yea so like the title says. bipolar. thats how my change of heart felt. i dont kno if u care or not but i felt like posting what has happened. i was depressed for the longest time. it wasnt that bad at first. i figured it would go away. but it didnt. it got worse. i began to hate life. i hated everything. everything was pointless and meaningless. i didnt like anything i used to and spent my free time crying and staring at my ceiling. so then it got worse. drugs started to look pretty good as a resort to get rid of the constant hopless depressed agonizing feeling. but suicide looked better. so two weekswhen i was seriously thinkin about suicide, my dad came intomy room to say good night. and he talked to me about the conversation he had about god with my dying grandmother. and he mentioned lots of things i had heard allthe time. *i have to go to a catholick skool*and it never meant anything until then. so he left. so i was still extremely upset and i was crying after he left thinking about what he said. and i really wanted to be saved from the awful sadness taking over me. and i realized the only one who could save me from myself was God. and he had been ther the entire time! so i prayed the hardest i had ever in my life asking God to be my savior save me from this horrible sadness that left me with thoughts of suicide. then it felt like something stabbed my heart and all the hate, anger, sadness, apathy, and hopelessness poured out and i felt so much better. now. two weeks later i love life again. i love all my friends again. * i hated them when i was depresed* i thought everything was funny. im getting better grades. and it seems like thers so many fun things to do. and i think of God everyday and thank him from saving me. because if he didnt im sure i wouldnt have been here to post this long post thingy. so yea. post stuff if u want. maybe some of u have similar experiences like mine to post. all id like to say is THANK YOU GOD heart heart heart
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