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Hey all, it's been a while but I finally got the chance to stop by.

Mainly because I'm at a point in my life where I know what I want, but it's just out of my reach.

Let's start at the beginning, shall we?

Last year there was this girl in my biology class who I had a crush on for quite a while, but everytime I checked, she was in a relationship ((mainly Bre)). Don't get me wrong, we were friends before I realized my feelings. Anyway, she and her now ex-gf had broken up, and she was feeling all depressed and what not. I didn't want to ask her out right after she got out of a relationship, so I let it wait for a couple of weeks. I thought that I was in the clear. That was until SHE decided to hop into the picture.

SHE = a friend who is not longer a friend due to reasons that you will soon figure out.

Let's call her Kate. Anywayz, Kate passed me a note one day that said that she thought that she had feelings for Sierra (the girl that I liked). Now I didn't know, and Kate didn't know either until this very moment, that she was attracted to girls as well. I kept thinking "huh...thats odd...but hey that's my life... :/" I am one of those girls where I will step down if a friend and i have feelings for the same person. Hell, I thought everyone was like that...once again, until Kate came into the picture. I sent back a note to her that said that I liked Sierra too, but I'll back down if Kate was serious about this. She told me that she was.

They started dating, mainly because as soon as Kate gets here eyes on someone she digs her claws in and flirts like none other. They were together for about a month, until Kate decided to be a b***h and break up with Sierra for no reason. Sierra called me after that, ((we're like sisters at this point)) and she was in tears. I told her it was okay, and that Kate was just being a stuck up b***h who didn't know what she wanted in life. Later that night, Kate starts texting me, telling me that she's horny and that she wants me to do nasty things to her.

I'm a virgin and am planning on keeping it that way for as long as I am in any kind of educational facility. I didn't even know that Kate was like this. She never even kissed Sierra throughout the whole time that they were dating.

A little bit after all this died down, me and Sierra hooked up and were dating. It lasted a week...thanks to HER!!!

Kate decided about five days into the relationship that she still loved Sierra and never for a nanosecond stopped loving her. I was pissed. Why the hell was she telling me this. Because otherwise she would be living a lie...in her words not mine. If she never would have told me this, I wouldn't have gotten all hot and bothered by it and me and Sierra would still be together. but of course, I got fed up and broke up with Sierra. Bad move on my part.

Currently:

Sierra and I have remained friends through all of this, and hopefully stilll will after all of this dies down. She told me that she still cares about me and wants to give it another go. This time she won't listen to anything that Kate says and neither will I. Of course, now she's in a relationship with this other girl, Cory, and she says that she loves her. This is all right after she says that she wants to go out with me again.

Should I wait for the relationship with Cory and her to end or should I just give up on her and wait for someone else to come along??


Thankies, love and laterz,
Chainz

So I take it you're with someone else? If so, congrats. If not, I hope that you're with someone great soon! mrgreen