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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2022 7:09 am
So here's an update for everyone. Brynlee was born last Saturday June 18th! She was due on the 12th. Sadly, on June 11th my parents called at 1am... my beloved dog had collapsed and was rushed to an emergency vet. It turns out he had a tumor on his spleen that ruptured. He had internal bleeding and was slowly losing breath. I rushed to say my goodbyes. I had to put him down. He was so weak but lifted his head when I walked in. Before they sedated him to eventually put him down, he licked my nose twice and put his paw in my hand before seeing his own head back down for oxygen and I sat with him until he passed. It absolutely broke my heart, as I've had him since I graduated high school. He was my emotional support through everything. When I found out I was adopted, when my birth mom got super abusive, when my parents had been mentally/ emotionally abusive... when my mother was having her mental problems, in and out of psychiatric hospitals and couldn't be left alone for a second when she was home. My dog was my only family for the longest time. I've cried every day since still even now. I was so devastated it literally stopped me from dilating anymore. I was induced Friday, and the labor itself was a whole different story. I still hadn't progressed into the night, I had an epidural because she pushed on my ribs so bad with every contraction. Then I woke up in the middle of the night to nurses shooting me up with a medicine for blood pressure they didn't know what to do I heard them say. I seriously thought I was dying. Then early in the morning they rushed me to push in under an hour or else I'd have a c-section, surgery was waiting on us. I had 4th degree tear.
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Posted: Tue Jun 28, 2022 12:59 am
bwsrbmb So here's an update for everyone. Brynlee was born last Saturday June 18th! She was due on the 12th. Sadly, on June 11th my parents called at 1am... my beloved dog had collapsed and was rushed to an emergency vet. It turns out he had a tumor on his spleen that ruptured. He had internal bleeding and was slowly losing breath. I rushed to say my goodbyes. I had to put him down. He was so weak but lifted his head when I walked in. Before they sedated him to eventually put him down, he licked my nose twice and put his paw in my hand before seeing his own head back down for oxygen and I sat with him until he passed. It absolutely broke my heart, as I've had him since I graduated high school. He was my emotional support through everything. When I found out I was adopted, when my birth mom got super abusive, when my parents had been mentally/ emotionally abusive... when my mother was having her mental problems, in and out of psychiatric hospitals and couldn't be left alone for a second when she was home. My dog was my only family for the longest time. I've cried every day since still even now. I was so devastated it literally stopped me from dilating anymore. I was induced Friday, and the labor itself was a whole different story. I still hadn't progressed into the night, I had an epidural because she pushed on my ribs so bad with every contraction. Then I woke up in the middle of the night to nurses shooting me up with a medicine for blood pressure they didn't know what to do I heard them say. I seriously thought I was dying. Then early in the morning they rushed me to push in under an hour or else I'd have a c-section, surgery was waiting on us. I had 4th degree tear. How the time flies!!! Welcome sweet baby, Brynlee! whee It's always exciting to be out of the third trimester >_< babies get heavy! I'm sorry to hear about your dog sad that's never a fun ordeal. I'm glad you could be there with your best friend in their last moments. Sounds like you and your dog had been through a lot together. I'm sorry to hear that labor was difficult. With my first, it was a truly long story, and things did stop progressing and that can get scary. I can't imagine rib pain gonk I had horrid back labor, but those pains are intense stuff. They didn't know what all to do with me, either. I ended up with almost a 4th degree tear as well. It turned out I had gestational diabetes that went missed and baby was large, and I had lost too much blood for a C-section and was denied the epidural because the need to push in a rush was there. That OB/GYN was so worried about me, he came in on his day off to check on me. He was concerned. His colleagues that had nothing to do with the labor/delivery came by to check on me as well. Recovery isn't always easy while taking care of baby, but I do hope that you'll have plenty of time to rest and heal. Healing takes time heart I am glad that you are now able to heal and I hope everything is going well with Brynlee, too! 3nodding
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Posted: Tue Jun 28, 2022 4:13 am
