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I've avidly studied the craft for about 10 years, but there is still much more I feel like I have to learn. I don't wish to be a magickal person who is ignorant to what she is and everything there is to know about different paths and crafts.

My confusion...
I don't really know if I can call it a religion. Whatever I believe, I feel it's my beliefs. Can I call myself a pagan? I'm not sure if I can call myself such since I don't know if I believe in any gods or goddesses.

Am I a witch? I used to do magick before entering shamanism. It was fun and felt natural... at times. Other times it just felt like something was watching me and judging me. I still enjoy casting, despite the awkward stare of an other.

Am I a wiccan? I considered this and gave it a lot of thought for years. I like working in a pair, but who can you trust? I like the inspiration and powerful energy of an other while we cast and craft, but socialization is why I left the catholic church in the first place. Crafting and casting in rooms even give me an eerie feel. Out in nature is more comforting.

Am I a shaman? I've practiced it for about a year and then went to hedgewitchery. I feel like before I can truly call myself a hedgewitch, I should continue to do extensive research.


What I do know...
I would love to try skyclad. I feel free and natural in the nude, but then there's the visitors that come and hang with my bf and roommate and the whole "being naked in public."

I follow the Faerie Path. Whatever label I am, all I know is I have and probably will forever follow the path of the Gentry.

I'm curious about the traditional craft, druidry, and I still want to explore hedgewitchery.

I prefer to be outdoors when I cast and craft. The scents, the wind, the trees, the fresh air, and the little giggle of my inner fae always slips from my mouth when I work in nature. Many people have even noted that I remind them of a pixie or a sprite. I believe in energy; male and female, positive and negative. I believe that when enough energy is produced, it can manifest into something else; fear, for example.

Instead of looking to magick to always solve my problems, I prefer to ask for guidance from (yes, I know it's strange considering the athiest thing) the goddess and god (to me, I feel it is the moon and the sun) and give me strength to get through whatever it is.


I'm not sure what to truly call myself, even if it's being spiritual. I suppose I've reached a rebirth of some sort. The only thing I can thing of for me to do at this point is to explore and continue to learn and research these things. However, I do ask (without any harm done) everyone for their advice and blessings to help me find myself on this journey.


~Kaiak Moonfae

With the occult there is always something to learn about and to explore. I've just decided to explore ceremonial magic in a lot more depth. I am also exploring through this evocation, enochian, and goetic magic. There is still a lot of folk lore and folk magic for me to explore. Each culture has its own magical practices. There are so many that I want to learn about. I can understand what you feel right there.

Pagan is simply one who is not a follower of Judaism, Christianity, or Islam. Basically if you do not follow the God of Abraham you are Pagan. Belief in Gods or Goddesses are not required.


Religions are essentially categorized sets of beliefs. If you don't follow a specific pantheon or way of doing things you don't belong to a specific religion. You have your own spirituality. If you are a religious witch you could label it religious witchcraft and thus have witchcraft as your religion (but that just adds to the whole witchcraft is not a religion issue).

You are a witch if you practice witchcraft. You mentioned above that you had studied witchcraft and practiced for a time. At that point in your life you were a witch. If you practice magic in some form you are a magician. Witchcraft makes one a witch. Simply practicing magic makes you a magician.


You are Wiccan only if you follow the religion of Wicca. Do you worship a Moon Goddess who is triun in form and a Horned God that is also the God of the sun and her lover/child at the same time? Those are two things that are core to the practice of AEW/SEW. BTW requires initiation which I am guessing you don't have?
Relationship partners? My working partner is my fiance'. He doesn't know much or have much experience but he is happy to work magic and ritual with me when I ask. In BTW I believe they try to have an even amount of male and female coven members, which means every one would have a partner in the coven. Do you have any male friends that would be interested in working with you in this fashion? Maybe that would be a starting point. I ask only because you asked who you can trust.
So you don't like to socialize when you perform magic and spiritual actions? Why would you have to be trapped to a room? If you are on your own wouldn't you be able to go outside and work if that is what you would prefer?


What did you define as hedge witchery? Hedge witchcraft is essentially a shamanic practice of witchcraft. It involves a lot of trance work and walking/traveling of various otherworlds that live along side of us. Magic may involve the use of spirits and typically had herbal/folk lore to it.



Could you set aside time for the rituals when no one would be over? There is a reason I haven't done any skyclad rituals outside my apartment in a very long time. Now were I to be at my parents I may think about it if they were away and I was house sitting. They have a lot of space and are surrounded by woods.


What is the Faerie path? What do you mean by The Gentry?


It sounds like you have many areas you are curious about. When it comes to traditional craft do you have a specific region in mind or just general? Different regions had slightly different practices. Druidry is something I have just recently decided to start researching again. Hedge witchcraft is essentially trance witchcraft.


Most of the traditional witchcraft practices I have read about today focus on being outdoors as much as possible. The authors even went so far as to try and provide a few places where witches may be able to perform their outdoor rites in the city. I have a single tree outside in my yard that I have performed rites infront of. I am going to try and do a few more before I move.
Have they ever told you why they feel that way about you? I've been told I have an otherworldly nature and some what of an angelic nature. This for me has just helped me tap into those aspects of my nature as a witch. The otherworldly nature for me has actually made it some what easier for spirit traveling.
Magic is working with energy. Would focusing energy with specific intent fall into what you just described here? Do you think that there are other energetic forms out there?


What about your higherself? Have you ever asked your holy guardian or holy spirit about it? This is the part of you that is in direct connection with spirits and divinities. This is what some people feel we talk to when we use Tarot cards or other forms of divination.



Spiritual and seeker seem to be appropriate terms for you right now. Spiritual to me just says you have a focus on your own relationship with the universe and the higher powers in however you see them. To me the term Seeker means you are searching for places of truth or truth in however it reveals itself to you. I am nothing but a seeker, though I do identify with being a specific rank in a tradition. I can still be a seeker of truth.
Right now if you practice witchcraft you can call yourself a witch.

If you belong to a religion which is not Jewish, Christain, or Islamic then you can call yourself a Pagan.

Shaman refers to a specific tribal practice and culture. Shamanic is a type of practice involving trance work.

Seeker means you are searching for truth as it reveals itself to you.

Spiritual is essentially forging your own path and connection with your higher self and place in the universe.

I wouldn't focus on a label right now. I would personally call you a spiritual seeker who has explored witchcraft in the past. If you feel comfortable calling yourself a witch then you are a witch. Other than that keep yourself open till you know where you want to go.

Just be you.