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H'okay, long list. Here we go. 3nodding

1) There's not much we can do to help you, but you're welcome to post in here whenever you feel like you need advice, support, or just some kinds words. heart

2) If you have such serious personal self problems, you don't need a relationship in your life because it's only going to complicate things. I speak from experience on this, too. It's hard to have a stable relationship with another person when you yourself are so unstable in general. And as you've already said, you don't seem to make good choices within a relationship anyways - you date guys who treat your badly and who aren't supportive of you regarding your problems, and you can't trust them because they'll leave you when you tell them about the problems in your life. So perhaps it might be best until you've sorted out yourself personally, and grown up a little bit and matured too before you attempt to have serious romantic relationship with someone. smile It makes all the difference in the world to have yourself and your life sorted out before you get into a relationship with someone. It also makes a huge difference when your partner is mature and caring enough to support you and care for you based on who you are, not what they want you to be.

3) Since you're not old enough to live on your own, is there someone else you could live with until your parents can sort out their problems? An aunt or an uncle, or perhaps even a really close friend? Alternate living arrangements (finding someone else to live with) might be something to look into.

4) Thinking negative things about yourself isn't going to do anything except make you feel worse about yourself. And if that's the case, why bother doing it? Work at changing your throughts from negative ones into positive ones. Every time you think something bad about yourself, erase it from your mind, or tell yourself that it's not true. If you need to think of good qualities that you have, you can sit down and write out a list each day - try to find 3 things that you like about yourself. Once you can consistently write 3 things, you can up it up to 4 or 5.

For example, just from reading your posts, I can say that you seem like a very nice person. You're helpful, and you seem like a very responsible person (you had a job at your age).

If you find you can't change your thinking by yourself, counselling or therapy might be something to consider. You can try going to a school counsellor, or you could ask your parents to take you to someone.

5) Counselling for the family might be something else to mention to your mother, sincen everyone is depressed, and your parents might be seperating. At the very least, you can still ask her for counselling for yourself if you feel it's necessary.


I hope everything works out for you. heart