Aquatic_blue bwsrbmb So here's an update for everyone. Brynlee was born last Saturday June 18th! She was due on the 12th. Sadly, on June 11th my parents called at 1am... my beloved dog had collapsed and was rushed to an emergency vet. It turns out he had a tumor on his spleen that ruptured. He had internal bleeding and was slowly losing breath. I rushed to say my goodbyes. I had to put him down. He was so weak but lifted his head when I walked in. Before they sedated him to eventually put him down, he licked my nose twice and put his paw in my hand before seeing his own head back down for oxygen and I sat with him until he passed. It absolutely broke my heart, as I've had him since I graduated high school. He was my emotional support through everything. When I found out I was adopted, when my birth mom got super abusive, when my parents had been mentally/ emotionally abusive... when my mother was having her mental problems, in and out of psychiatric hospitals and couldn't be left alone for a second when she was home. My dog was my only family for the longest time. I've cried every day since still even now. I was so devastated it literally stopped me from dilating anymore. I was induced Friday, and the labor itself was a whole different story. I still hadn't progressed into the night, I had an epidural because she pushed on my ribs so bad with every contraction. Then I woke up in the middle of the night to nurses shooting me up with a medicine for blood pressure they didn't know what to do I heard them say. I seriously thought I was dying. Then early in the morning they rushed me to push in under an hour or else I'd have a c-section, surgery was waiting on us. I had 4th degree tear. How the time flies!!! Welcome sweet baby, Brynlee! whee It's always exciting to be out of the third trimester >_< babies get heavy! I'm sorry to hear about your dog sad that's never a fun ordeal. I'm glad you could be there with your best friend in their last moments. Sounds like you and your dog had been through a lot together. I'm sorry to hear that labor was difficult. With my first, it was a truly long story, and things did stop progressing and that can get scary. I can't imagine rib pain gonk I had horrid back labor, but those pains are intense stuff. They didn't know what all to do with me, either. I ended up with almost a 4th degree tear as well. It turned out I had gestational diabetes that went missed and baby was large, and I had lost too much blood for a C-section and was denied the epidural because the need to push in a rush was there. That OB/GYN was so worried about me, he came in on his day off to check on me. He was concerned. His colleagues that had nothing to do with the labor/delivery came by to check on me as well. Recovery isn't always easy while taking care of baby, but I do hope that you'll have plenty of time to rest and heal. Healing takes time heart I am glad that you are now able to heal and I hope everything is going well with Brynlee, too! 3nodding We are happy to finally have her here. She has been a really good baby. Yeah my dog was seriously more human than dog it seemed like. He was always working hard to comfort and be there for me. He was seriously my emotional support through everything. I'd stop to see him after work quite a bit just to feel better especially with how work had been for me. I already made the decision I was quitting after I had been treated terribly, but now that decision seems even better after losing my pup. I regret not spending more time with him, so I feel like I need to be here more for Brynlee. I always thought about starting my own business somehow and now I think I really need to. I did an amazing little mural in Brynlee's room, and I know people would pay for stuff like that. I also have my portraits that I do, so I think I could do it. Hendrix was one of the first things I painted when I learned to airbrush, and he always sat with me when I did work on a portrait. I think it's the right thing to do. I asked the good lord to give Brynlee the best, so I guess he felt like she needed the best guardian angel. Yeah I went in to be induced at 7am Friday. My doctor had another surgery come up, so they didn't actually induce me until 9am. My doctor checked on me once at 11am, then I never saw her again until 5am the next day. When the anesthesiologist came in to do my epidural, he's just like "Hey I know you!" And he worked so hard to make it painless for me. I really didn't feel the epidural at all he did such a great job, and it made me feel good the people in surgery actually know and like me. Then when I slept and woke up to the nurses trying to control my blood pressure and not knowing what to do, the anesthesiologist showed up like "I've been watching her from downstairs, what are you doing... no no no do THIS" so this man was seriously my guardian angel. 5am my doctor walks in "oh you haven't progressed at all so we're going to break your water. I leave at 7am then the other doctor comes in to cover so sadly I won't be delivering you. If you don't go you might need a c- section." Them I hadn't seen her again at all, but the new doctor that came in kept walking in to check on me he was proactive in doing that. The anesthesiologist even checked on me later. Then one of the days the president came in and talked to me I guess the anesthesiologist called him to say something about my care. It was pretty bad. And then I had like 3 nurses come in suddenly concerned about my care. Some of them were good (mostly the ones who knew me from working there) then others were so lazy! They even got onto me like I wasn't feeding baby enough. I said I wanted to do breastfeeding AND formula, they forced me to do just breastfeeding while there and I want producing enough at the time they said because I needed to eat/drink more... well when you're there, on a special diet, barely able to eat because of what they're pumping you with, checking you, etc. They really should have helped me more. Then Brynlee's bilirubin levels kept going up. I asked if it would help sitting her next to open window in sunlight, they said no. Went to her check up, her bilirubin levels went up more. What was the suggestion? Sit her next to an open window in light! The care was so bad. sad The only thing is I have ibuprofen 800s prescribed to me for pain. I take about 2 a day, morning and night but try to get away with just 1 if I can. My husband has been a great help with everything. I'm so happy with how active he's been caring for our baby. He usually wakes up with me at night too and helps with the feedings and diaper changes. It definitely makes them go quicker!
