William Hughes @Noaginger Next thing I know I ended up in some cell being told I'm immune, ******** if I know how it works though. 10:42pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I got bitten a lot and then like, should have died. But there's this...voice? Kept talking to me (I didn't tell them that and won't) 8:19pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime How does the immunity work, anyway? Do you know? 8:13pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger True. Shame I cant just..infect you with immunity. 8:09pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime No guarantee I wouldn't encounter zombies on other missions, anyway, considering. 8:06pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I just need to like. Make sure cause erm..Im immune. And this is whats keeping me off the slab. 7:22pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Zombies and risks are pretty much part of the job anyway. 5:24pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You should come on a mission with me. I mean provided you dont mind zombies and the risks.
Posted: Wed Mar 18, 2015 11:24 pm
SLOPPY DM RECORD 19/03/2015 READ BOTTOM TO TOP
William Hughes @Noaginger And maybe something that wasn't all s**t. 6:32am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And I don't know if I feel guilty about that or happy or sad or whatever. I just want to one day have meant something to people. 6:31am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I wish the same thing all the ******** time. I just see all the people I ever hated when I look at me. And I wanted to be ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** youre trying and thats worth ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** i wish it was easier for you to be you and like the one looking back in the ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** just everything i am 6:23am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You are everything I'm not. 6:23am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't know what it is. But the idea of getting rid of it is just. Too much. And I'm sorry I'm shitty to you. 6:22am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I want a home. I always wanted it. But what I got wasn't one and now the stakes are just.. too high to ******** it ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** like it could only be more frightening than safe 6:21am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I know, it was dangerous. Its probably dangerous to me just. Having it. But its all the things I can't ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** leave off the home ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** have given you longer than a day to move if id known and not used my charge but i dont regret prioritizing general safety over it 6:18am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I was like, if it got burned I just don't know what I'd do. And now there's things I can't ever replace. Rin is there. Things are there. 6:17am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You know I think the only time I ever really considered suicide on this island was when I lost that. You guys were like burn ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** without hope must be tiring as ******** but im glad youre trying 6:17am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And I'll never have a ******** home either so long as I can't live without my ********, hoard of memories and s**t people can't take away. 6:16am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And thats no to say I won't try to ******** fix things, to make things worthwhile, I will. I just..don't have any hope of success. 6:16am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You know I wont. I'll just be a s**t person and s**t to everyone else until I ruin Ace's life and my own. Until something real bad ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** even if you dont believe in change theres still chances to make the things that are already there ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** managed for awhile now and were all gonna die at some point cause thats what we do but make sure its ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** harder getting through a day when youre kind of ******** up but youve ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** shouldnt have said that and i wish he hadnt and i dont think killing yourself is brave its that thing again 6:08am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Sorry I don't know what the ******** I am ranting at you for. I just don't ******** know, I wanted to apologise. 6:08am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Push it away so it doesn't ******** hurt. Taym saying to just take a gun to myself. I'm no even brave enough for THAT. I never ******** was. 6:07am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger As if it was fresh and still does. I can't grieve. I can't deal with anything I lock it ******** up. 6:07am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I've just always been a sucker. Enthusiastic and ******** hopeful even when I know better and was then too so it always nailed me like 6:07am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I've never been ******** strong enough to deal with it, I'm just so /tired/. And I never know if its depression or if its just ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** was moved from house to house among family most my life so i guess i just got used to the losing before the having 6:06am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Physical pain is nothing compared to that. Nothing can reach you in your head but that can. Having something and losing it. I can't deal. 6:06am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And just spend the money. And I'd HATE the person for ever giving me it for ever giving me something it hurt to ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** wont visit me here for the same reason i think 6:05am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You just learn not to want what you can lose. Like as a kid someone would give me something. Something nice and my mum would pawn ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** wouldnt come to the house after id moved ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** sometimes the same when it comes to me especially at first i think 6:02am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I can't have it. I can't have what you have and its painful to WANT it to ENVY it. So I take it out on you. 6:01am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger him away. And you like. You just make it all look so easy that its possible and I can want it and its tempting but I KNOW 6:01am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Because of my ******** logic, my two halves of the same ******** coin and I couldn't help him and I cared too much to try I had to just get 6:00am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Cause it just takes so much out of me. So ******** much, even Melvin. He was close but he went off the rails and it was because of me. 