times, but they can't seem to understand.

Because of this, I know much more about human nature than most people, but know little to nothing about social graces, common manners, and socializing in general. I myself get confuzed about why I have friends in the first place.

Alltogether I would say asperger sydrome is nothing but an advantage to me.

well this is something that you will have to work out for yourself, but dont feel cursed by your gender. iti s a biological fact that men (and women) will want sex and that your age is the beginning of a period of tremendous transformation, but the fact that you have observed this occurance and that you think about how you behave is almost a guarantee that you will not turn out like the kind of men that women call pigs.
i will tell you something of my own past. as far as relationships go i have always been a little behind all my friends, i have always been introverted and often kept to myself, reading and enjoying nature. i dont remember how old i was but in seventh grade i met a girl that i really liked, we talked all the time, we were good friends and at the encouragement of my peers i asked her to be my girlfriend, but i had no expectations, but she did.. i dont know what. she broke it off and before the end of the year had apologized and we were friends again but she moved away after the school year was over. i dont know how this helps at all. although i felt attraction i did not know what to do and wanted to be her friend, which was enough for me. now that happened a couple of times where i was not enough, next i will tell you something more like what you have said. the first day of freshman year i met a girl Mary and immediately i was attracted, but it was not sex that attracted me, in fact i did not know what had attracted me, but we became friends. over the next year i became more infatuated and eventually a little obsessed, and she knew that i liked her but she just wanted to be friends and i am good at being a friend so that is what i did. but being friends was delightful and torturous at the same time. eventually everything snapped and in a moment it changed and i didnt care anymore. if she was not going to reflect the feelings i had for her then i suppose they just let go or something, it was an experience that is not easily expressed in words. we were still friends but my heart wandered elsewhere and i eventually met a girl that liked me too, and that is a whole other story.. perhaps with a rating not suited for this forum.

regardless of my long rambling perhaps pointless story i will point out some facts, you will be attracted to females and there may be no apparent reason, but that does not make you a bad person. learn to control your behavior and learn to be a good friend, listen and be sensitive, these things will eventually net you someone who appreciates you. and as for gender if you cultivate the qualities of both genders you will be a better person. that is to say, be aware of your emotions but dont give in to them, be aware of your thoughts and seek clarity, observe your behavior and adjust accordingly and dont take on the burdens of other men, dont believe everything that other people say. often in my life and friendships i have had more friends that are girls than boys and i have indeed been attracted to many of them but you will learn to control and if you channel that energy that you said was used in trying to make her like you into being a good friend then perhaps she may end up liking you.. who knows. well thats a long rambling post and im not sure exactly what i have said, if you have any questions, ask.
good day

ps read the work of Carl Jung, i think it would benefit you, if you can read the book called A Primer of Jungian Psychology by Calvin S. Hall and Vernon J. Nordby

sounds good.
for me it is natural to be friends especially with girls. i dont know why. i have peculiar charm that somehow grabs people. it seems that when i was in school many people knew this yet did not like it and other people came to me because of some energy i seemed to give off, i have been told this by more than a couple of people. but for me i just enjoy being friends, cultivation a relationship. a relationship is like a living creation that exists halfway between two people. it is different for every person that you know and when people have told me how much i mean to them or that i am thier best friend even though for me it is different, they are just another friend it intriques me and almost flatters me, though i dont often indulge in flattery on either side of it.
i think you have a good idea of how to handle yourself. take it as it comes, but there is no harm in wearing down your rough edges like a sharp rock tumbling in a stream. and though i know it makes little difference i would like to give you a little warning, watcch out for girls, they are not always what they seem though they may or may not mean to be they can often be trouble especially for people like you or i who have high ideals.
good day

I feal like crap man.......

I did much more than I said. I really didn't let up on abby.

I don't even think this is heart break anymore, this is just guilt of the fact that I suck, and all the stuff I did sucked.

I'm going crazy man, I need you guys to talk me down. All I've been doing is staying up about an hour later every night and sleaping two more. I drink dr peper every hour, and all I eat is chips. I have a little voice in my head telling me I suck, and It's wearing me out man. It's killing me inside man. I tried watching all of my favorite shows, death note, bleach, blood +, inuyasha. Then I started watching my old favorite comedy shows like that '70s show, scrubs, family guy, south park. It just made me more depressed. I tried to break down the concept of depression with reason, but I just got sick of it. I barely eat or sleap. I don't even want abby anymore. I had a dream that I had her. I smelled her hair, I helt her hand. Nothing...

I'm not angry I'm just sick of myself. I don't know if it's genetics, or if I get it from my parents, or my grandparents, or my great parents, or maby I just turend out that way. I suck. I want to change but I don't know how, and I keep bringing down everybody around me man. I've become the man. I wish I wasn't like this man. I wish I was a kind calm person, who didn't make fun of gay people, who doesen't spend all day and night obessing over every new thing he sees, and a guy who won't do things that just hurt other people inside for the sake of my own well being.

I don't know what to do. I would cry but men don't show there tears. It's not healthy, I'll just turn into a p***y if I do. Crying is for wemon. It's healthy for wemon to cry, they do it all the time. It's my job to plan the coureer, go to college, and get a couple 8 hour jobs, providing for the family. I just can't. Not without sombody there beside me. And that need. That is the cause of my pain. I shouldn't be so dependant. It just hurts everybody else. I wish I could just grow up inside. I'm tired of... Well... being a foolish child. It's not that I want to be grown up. I just don't want to be so foolish and stubborn anymore. So... Obsessive.