|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
 Posted: Mon Sep 24, 2007 5:28 pm
I thought that this would be a good topic... Express your feelings here...feeling really shitty and want to vent? Go ahead and post here. wink
|
 |
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Mon Sep 24, 2007 5:52 pm
Nope...I didnt start this thread on a whim...I had something in mind 3nodding I had a REALLY bad day today and wrote this to vent and i need an opinion... Not a poem...just a rant...
It seems everyone but me had a handle on my life
People still mad at me for something I have apoligized a million times for
People upset that i couldnt do something because of someone else
Everyone has bad days once in a while...
Well this is undoubtedly more than once in a while..
Try two or three days a week..
Father dead, mother hates me it seems, brother hits me...
Picked on daily for old mistakes, ready to cry all the time...
People dont see why im soo messed up...
Emotions flaring and all the people care about is silly details..
If Im late to a class
Who i choose to hang out with
All silly details that are nipping at my heels
Everyone but me is contoling this hell i call life
When will the threats, emotional roller coasters, and fighting stop?
I hate this so called life that others control
I choose one, the other is upset
I choose the other, and still someones upset
I choose both and they refuse because ill ditch them both for one another
I choose neither and both are still upset
Whose wrong...me or him or her?
This cruel world weighs a ton
Who will lift the burden from me? someone please?
Or shall i just sit there until the burden grows too great that i fall?
This so called life is unbearable
I might as well shut out everyone and just be a loner
Sooner or later the pain would fade.. and life will go on as normal
As though i never touched anyones life
Unless of course... I can get heelp now
That seems too unlikely....
(No, when I said I might as well shut out everyone, I did not mean I was going to kill myself...[I think thats is half clear] I have never thought of suicide...)
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Thu Sep 27, 2007 2:51 pm
Well... I have a crush on a guy in my school... same age... and he is really funny and cute!
I luv him... he can only steal my heart! nobody else can...
he also kissed me before, he thinks i hate him. But he likes me
Omfg if he dies, id kill myself sweatdrop
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Thu Sep 27, 2007 8:21 pm
well lets see...
I don't want to say I hate my job, because I don't
I would just like it if I didn't work with all males.
My job basicly only consists of the male sex, and I would highly appriciate if I didn't draw there attention every time I walked by.
I've tried it all.
Looking like crap, acting stupid, going to exceeding measures as to messing up chemical mixes.
And in the end it never fails, "Pantera, good job today, want to go to dinner?"
So for those of you who wish you had a man, I'm on the other end of the conversation saying I would like FEWER males in my life
And I often wish they would just leave me alone.
And no, I am not consieded in any way, as I said before, my job consists of all males, and its making me realize how sleezy the male can be.
Very repulsive at times, and its causing me to dredfully hate the male exisance.
If there is a guy out there for me, He's going to be extreemly hard to find lol
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Thu Sep 27, 2007 10:22 pm
-eXt-aCy Bas-ed well lets see... I don't want to say I hate my job, because I don't I would just like it if I didn't work with all males. My job basicly only consists of the male sex, and I would highly appriciate if I didn't draw there attention every time I walked by. I've tried it all. Looking like crap, acting stupid, going to exceeding measures as to messing up chemical mixes. And in the end it never fails, "Pantera, good job today, want to go to dinner?" So for those of you who wish you had a man, I'm on the other end of the conversation saying I would like FEWER males in my life And I often wish they would just leave me alone. And no, I am not consieded in any way, as I said before, my job consists of all males, and its making me realize how sleezy the male can be. Very repulsive at times, and its causing me to dredfully hate the male exisance. If there is a guy out there for me, He's going to be extreemly hard to find lol I certainly hope that this excludes present company. Also, might I ask what you mean by "Messing up chemical mixes"? Also, I know a peeve of girls is when guys try to ride in on a white horse and fix all of their problems instead of simply listening (and white-knighting runs somewhat contrary to my nature, anyway) but I might like to make a suggestion that just may solve this problem. Perhaps the next time a guy asks you out, you may want to make sure he's the loud-mouth at your place of work, so that the details of your date will surely leak to everyone in the office. This would also work best if you happened to move to where you now live in the last several years. At dinner, should he make ANY sort of pass at all you should laugh casually and say "That reminds me of the last guy that [insert whatever lewd reference was made here]." Now you should tell the story how your dad heard some guy propositioning you, or something else to a lesser degree than that and make up some terrible story about how your father proceeded to beat him with a shovel, put a cigar out on him, hell, if you really want to be a little over the top with it, he can have blown somebody's arm off. Since they work with the man, this should really put the fear of god in them and keep them all far, FAR away from you. As for how he didn't go to jail for this, well you could always say that he was friends with every judge in the small town you can claim to have come from and he was even able to use his influence to keep it out of the papers (just on the off-chance that they look into it). If they knew him for a long time...Well, just make sure to throw in a well place "It was like he was an entirely different person!" and you should still be able to make it work. If it isn't worth it to you, well that's fine too, but as those who know me will tell you, I am a natural born story-teller.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sat Sep 29, 2007 12:50 pm
I hate the jerks at my school
I just wanna ******** kill all the guys at my school gonk
I also just wanna get out of my house..
its getting worse as i get older.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sat Sep 29, 2007 10:42 pm
Khaos is Toxic I hate the jerks at my school
I just wanna ******** kill all the guys at my school gonk
I also just wanna get out of my house..
its getting worse as i get older.