6:00am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger It's all just. So overwhelming. Either I care with everything I am or I like, destroy things before I care about them, push them ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** as its possible without being in your exact ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** understand a bit 5:58am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger When I care about a thing so much I like. I burn it up. It gets ruined and destroyed and spat out. Ace is the only thing that hasn't. 5:58am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger For me nothing is worth the loss of Ace. Nothing, no other thing, and everything else is ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** youre more extreme than me to be honest so i believe you 5:57am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I can't want anything because I'd just. I need to not care. Not caring is the only alternative to caring so much I will ******** ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** its risky i just try to make sure the value is worth the loss if i can but things keep me up and crazy with it sometimes 5:56am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Or I'd get Ace killed. H has threatened him loads of times already and if he goes I'm gone. I just. I can't. 5:56am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'd get so paranoid and afraid and I'd be worse and I'd hurt people and I'd do things to keep that home safe and I'd get ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** guess theres worse ways to vent your spleen than being mean on twitter 5:56am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm no strong enough to find a place where I want to be, that I value, because the value of that thing would make me insane. 5:55am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger For me home just means.. it just means s**t you can lose. I think about that and my ******** ...my heart just hurts. 5:53am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Because I don't want this to be a home. I'm ******** afraid of nothing more than that and it already cost me ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** everyone wants the same things but its hard to understand for me why some people dont want what a home can be i wanted one for so long 5:53am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But I care about the pricks here, I do. Even if I needle people all the ******** live long day and it gets worse now. Worse thant ever. 5:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And I just can't CARE. I just can't they aren't Ace they aren't the people on the island. 5:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And its like, some of the people like. They were people. Right there. And I have Dwight saying s**t about old ladies and this is ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** think its pretty brave to be going back into that s**t and if its a compartment thing then its a ******** sturdy one 5:51am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm immune to it for some reason. Apparently. Death's greed was all that kept me off the dissection table. I've been running cleanup ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** i got back i broke promises and kon and taym had to talk me down and i still end up just walking out and leaving them from time to ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** zombie thing with the green eyes i freaked out during it after i got me n pey cured i just stayed there and hid instead of helping 5:49am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't want a home, all it was to me was a place I was too wee to get out of. 5:49am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Home. Like. A house. Was somewhere I had to stay away from at all costs. There was. Bad s**t there. Bad cunts. I had to not. 5:48am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I've been dealing with a lot of ..human meat. Legit. Zombie s**t. It's a weird feeling but it doesn't bother me too much doen'st ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** places that should have been home but werent and ones that could have been homes but werent 5:48am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger in. And you didn't? That's bizzare. I get... things look more delicious than they ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** didnt feel like i had a home really until i came ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** i did the wrong ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** sometimes when i try now i get really ashamed because of that 5:46am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Having a house I'd just fill it full of s**t, even now I live between the room and the hoard. I need my junk I need my pile of s**t to ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** didnt eat them 5:46am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't know what I'm ranting about. I don't feel like I have a home or have ever had a home. 5:45am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Because that meat was something else, its nothing, it has no memories, no desire tied to it its just like, ******** food. 5:44am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger People become just things sometimes, when I don't know them, when they aren't close. So like, meat has nothing to do with them to me. 5:44am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger They were part of me. And its ******** up and sick and I hate it and know its wrong but thats like. I can just compartmentalise things. 5:43am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger They'd never ever hate me or hurt me. I could lock them away for ever. And even the taste wasn't upsetting that way like. 5:42am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I liked them. I really liked them and I wanted to be their friend. But like. Them dying just made them perfect for ever to me, like. 5:42am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't think no being able to eat meat is weak. Part of me like. Wishes that I did care about what happened to those ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** someone to argue ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** not terrible ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** stupid you think i am for whatever im disagreeing with you ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** i guess some things reach me but if youre gonna make me feel bad its gonna have to be about the bacon you ate that morning instead ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** i dont think its weak at all on those days and maybe they arent anything to be proud of but im not so ashamed ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** some days i still think im weak for it but more and more i go to bed thinking i got through another one and it was hard but i did ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** else that got hit with red eyes seem back to normal and im not and three times a day at the very least im reminded of ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** havent been