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 Posted: Thu Aug 23, 2007 8:39 pm
There are only 4 people that I know are really my close friends.
There is a guild on Gaia I know of that has people that would never bullshit me.
There are 2 RO friends I know that will listen to me.
Everyone else just seems.. untrust-worthy. Paranoia isn't that good, but I just can't help but wonder if everyone else just wants to lie to me.. or get something out of me.
This kid I know, Zac. Incredibly cute, physically. Incredibly.. non..conversational on MSN. Incredibly motivated to get naked pictures out of me. I found that funny. Until he didn't really talk to me much, and I got paranoid that maybe the only reason he talked to me was because he wanted nudies. I got frustrated and was telling him about feeling disgruntled that maybe he only talked to me because he wanted nudies. He said "nuhuh. I like talking to you." Uhuh. Right.
And there's still Bahadir.. I put so much trust into him. He was my bestest friend ever. He understood me sooo well. I thought he liked me. Turns out he only liked one side of me.
There's also this new kiddo I'm starting to learn more about.. Jason II. (Not SLB.) Awkward. Awkward. I'm still not quite sure why he bothers to talk to me since I can barely hold a conversation with him for longer then 10 minutes? And that's if I'm REALLY bored and hyper. The only thing we have in common is he lives in the DFW area too and music tastes.
So what do these people like me for? And why do people only choose to like one side, and when they discover the other, they just.. start to dislike me? Or I just run out of witty things to say and they get disapointed because they expected me to be witty.. I just want to be someone people are attracted to and naturally like. But I just.. can't attract people. I'm terribly weird and awkward, and no one wants terribly weird and awkward. And the people who do want weird and awkward are disgruntled to find out that I'm not THAT weird and awkward.
I'm just a whole bunch of personality mess. ):
I really ******** hope I grow out of this, otherwise I'm going. to. go. insane.
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Posted: Fri Aug 24, 2007 11:20 am
I like my Toast because she reminds me of myself in too many ways. I wanna get to know her better because I think of her like a little sister, which is nice since I'm an only child. <3 I'm close enough to all of my current friends to know when something's bothering them, just by the tone of their voice, or the vibe of their text. I wanna get close enough to Kaylee to be able to have that 6th sense with her so I can help her with her problems.
My Kaylee. *hugs*
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Aspirins And Alcohol Crew
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Posted: Wed Aug 29, 2007 6:56 am
I'm weird and awkward. I have a hard time finding friends too. Its because Im really shy at first since I don't want people to say "god that girls a psycho" right off the bat.
but
if
you move her ill be your friend :p
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Posted: Wed Aug 29, 2007 5:40 pm
aw mysty. heart
aw SW. heart
I'm super shy at first and people around here still think I'm psycho and a total b***h. D: It's like "nuu. I am not like that, I'm just shyyy. ;-;"
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