Generally I like giving people good news and messages of hope, but things kinda suck from now until you turn 18...Just try and hang in there, hun.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Mon Oct 01, 2007 6:08 am
Lost Lilia Well i have this unshakable sickness i cant escape from right now, my headaches are getting worse I'm sleeping more then a normally person should everything and everyone annoys me, I'm seriously am thinking of destroying everything in sight, i know there are things i need to get rid of my vacation is almost over and I'm going home soon which is odd to think of going my to my old life will be hard but comforting, my mind is scarring me, family issues are terrifying me at the moment it feels like everything in my world is closing in, there's only few things keeping me sane. Thank Jenova for them! But hey we've all got our problems, so i'll get through all of this one step at a time.. Why didn't you come to me about this?
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Mon Oct 01, 2007 6:17 pm
i feel like the biggest a*****e right now..
because of me my cat has run away...
my dogs used to chase her out of the yard everytime she went to go into the house...
i dont know where she is...
and its MY fault...
i should have punished the dogs..
i should have gone to get her the last time...
but i didnt..
and shes gone...
and i miss her...
she wasnt inside all the time but i always saw her outside and played with her...
and now...bc i didnt help her...shes gone.... crying
Edit: This was just the icing on the cake...
i still dont know where she is...even if she doesnt come back...i still hope she is okay...i miss her soo much
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Tue Oct 02, 2007 6:09 am
Snickerz_83 i feel like the biggest a*****e right now.. because of me my cat has run away... my dogs used to chase her out of the yard everytime she went to go into the house... i dont know where she is... and its MY fault... i should have punished the dogs.. i should have gone to get her the last time... but i didnt.. and shes gone... and i miss her... she wasnt inside all the time but i always saw her outside and played with her... and now...bc i didnt help her...shes gone.... crying Edit: This was just the icing on the cake... i still dont know where she is...even if she doesnt come back...i still hope she is okay...i miss her soo much Try not to worry too much. Cats always come back when they need something.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 1:59 pm
Matasoga Snickerz_83 i feel like the biggest a*****e right now.. because of me my cat has run away... my dogs used to chase her out of the yard everytime she went to go into the house... i dont know where she is... and its MY fault... i should have punished the dogs.. i should have gone to get her the last time... but i didnt.. and shes gone... and i miss her... she wasnt inside all the time but i always saw her outside and played with her... and now...bc i didnt help her...shes gone.... crying Edit: This was just the icing on the cake... i still dont know where she is...even if she doesnt come back...i still hope she is okay...i miss her soo much Try not to worry too much. Cats always come back when they need something. doesnt help...they could find new homes in this area very easily...
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Wed Oct 03, 2007 2:21 pm
I went to see Seether, Breaking Benjamin, Three Days Grace, and Skillet in concert last night and it was freaking AMAZING!! I was screaming constantly and now my throat hurts sweatdrop but it was all worth it...i wont bore you with too many details(reading details about a band seems to bore me....if you want me to tell you just say)
1. Fan girls have go-go gadget arms. The lead singer of Breaking Benjamin was handing out water bottles and a chick reached out, grabbed his face, drug him to her, and kissed him on the cheek...it cracked me up.
2. That combination of bands is the BEST!!
3. SHAUN MORGAN IS GOD!! heart for the time being followed very closely by Ki and Josh of course.
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Sun Oct 07, 2007 1:05 am
Snickerz_83 Matasoga Snickerz_83 i feel like the biggest a*****e right now.. because of me my cat has run away... my dogs used to chase her out of the yard everytime she went to go into the house... i dont know where she is... and its MY fault... i should have punished the dogs.. i should have gone to get her the last time... but i didnt.. and shes gone... and i miss her... she wasnt inside all the time but i always saw her outside and played with her... and now...bc i didnt help her...shes gone.... crying Edit: This was just the icing on the cake... i still dont know where she is...even if she doesnt come back...i still hope she is okay...i miss her soo much Try not to worry too much. Cats always come back when they need something. doesnt help...they could find new homes in this area very easily... UPDATE: She came back home...I dont think she ran away... im soo happy!! xd
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Posted: Mon Jun 16, 2008 7:20 pm
Hi guys. On the off chance that many of you noticed my postings were both erratic as well as horridly infrequent, I can sum the reasons up in 4 areas without fail and I do apologize for them all however unable I was to stop some of them and well..just kind of sorry to be so infrequent. Also for that huge run on sentence.
1. My great grandmother with whom I have been living and helping my mother care for passed last month. Funerals, emotional numbness and feeling more than my share of depressed while fending off the well wishes of others made Gaia a place to pop in for a minute or so but not stay long enough to reconnect.
2. Moving. I finally got my apartment and am still finding things at Grams' that need to be transferred and since the place is almost an hour away....lots of bloody driving.
3. Fights with boyfriend for the last few months that almost resulted in a break up and having that on top of the other things...stress stress stress stress stress. He's depressed, I'm depressed....it's like putting matches in the oil refinery. Even when trying to be careful, something is going to go up in flames.
4. Second job. Even though it is a work from home job, juggling two new schedules and full time parenting for the summer as well as looking into taking summer college courses. 9.9....busy..busy..horribly busy... There are bees that are telling me to slow down.
Either way dear lovers of he that shall be named Josh Almighty... I hope to catch you all sooner rather than later since this is just the most wonderful place to be at.
Be well and safe journeys!
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
|
Reply