able to eat a bit of meat without throwing it up since ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** cant get over some of the things that happened i cant just move on back to normal not even for stupid small ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** or not trying hard enough i told you this and i told you i changed and i ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** used to say people should just move on with s**t and get things taken care of and sorted out and if they couldnt then they were just ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** i know its not that ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** that if you turn a little clockwise youll see all sorts of good things in your life including a ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** thats your own and its hard to see why those things cant make this a home and a good one it just seems like you have all these ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** accepted i dont know what they have you doing but i know you come back to a really wonderful husband at the end of the day and a 5:24am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Work that way. Whatever. I know I don't hurt you anyway, ******** nothing reaches you. 5:24am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Especially when you are like people should just sort their s**t. I wish it was that ******** easy. I wish I could just change but it doesn't 5:23am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And having that s**t rubbed in my face when I can't ******** seem to be happy at all is a ******** bitter pill. 5:23am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Really ******** fragile you know? This ******** island and the missions I've been on and just. You seem so ******** normal and happy sometimes 5:22am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Look. I'm sorry that I get on your back so ******** often lately. I just don't know what the ******** is wrong with me. I'm.. More options
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Posted: Fri May 15, 2015 10:55 am
SLOPPY DM RECORD 15/04/2015 READ BOTTOM TO TOP
Jordan
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Duly noted. 11:09am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I like you when you get tetchy that wit and sass comes out. 11:08am AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Probably. 11:07am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger If only I'd had a better one sooner. Id have found out if denial made you tetchy. 11:06am AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime And you say you don't have a great imagination. 11:05am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger True. And all the spicy kinks I have. Shame I never got to tie you up proper. 11:02am AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I bet you make up for it by sheer volume, though. 10:57am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Mine isn't that great, that's completely unfair. 10:47am AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I have an active imagination. 10:35am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Oh come on you need to admit it would have been fun. I think about all the ******** ill never have all the time. 7:39am AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I rather imagine you would have. 6:31am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't know though man, I'd have liked to test the endurance of all models. 6:13am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Yeah you are, though it was always fun to test your limits. 6:11am AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I'm less breakable these days, anyway. 3:47am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Shame I don't have any hands on experience of you back then. Though I can't really complain. Wednesday, 9:35pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I think you've seen a photo or two of me when I was first here. Wednesday, 8:40pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'll show you it next time I'm around you. It didnae suit me, I was too effeminate. Wednesday, 8:20pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I won't snoop, but you know my curiosity. Wednesday, 7:58pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Terrible, I have a pic of me with my mum in my teens and its ******** embarassing. Wednesday, 7:57pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Thanks. You look pretty good yourself. Gotta say I'm sort of curious about what skinny looked like on you, though. Wednesday, 7:55pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Really though, you look sooooo good. Saturday, 10:52am AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Would rather you not torture yourself for it. Glad you stopped. Saturday, 7:06am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Its not. But its making them happy. 8 May 15, 5:23pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Maybe I did. 8 May 15, 4:26pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime it can't be making you happy, unless I've misjudged you severely from the start 30 Apr 15, 11:24pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime hope you're mostly sleeping okay. 30 Apr 15, 11:23pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Would be a little worried if you didn't have nightmares, probably 30 Apr 15, 11:19pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Yes! For a given value of ok ha ha ha, few nightmares 30 Apr 15, 7:02pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime you guys okay after that mess? 10 Apr 15, 12:33am AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Yeah. I understand 10 Apr 15, 12:32am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Sometimes you just get left with no options. 9 Apr 15, 6:25pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Suddenly understanding a few things a little better though. So thanks for that, I think. 9 Apr 15, 6:25pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I won't argue against it if it's what you want to do 9 Apr 15, 5:50pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger He says I'm able to make my own decisions and I want to try and be what people want me to be and see if it makes a difference. 9 Apr 15, 5:18pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Okay, well. If you've decided to just do this all the time to everyone and he's fine with it then I guess I'll just shut up 9 Apr 15, 4:52pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger He thinks its fine if I want to do nice things biggrin 9 Apr 15, 11:08am AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime What does Harrison think of the new behavioral trend? 5 Mar 15, 11:07pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Also glad of that, considering. 5 Mar 15, 10:59pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm really glad too. Life apparently wanted me to figure out what the ******** let me survive but death didn't want to give me up. 5 Mar 15, 10:57pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Huh. Well, I'll hope not to have to find out how. Glad you made it through.
