It's rant time.
I don't do this often but I need to get all this crap off my chest.
I'm seriously, seriously mad, upset, angry, depressed, so on and so forth.
My best friend. FREAKING BEST FRIEND, just told me, straight to my face, that I make him sick.
MY. BEST. FRIEND. Or at least, that's what I thought, apparently I was dead wrong.
This is the friend that some of you may remember has tried to 'change me' at time. Telling me that being gay isn't right. However, that's all he's said on the matter, he still hadn't really let it affect our friendship any.
I've forgiven him TWO TIMES, but this is just too much.
Some of you know, though most of you don't, that I'm having a ceremony to 'marry' Nick on Christmas. It won't be official because we're in Texas, but that doesn't matter to US or our FAMILIES. It will be just as good as official in our eyes.
I asked him if he would be one of my groomsmen, I would have asked him to be my best man if it wasn't for the fact that that spot is reserved for my little brother.
He told my NO, asked me WHY he would want to be a part of something so WRONG, and said it was SICK that Nick and I are going to do such a thing.
He said our families were WRONG for supporting us.
He told me he NEVER wanted talk to me again, that the only reason he was still being my friend was because he thought I would CHANGE.
I feel like my heart has literally been RIPPED from my chest and STOMPED ON.
I won't lie and say I didn't cry. I'm not one who usually does. Some of the only times I've cried is when my biological dad walked out on us, when my little brother fell out of a tree and blackout and when I went out there I thought he was dead, and when I tore up my ankle.
This though, for some reason I just can't get over it.
He was my best friend since the first year of middle school.
I know what a lot of you are going to say, that if he was a good friend he would accept me, things like that.
That doesn't matter though, doesn't change the fact that for over NINE YEARS we spent so much time together.
I'm sorry if none of you care and I just wasted your time, I just wanted to GET IT OFF MY CHEST, because it's literally ripping me up inside.
