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Okay, so... I...

Nn.

It started a while back. May of 2006, actually.

So, my best friend, whom I had been best friends with for about 2 1/2 years at the time, decided that she liked me. That was good, I liked her too. I didn't wanna date her. I told her that it could mess up the friendship.

She said, "I don't think I could ever hate you. Could you ever hate me?"
And of course I answered, "No."

So I'm sure you know where it went from there.

So, at some point over the summer, she... seemed to decide that she hated me. She didn't talk to me, and when she did talk, it was strained and avoidant. After a while, the talking stopped completely. It hurt a lot.

I started to wonder about things, like, "Did she really like me that way? Was she just confused? Did she just use me to figure out what her preference was? Does that mean that our friendship wasn't worth anything to her?" And of course, "What did I do?"

This, of course, went on for a long time. Heartache isn't something that just passes, y'know? I'm still not even entirely sure that I'm over her, and it's been over a year and a half since we stopped talking.

So, it's October of 2007 now. She sent me a PM (on Gaia) last night, which I received this morning.

Here's the PM:



As you can expect, this is really taking a toll on my emotions. I know Sam, and she's not the type to apologize if she doesn't really mean it. I know that she means it.

But what do I do with this? I don't know if I'm completely over her yet. She's a very important person to me, and I know that I want our friendship back, but I think that's all that I want. In fact, I'm almost positive that friendship is all that I want. I just can't go through this again, you know? It was hard enough the first time around. What if the same thing happens again?

But at the same time, I know that she's sincere, and I want to give her a second chance. But what are her intentions? How do I reply to something like this?

PPG, help me out, please. Any ideas?

I really like your idea, but I just don't know if it's the smart thing to do.

I mean, on TOP of all of this, I moved to another state in April of this year (almost a year after we last talked), so why try to patch things up after I leave?

But at the same time, I would love to be friends with her again...

Ugh, I don't know. ;_;

Well, you have to ask yourself if you want to be friends with her.
If you're afraid it might happen again, you could always talk to her and work things out.
Just let her know you just want to be friends.

I'm still not really sure what to do, but the advice is appreciated. Thanks, girls. <3