America
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@NoagingerReply Saturday, 7:55am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger That is what I am. I'm extremes. Sometimes two at once. Saturday, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** yeah when you take s**t to an extreme Saturday, 7:06am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger All of me is capable of being very, very bad. Saturday, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** all those are terrible i dont thing the bad is all there is all the way down but i it may be the loudest parts Saturday, 5:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't even know if thats seven, I don't know what I'd be. I don't know. Saturday, 5:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And the parts I don't show anyone, the darkest bits the bits I don't understand maybe them. Saturday, 5:51am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger The things I like that I'd never share with anyone? I don't know, the hobbies, the thoughts I can't say. Saturday, 5:51am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Maybe the bit that kind of wants to die. Kind of hates myself.Kind of can't cope with anything. Where I just.. sometimes I wish I could just Saturday, 5:50am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And love? I only love Ace. Love him so much it could kill me and I wouldn't care, it could kill everyone else. Its all that matters. Saturday, 5:49am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And like...viciousness, brutality and power'd be part of me I want it all, I want all of it, I want to RULE. I want power. Yeah. Saturday, 5:48am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But then maybe the scared bit. From when I was weak and afraid. And a little boy. And bad s**t happened and.. fear. A lot. Saturday, 5:48am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I guess there'd be like. Loyalty and courage like...I mean also could double as like stupidity and pigheadedness. I'm not always scared. Saturday, 5:47am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't know. I don't even know if there are like, seven parts of me to split up. 8 May 15, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** there were like 7 clones of you what 7 parts would they be 8 May 15, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** heard a thing about clones and its that they all represent a part of you instead of the whole good parts and bad parts alike 19 Mar 15, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** as goals go that ones not bad at all 19 Mar 15, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** dont think thats unreasonable hun
Posted: Sat May 16, 2015 2:01 pm
SLOPPY DM RECORD 16/04/2015 READ BOTTOM TO TOP
Jordan
William Hughes @Noaginger I'm more sorry for cockblocking you. 12:01am AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime It's good that we could talk about it. I'm sorry about the cockblock part of it. AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I'll talk to him. 12:00am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't know how to fix any of it. Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I guess I'll just have to man up, huh More options 11:57pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime s**t. I miss him so much, and I'm still afraid to tell him that. 11:57pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I've texted him a few times, not about much, but we're kind of talking again. Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I think he might let you try again, but he'd need my word I was in it for the long haul. I haven't talked with him about it lately. 11:54pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime He felt like he didn't matter, and so did I, and both of us were wrong 11:53pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I know how much I hurt him. I don't know how to get that trust again, but I would try, if he let me. Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And I don't think he feels like I'd be able to do it right this time either. 11:50pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And Ace struggles to like, get over his broken trust, he's still upset you didn't ask him, it made him feel he didn't matter at all. 11:48pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I misunderstood a lot of things, but we all did 11:47pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I didn't think you'd let me leave. William Hughes @Noaginger I didn't want to reject you, I didn't want to abandon you, I didn't honestly think you'd leave. More options 11:46pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Even if it's not the same kind of need as the way you need each other. 11:46pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I just - can't cope with the idea of being rejected and abandoned again. I need both of you. William Hughes @Noaginger There were things you understood because you know how they feel. 11:45pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger He can't understand why I'm hurting so badly, he can't understand why I feel so shitty when he sees me as not shitty at all. 11:44pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But there were things you had too. I love him with all I am but there are things he can't understand, just can't. 11:44pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I've come to realize that not being equal doesn't mean not being balanced. Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You objected a lot to the idea of not being dead equal with Ace in all things. 11:43pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I know you'll never depend on me that way. It'd make me crazy, anyway. You don't need me the same way you need him. 11:42pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But I still want you, you are still important. You would still be important. But I'm scared that would hurt you. 11:42pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger For every day to day thing. I can't be that dependent on you, our relationship was always different. 11:41pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I think what I'm scared of is like, implying to you that suddenly you'd be on the same level as Ace. When I'm absolutely dependent on him. 11:41pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't know how I'd define it, I'd define it as a commitment but like. A different one. 11:39pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime What would you define it as, if it's not casual but it's not a commitment either? William Hughes @Noaginger And I'd never do anything without making sure Ace was ok with things. 11:38pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Not the case with men. You know especially I don't let just ******** anyone top me either. 