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((please tell me if this is the right place to ask this question. thanks :]))
I guess this all started when I was in kindergarden.
In kindergarden, I remember as if it was yesterday, of my kindergarden teacher talking about plants.
She said "Certain plants live forever. They live then die. Not like humans. We just die"
I blanked out. And that day I got panic attacks.
But it grew into something more ..strange and scary.
I started not feeling like I was alive nor living.
I get these spasms that happen usually every month.
It’s scary. I feel like I’m in forward motion. Everything feels speed up, when it isn’t in real life.
I would think that my heart would be beating fast, but it does not. I breathe fast paced, talk fast paced, think fast paced and even walk fast paced.
When I listen to music, it sounds five times faster. Even the slowest music I have, would sound fast. Everything would be moving quicker.
Sure, I would think everyday that I was growing up too fast, but this was surreal. Everything was moving too fast.
I don't talk about this problem a lot to people. Actually besides my parents, only one person knows about it.
So this is a big step I guess you can say, for me. I just want to know what I'm doing and how to control it.
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