Lady_Valentine
Ugh, Jeeze. All of my friends are skinny chicks and I love 'em to death. But they have the audacity to call themselves fat. I would do so much to have their bodies. They're gorgeous! But I guess it all boils down to the point where most people will always find SOMETHING to criticize in themselves. It's like ... you're 130 lbs! I was that in like... the friggin 5th grade? It just sucks to see them think that way when I am a total fatty. Esh.
I've been able to keep my weight stabelized for the last couple of months thank God. For a couple years I was yo-yo-ing with my weight. At one point I lost eleven pounds in a week. It was a nice diet but I just wasn't ready to go through with it! I felt pressured into it. By whom? mother dearest of course. She sees my fat-nes as a total let down and sometimes gross. This..is my mother. I can't really have a good amount of self esteem living with someone like that. When there's moments that I think I look pretty or whatever she automatically shoots me down and I feel guilty and foolish for ever thinking I could be pretty. It just sucks. xP
At this point in time I'm not dating but like a normal teen chick I'm crushing every other day. Hehe. But if the guy is willing to approach me and whatnot I sort of get into it because he obviously didn't think I was hideous so I'm willing to give him a chance. :]
Like I said before, my friends criticize themselves for being fat. It's just not.. agh nevamind.
My best friend and i are the first and third largest girls in our school...... If a skinny chick calls herself fat in front of us, regardless if she is friend or not, we tell her to shut up.
I think your mom and my mom are chanelling each other...... I know that she means well and everything but, I really don't care what she thinks any more....... I don't diet because i don't want to..... My mom can't accept that im not willing to change because she says i have to.... Dumb right?
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