11:37pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Yeah, and on Harrison. 11:37pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And if I slept with you it wouldn't just be some random we aren't together thing. Maybe with women I can casually ******** them, you KNOW its Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Cheating on me with me. More options 11:36pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime You have my heart, between the two of you. 11:33pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I want you. But if we were ******** without being together, I would feel like I was cheating, and I won't do that. William Hughes @Noaginger You can ******** tear me down with a few ******** words, I don't know what else I can give you or am allowed to give you. 11:31pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And we've done it before so I didn't think it was a big thing. I don't know how to deal with you. You already know me, you are close. 11:29pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And the easiest way for me to let people that close is sex. 11:29pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't have such a thing as "only" friends. I don't have friends, the word means like someone I've let into the heart of me. 11:27pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I wouldn't sleep with any of my other friends; it's not something I do with people who are only friends. 11:23pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime You need to be able to trust me for that, and I also need to be able to trust you for that. 11:21pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Well we can't do that or that or that. Its too intimate. 11:20pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Because right now there is a difference. You aren't in that close confidence place again yet and any time I try and reach out you are like. 11:18pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Then why is it a gigantic and terrifying leap to be in a relationship, if there's really no difference? William Hughes @Noaginger There's people like Al who are pretty much ******** minions and then there are those close to me which is pretty much Ace. 11:16pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't understand the difference. Ace is my friend who I ********. I don't have casual friends, I don't have any other "tiers". 11:14pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime What would the difference be between relationship and friends who ******** Hughes @Noaginger I don't know, just hanging out again, doing s**t together again, working together. 11:07pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime What would be the in between steps, if you're wanting to do it a step at a time? William Hughes @Noaginger Like oh I can't do this its too casual, we just need to skip to the nuptials. 11:04pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger If I'm constantly having to check myself for having a libido or wanting to touch you or ******** you or do anything with you. 11:03pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime It used to be, when we were together. 11:02pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't understand why its not possible to do both when it used to be. I cant relax or even start to deal with things. 10:59pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime There's just too much at stake for me to be able to be casual about it. 10:58pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Being around you and being able to talk to you is more important to me than getting my rocks off. William Hughes @Noaginger I figured if it happened then maybe Harrison would change his mind or something or anything. But I'll leave you alone. 10:57pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Ok. sad I'm sorry. I just don't know where to start then. 10:53pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I'm still not going to sleep with you outside a relationship, or sext. Not comfortable with it, even if I am interested. Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And then one day we'll all be dead and all the "for the time beings" will have been for ever. 10:47pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I think it might, for the time being. William Hughes @Noaginger And it just doesn't even need to be. More options 10:42pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime It's a burden. William Hughes @Noaginger And now I'm horny and SAD. 10:39pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Yeah. I can see how hard you're fighting it. 10:36pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Aye. Right now I'm kind of in the middle of something myself. 10:34pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime It didn't help that I was in the middle of an extended breakdown myself. Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Its what we should have done rather than let everything break the ******** down. I just don't like rocking the boat until I like jump overboard. 10:30pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime It'd have to be something that we talked about, and talked about problems as they came up William Hughes @Noaginger That was what I didn't understand. Some things didn't feel right splitting them exactly even and other things did. 10:25pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime It doesn't have to be equal, but balanced between us, yeah. Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I can't come back if I'd have to leave. 10:24pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I think maybe the mistake I made was feeling everything had to be exactly equal in all things and that got too stressful to manage. 10:22pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Because the two of you can't live without each other, and it might be you and him and me and you and me and him, but it's also all of us. Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Because the two of you can't live without each other, and it might be you and him and me and you and me and him, but it's also all of us. 10:22pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I want to find a way to make s**t work, to find a balance where like, all of us can be happier. 10:21pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime But to promise that to him, you'd also have to agree with it. 10:21pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I hurt him by not understanding and by leaving. I want to understand, and I won't and can't leave again. William Hughes @Noaginger He only got hurt because you left, you just need to not leave. 