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Posted: Thu Jun 30, 2022 1:19 am
bwsrbmb Aquatic_blue bwsrbmb So here's an update for everyone. Brynlee was born last Saturday June 18th! She was due on the 12th. Sadly, on June 11th my parents called at 1am... my beloved dog had collapsed and was rushed to an emergency vet. It turns out he had a tumor on his spleen that ruptured. He had internal bleeding and was slowly losing breath. I rushed to say my goodbyes. I had to put him down. He was so weak but lifted his head when I walked in. Before they sedated him to eventually put him down, he licked my nose twice and put his paw in my hand before seeing his own head back down for oxygen and I sat with him until he passed. It absolutely broke my heart, as I've had him since I graduated high school. He was my emotional support through everything. When I found out I was adopted, when my birth mom got super abusive, when my parents had been mentally/ emotionally abusive... when my mother was having her mental problems, in and out of psychiatric hospitals and couldn't be left alone for a second when she was home. My dog was my only family for the longest time. I've cried every day since still even now. I was so devastated it literally stopped me from dilating anymore. I was induced Friday, and the labor itself was a whole different story. I still hadn't progressed into the night, I had an epidural because she pushed on my ribs so bad with every contraction. Then I woke up in the middle of the night to nurses shooting me up with a medicine for blood pressure they didn't know what to do I heard them say. I seriously thought I was dying. Then early in the morning they rushed me to push in under an hour or else I'd have a c-section, surgery was waiting on us. I had 4th degree tear. How the time flies!!! Welcome sweet baby, Brynlee! whee It's always exciting to be out of the third trimester >_< babies get heavy! I'm sorry to hear about your dog sad that's never a fun ordeal. I'm glad you could be there with your best friend in their last moments. Sounds like you and your dog had been through a lot together. I'm sorry to hear that labor was difficult. With my first, it was a truly long story, and things did stop progressing and that can get scary. I can't imagine rib pain gonk I had horrid back labor, but those pains are intense stuff. They didn't know what all to do with me, either. I ended up with almost a 4th degree tear as well. It turned out I had gestational diabetes that went missed and baby was large, and I had lost too much blood for a C-section and was denied the epidural because the need to push in a rush was there. That OB/GYN was so worried about me, he came in on his day off to check on me. He was concerned. His colleagues that had nothing to do with the labor/delivery came by to check on me as well. Recovery isn't always easy while taking care of baby, but I do hope that you'll have plenty of time to rest and heal. Healing takes time heart I am glad that you are now able to heal and I hope everything is going well with Brynlee, too! 3nodding We are happy to finally have her here. She has been a really good baby. Yeah my dog was seriously more human than dog it seemed like. He was always working hard to comfort and be there for me. He was seriously my emotional support through everything. I'd stop to see him after work quite a bit just to feel better especially with how work had been for me. I already made the decision I was quitting after I had been treated terribly, but now that decision seems even better after losing my pup. I regret not spending more time with him, so I feel like I need to be here more for Brynlee. I always thought about starting my own business somehow and now I think I really need to. I did an amazing little mural in Brynlee's room, and I know people would pay for stuff like that. I also have my portraits that I do, so I think I could do it. Hendrix was one of the first things I painted when I learned to airbrush, and he always sat with me when I did work on a portrait. I think it's the right thing to do. I asked the good lord to give Brynlee the best, so I guess he felt like she needed the best guardian angel. Yeah I went in to be induced at 7am Friday. My doctor had another surgery come up, so they didn't actually induce me until 9am. My doctor checked on me once at 11am, then I never saw her again until 5am the next day. When the anesthesiologist came in to do my epidural, he's just like "Hey I know you!" And he worked so hard to make it painless for me. I really didn't feel the epidural at all he did such a great job, and it made me feel good the people in surgery actually know and like me. Then when I slept and woke up to the nurses trying to control my blood pressure and not knowing what to do, the anesthesiologist showed up like "I've been watching her from downstairs, what are you doing... no no no do THIS" so this man was seriously my guardian angel. 