I can't stand the addiction. What do I do????

[Mjolnir The Hammer]

Guys, I'm very depressed right now and I can't get past the grip of porn addiction. I need to stop now, but my flesh just keeps coming back for more and more, always more more more! It's driving me insane. I need several collaborative opinions on what to do about this. This is my story for tonight and this is also the reason I'm writing at such an early/late hour of the night.

Everytime I think about it, I go to view porn on my computer and then masturbate. And then I feel terribly sorry. I feel horrible that I've sinned, yet I keep coming back to it over and over again. I feel the chains tightening instead of loosening everytime I try to quit for good. There'll be times when I go to pray to God for forgiveness at my bed side, and then I feel good and go to sleep. I commit to stopping it over and over again, and then regardless of the fact I asked God for help, I just do it all over again. I know its' not God letting me down though. Its myself. crying

I don't know what to do anymore. It's really a big problem and I need to kick it before it kicks me back again. sad

I ask that you guys pray heavily for me, but also provide me with some positive input and advice that can REALLY help me stay away from it all. If you've had experiences as bad as I describe to you, please tell me about you when this happened to you. Please please please. This is one of my most desperate hours. crying crying crying

 

[lordstar]

don't think i can help you with this one m8



why you think the net was born?
i thought that was a nice addition  

[fiery-ginger]

try blocking the sites that have the porn on them. Ask your parents. If you ever feel the urge to look at porn turn off and unplug your computer. If you can't feed your addiction it may leave you alone. I will keep you in my prayers and I know God willl have His loving hand on you and save you from your addiction.  

[BlossomSoul]

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Everytime you feel the urge, go to a different room, read the Bible and pray. Ask for the strength to not give in to the temptation. Also, as Volleyball_chicka_101 said, block the websites.. Go to a local library or somewhere with access to all your regular websites, but they will probably block any of those sites you sometimes go on.

You will be in my prayers. May God bless you. Remember, He loves you and He is watching over you. Fight Satan with God's love!

xx

 

[ot0h0e0m0e0a0n0y0p0o0et]

Amen to that! I'll be praying for you, definitely!

Reading God's Word works wonders! It keeps you strong and away from sin!  

[Mjolnir The Hammer]

Thank you all so much for your prayers and concerns. They've kept me going this far. As of now, I've been free of it for about 2 weeks (13 days). I pray God keeps me going on the right path and I'll try to have courage to do something about it. Please keep on praying for me and God bless. smile

 

[Shampoo-chan]

3nodding That's wonderful news!  

[ot0h0e0m0e0a0n0y0p0o0et]

Praise God! Awesome awesome. whee  

[Mjolnir The Hammer]

Guys, I feel like the urge is coming back very strongly now. Someone please talk to me or pm me. crying  

[lordstar]

maplestoryjunky

Guys, I feel like the urge is coming back very strongly now. Someone please talk to me or pm me. crying

you really need to find someone to share yourself with
then perhaps the urge will...change focus  

[Mjolnir The Hammer]

lordstar

maplestoryjunky

Guys, I feel like the urge is coming back very strongly now. Someone please talk to me or pm me. crying

you really need to find someone to share yourself with
then perhaps the urge will...change focus

What the heck is that supposed to mean?? You want me to seduce someone to resist the urge to lust about actually having sex??? Boy, you crazeh!!!  

[Seraph68]

maplestoryjunky

lordstar

maplestoryjunky

Guys, I feel like the urge is coming back very strongly now. Someone please talk to me or pm me. crying

you really need to find someone to share yourself with
then perhaps the urge will...change focus

What the heck is that supposed to mean?? You want me to seduce someone to resist the urge to lust about actually having sex??? Boy, you crazeh!!!

Perhaps he is suggesting that you find an accountability partner, a guy you trust whom you can call and pray with when you get into these urges and someone to help keep you in check.  

[Mjolnir The Hammer]

Seraph68

maplestoryjunky

lordstar

maplestoryjunky

Guys, I feel like the urge is coming back very strongly now. Someone please talk to me or pm me. crying

you really need to find someone to share yourself with
then perhaps the urge will...change focus

What the heck is that supposed to mean?? You want me to seduce someone to resist the urge to lust about actually having sex??? Boy, you crazeh!!!

Perhaps he is suggesting that you find an accountability partner, a guy you trust whom you can call and pray with when you get into these urges and someone to help keep you in check.

I havn't got any good friends like that. cry
What other choices have I got? And I hate to admit it, but the urge became so great, I did it again. By 'it', I mean 'it'. sad
So, now I'm back to square one. I'm too scared to tell my parents, I'm too afraid to admit to someone that I have this problem, and I have no good friends who can stand by me right now. So what other choices, or, suggestions you urge me to take action with, are there?

 

[Seraph68]

maplestoryjunky

Seraph68

Perhaps he is suggesting that you find an accountability partner, a guy you trust whom you can call and pray with when you get into these urges and someone to help keep you in check.

I havn't got any good friends like that. cry
What other choices have I got? And I hate to admit it, but the urge became so great, I did it again. By 'it', I mean 'it'. sad
So, now I'm back to square one. I'm too scared to tell my parents, I'm too afraid to admit to someone that I have this problem, and I have no good friends who can stand by me right now. So what other choices, or, suggestions you urge me to take action with, are there?

We all fall at times, but it isn't that we fall that defines our failures, it's our giving up when we do fall. I have had times where I have been in the same situation where I was doing good, but then fell back into it. Keep going and get back up, you were good for two weeks, go for another two weeks, or four, or six...

Is there a pastor that you can talk with? Or some other church leader that you can trust? If you are part of a youth group, is there a leader there that you can talk with? I am sure that they would not mind, that's why they are in youth ministries.  

[Mjolnir The Hammer]

Seraph68

maplestoryjunky

Seraph68

Perhaps he is suggesting that you find an accountability partner, a guy you trust whom you can call and pray with when you get into these urges and someone to help keep you in check.

I havn't got any good friends like that. cry
What other choices have I got? And I hate to admit it, but the urge became so great, I did it again. By 'it', I mean 'it'. sad
So, now I'm back to square one. I'm too scared to tell my parents, I'm too afraid to admit to someone that I have this problem, and I have no good friends who can stand by me right now. So what other choices, or, suggestions you urge me to take action with, are there?

We all fall at times, but it isn't that we fall that defines our failures, it's our giving up when we do fall. I have had times where I have been in the same situation where I was doing good, but then fell back into it. Keep going and get back up, you were good for two weeks, go for another two weeks, or four, or six...

Is there a pastor that you can talk with? Or some other church leader that you can trust? If you are part of a youth group, is there a leader there that you can talk with? I am sure that they would not mind, that's why they are in youth ministries.

There's quite possibly one of the greatest assistant pastors at my church who works as youth minister.

He's awesome. He's helped my deal with a few problems in my family that I'd like to keep confidential, but this just feels so much different than what I did get help with. It's so embarassing and the guilt would dig down deep, I mean so deep, it's tearing me apart. I feel absolutely terrible. Do you really think he would hold me dear to him even after this? redface