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 Posted: Mon Aug 07, 2006 4:05 pm
Ever considered not speaking to her anymore?
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Posted: Mon Aug 07, 2006 5:50 pm
It....it happened again. My sister riped my head off over something incredibly minor, *in this case, it was waiting 2 weeks for me rip some tracks from the net* and my body began to give out. My breathing became heavy and labored, my body started to feel like it was made of lead, and I had extreme difficulty doing even the simplest of movements (like typing a song name, for instance). At one point, I couldn't even move my body, and I swear I could feel my entire face go numb. Even now, I'm still having trouble with basic motions, and movements, and my breathing has exteme difficulty settling. I haven't felt this shitty since...since...well, the last time she did this sort of thing.
Maybe I deserved it, for putting off finishing the list for so long. Maybe I'm nothing more than a tool to be used up, and cast aside. Maybe this is the way I was meant to be treated. I don't know, I just hope I can survive spending time here, to save money on college dorm life. And I hope I can deal with being used like this, until I can get a place of my own. The net(and my many treasured friends on it) are pretty much the only things that have kept me sane for all this time, during all this.
And on top of all this, now in order to pay for the net, since no job has come to me yet, I have to lie right to the welfare officers face about my family, just to get some money flowing in, so I can start helping out aroind here. I've always wanted to get money for the family, but not like this. If they find out, not only will they come down on me, but on them, as well, and I don't want that for them. I want an honest living, I want to make it the way I want to, I want to do it on my own terms, not somebody elses. I mean, damn it, why does everything feel like it's happening to me all at once? It feels like the whole world is starting to crash down on me, at once, and there's nothing I can do about it. I mean, I'll keep looking for jobs, and I'll keep on doing what I can, but s**t, getting money for schooling, getting money for the home, getting money to get the ******** out of here, what more can life throw at me?
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Posted: Tue Aug 08, 2006 1:22 pm
No, Koi, seriously. If you're doing something as a favor for her, then she has no right to dictate how or when it gets done, unless you had made a promise on the matter. Otherwise she's just being selfish and inconsiderate.
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Posted: Tue Aug 08, 2006 6:42 pm
Random NaySayer Okay. jeremy asked me what I wanted for my birthday, and I said that I wanted my wedding dress, because it was the only thing I really wanted. I'd gone to try it on, and every time I left, I was terrified that someone else would buy it, and when I came in to actually get it, that it wouldn't be available anymore. Well, he bought it. And the jewlry, veil, blusher, tiara, bra, and slip that went with it. Came out to exactly $1,043.00. I called my mom because I was so excited. She said that that was the stupidest thing we could have possibly done. "You could have gotten all the other stuff someplace else for cheaper...like gone to Victoria's Secret for the bra. Well, I'd already looked there, and the stupid thing would have been $100.00, as opposed to the $80.00 we paid at the bridal shop. The jewlrey was only $20.00, would have cost at least $40.00 anyplace else. The only big things were my tiara: $200.00, and the dress itself: $600.00. Neither of which would I EVER be able to find anywhere else. Plus, I managed to get $50.00 off the dress, 10% off all the accessories, and coupons for my bridesmaids to get $20.00 off of their dresses. She still insists that it was a moronic thing to do, and that she would have been able to find it all cheaper, and that I just didn't try hard enough. This happens EVERY TIME I TALK TO HER ABOUT ANYTHING. All I ever hear is: "Well, that was dumb; when are you ever going to use common sense." No decision I've ever made was good enough for her. What's more, she brings up how stupid she thinks I am EVERY TIME WE TALK. It makes me not want to talk to her ever again. Sure mom, call me stupid. As I recall, I'm not the one who got knocked up at 18. Okay, now I'm done. I promise. I would stab her with my eyeballs, shoot her a bit with my mental lasers and then kick her with my steel-toed boot (if I had 'em). Grr...my mom is such a b***h too... But I'm even weirder. I have a *RED* wedding dress. You should have seen the look on her face. Priceless. But she's happy I'm getting married because she secretly thinks that I'm a fat whale who is lucky to get married ever at all. And I'm all rolleyes at her, because I want to do this and she's not going to ruin it. Oh, and by the way, she doesn't get to be alone with her future grandchildren. Ever. Stupid b***h. If I wasn't so afraid of her, I'd beat her face in. But she's not worth the time in jail.
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Posted: Tue Aug 08, 2006 8:53 pm
Oni-Angel Random NaySayer Okay. jeremy asked me what I wanted for my birthday, and I said that I wanted my wedding dress, because it was the only thing I really wanted. I'd gone to try it on, and every time I left, I was terrified that someone else would buy it, and when I came in to actually get it, that it wouldn't be available anymore. Well, he bought it. And the jewlry, veil, blusher, tiara, bra, and slip that went with it. Came out to exactly $1,043.00. I called my mom because I was so excited. She said that that was the stupidest thing we could have possibly done. "You could have gotten all the other stuff someplace else for cheaper...like gone to Victoria's Secret for the bra. Well, I'd already looked there, and the stupid thing would have been $100.00, as opposed to the $80.00 we paid at the bridal shop. The jewlrey was only $20.00, would have cost at least $40.00 anyplace else. The only big things were my tiara: $200.00, and the dress itself: $600.00. Neither of which would I EVER be able to find anywhere else. Plus, I managed to get $50.00 off the dress, 10% off all the accessories, and coupons for my bridesmaids to get $20.00 off of their dresses. She still insists that it was a moronic thing to do, and that she would have been able to find it all cheaper, and that I just didn't try hard enough. This happens EVERY TIME I TALK TO HER ABOUT ANYTHING. All I ever hear is: "Well, that was dumb; when are you ever going to use common sense." No decision I've ever made was good enough for her. What's more, she brings up how stupid she thinks I am EVERY TIME WE TALK. It makes me not want to talk to her ever again. Sure mom, call me stupid. As I recall, I'm not the one who got knocked up at 18. Okay, now I'm done. I promise. I would stab her with my eyeballs, shoot her a bit with my mental lasers and then kick her with my steel-toed boot (if I had 'em). Grr...my mom is such a b***h too... But I'm even weirder. I have a *RED* wedding dress. You should have seen the look on her face. Priceless. But she's happy I'm getting married because she secretly thinks that I'm a fat whale who is lucky to get married ever at all. And I'm all rolleyes at her, because I want to do this and she's not going to ruin it. Oh, and by the way, she doesn't get to be alone with her future grandchildren. Ever. Stupid b***h. If I wasn't so afraid of her, I'd beat her face in. But she's not worth the time in jail. Glad to know I'm not the only person that feels that way about their mother. ^^
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