5am my doctor walks in "oh you haven't progressed at all so we're going to break your water. I leave at 7am then the other doctor comes in to cover so sadly I won't be delivering you. If you don't go you might need a c- section." Them I hadn't seen her again at all, but the new doctor that came in kept walking in to check on me he was proactive in doing that. The anesthesiologist even checked on me later. Then one of the days the president came in and talked to me I guess the anesthesiologist called him to say something about my care. It was pretty bad. And then I had like 3 nurses come in suddenly concerned about my care. Some of them were good (mostly the ones who knew me from working there) then others were so lazy! They even got onto me like I wasn't feeding baby enough. I said I wanted to do breastfeeding AND formula, they forced me to do just breastfeeding while there and I want producing enough at the time they said because I needed to eat/drink more... well when you're there, on a special diet, barely able to eat because of what they're pumping you with, checking you, etc. They really should have helped me more. Then Brynlee's bilirubin levels kept going up. I asked if it would help sitting her next to open window in sunlight, they said no. Went to her check up, her bilirubin levels went up more. What was the suggestion? Sit her next to an open window in light! The care was so bad. sad The only thing is I have ibuprofen 800s prescribed to me for pain. I take about 2 a day, morning and night but try to get away with just 1 if I can. My husband has been a great help with everything. I'm so happy with how active he's been caring for our baby. He usually wakes up with me at night too and helps with the feedings and diaper changes. It definitely makes them go quicker! I'm sure you were probably there for your dog as much as you could be 3nodding many people think after they lose a loved one, "How could I have been there more?" but many times - they were there as much as they possibly could've been. I'm glad you have time to rest at home with baby, though. That's always nice to be able to do! These days with the way the world is going and working for the boss isn't as pleasant, unfortunately sad we had a business, but our health couldn't keep up with the demand and we couldn't find reliable employees. We did another business, but it never picked up. We have another idea and we're praying it works when we have enough saved to start up. I would love being my own boss. If I need a day off, I can take a day. It's a definitely rewarding thing. I encourage anyone to try to own a business at least once, it's so empowering. Some nurse's aren't all that helpful...some are great...I remember I was so out of it after having my first. So exhausted and tired and I was trying to breastfeed and the hospital did not have a lactation consultant. I pumped some breast milk because they thought it would help my production. My milk took like 4-5 days to come in so she started off on formula, but I'm glad I was able to keep trying. When I had a little bit, I didn't think the hospital would store it for me and my baby had a little and then no more (she already had formula, though), so I dumped it because it had been an hour or so since a nurse had been in. A nurse got all mad at me for dumping it...like really upset. When I first used the bathroom after, one of the newer nurse's, I guess - maybe an intern? I think she might've been making fun of me...because she said some things that were weird and laughed, but I was so out of it. A nurse supervisor came in and asked me if anyone makes fun of me or anything to report it to her. So, that stuff wasn't helpful. I am glad for when there's helpful staff, though, they're such a godsend. I remember I felt like soup so much and ordered that for my lunch to stay hydrated, you know? Then they chew me out for not getting enough protein...-sigh- it's like, I had no restrictions put in so...? Why can't I enjoy that just a little bit? I'm sorry they didn't help you more sad and I'm sure you probably know what they could've done better since you've worked in that setting for sure. Some hospitals just...ugh, it's frustrating...I totally hear you. I wish we had better maternity care in the states. The doctors visits are the easy part, you can find a good provider, but the hospital is totally a different ball game. It's ridiculous they didn't let you help her bilirubin levels right away and waited on it...that would make me upset, too! It totally helps with newborn jaundice! I think sometimes some medical professionals (not all, of course) want to tell you what's best - they think patients know nothing. I remember going to the hospital saying, "I'm sure I have ___________." and do they listen? No, of course not. Instead, they do a million tests and then later said tell me it's what I said in the first place -_- I have been to one country outside the US for medical care and when I said, "I think it's _____," that is where they looked first. I don't know what's wrong with some US doctors. I hope you're able to get one of those hospital surveys so you can give your feedback, most places do those. It's ultimately useful. That's exactly what I was doing was taking ibuprofen....it helped me a lot and some hospital staff said, "Ibuprofen is all she's taking for pain...? Oh, okay then..." I remember once nurse when they were informing each other of info before shift swap and one nurse said, "She knows what she wants so listen to her! She'll tell you when she's hurting." Lol, I didn't want a nurse swap, that nurse was so sweet - but it was with my second baby in a big city hospital that was great with babies. It's always a relief to have an extra hand while caring for babies! It makes things soooo much easier! I hope you are feeling more relief resting at home! heart
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