10:18pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I refuse to hurt Harrison like that again, either. William Hughes @Noaginger I don't have less problems. I have so many. 10:15pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I have. William Hughes @Noaginger Have you even been paying attention to the state I've been in? 10:13pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger No. I don't. 10:13pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime You have less problems without me. Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Nothing you could do would cause problems between Harrison and I. 10:11pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime You're happy together, and that's important to me. 10:10pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I don't want to drive you away, and I don't want to cause problems between the two of you, either. 10:09pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime That's what I wanted to know, I guess. 10:09pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't want to hurt you to the point you give up again. 10:08pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime It's the part after that's in question. 10:06pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime We're still going to hurt each other. That's pretty much how we work. William Hughes @Noaginger But I do want you here, we live on an island, even like, apart from you I'm no AWAY from you and that's the shittest part. Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But I can never give like, definite answers to anything. 9:59pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't know. I don't know myself well enough to give an absolute yes or no. I don't /think/ I would. Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I guess what I'm asking is whether you could still decide you don't want me there. William Hughes @Noaginger I don't expect a memory wipe I just mean like. It takes a while for me to trust, I can't just flip a switch on or off. 9:53pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I want to come back, but having to be cut off again would break me in ways that I don't think I can fix. Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime But I can't start over as though none of it happened, either. 9:51pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime We've both changed, and it wouldn't be the same. 9:50pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I don't expect things to be the way they were. 9:49pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger The idea of just having to be like exactly how I was when I'm different. It'd be re-learning everything. 9:49pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Without just expecting to flip a switch and things are the way they were, because its been a long time and I can't handle. 9:49pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't know it'd be like. Starting over. From square one. 9:47pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime What's working up to it, then, if not leaving the possibility of not committing in the cards? 9:47pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm like this is ******** wrong. Its not the way things should really be. 9:47pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I miss you ok. I miss what you brought to the table, every time I see you off on your own or like, quietly getting on with it. 9:46pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't. I don't mean it like that. 9:46pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime It's asking a lot, and I'm sorry that it freaks you out. But I can't leave again. 9:45pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I don't think I could handle it if you decided that was too big a leap, after all, after we'd started something again. 9:44pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I miss you, and I miss you for a lot of reasons. 9:41pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I know. I just freak out if I think about more than that when I can't have ANY of anything. 9:38pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I don't want it to be just sex. You should know that, if you're going to keep on going down this road. 9:35pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But I don't take huge leaps, huge leaps scare the ******** out of me. Unless its my charge and even then. 9:34pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I understand your reasons. I didn't think you'd just given it up because you got like, ordained or something. 9:28pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I've given up sex for the sake of the feelings and commitment, you realize. 9:28pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I like steps. 9:26pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Aye he's very like, absolute. I don't like absolutes, I would rather start as vigourous ******** and then go from there a step at a time. 9:17pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime If you don't want to commit, that's its own thing. 9:09pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Definitions, I guess. 9:06pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger If I could, I'd just give you such a ******** I swear. 9:06pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Can't understand maybe people ******** sometimes and maybe thats like...stepping stones. Also its all right for him, hes not got blue balls. 9:05pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger He keeps saying like I need to be committed to a FULL RELATIONSHIP right off the bat and like. 8:54pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Just letting you know why. 8:54pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I know. 8:52pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Sorry like, I just can't help it. You know what I'm like about saying what I'm thinking.It just so happens I keep thinking about ******** you 8:51pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I bet you'd say that too. 8:51pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I think he wouldn't be too pleased, so I'm going to refrain. I don't want to lose what I can have of both of you. 8:50pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @******** avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I wish Harrison was more amenable, I bet after this long you'd be capable of multiples. 8:46pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Surely words can't /hurt/ anything? 8:44pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I don't want to overstep, is all. 8:42pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger If only things weren't so complicated. 8:40pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Sorry, I just get like, carried away. 8:39pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime quit teasing, man 8:25pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I would much prefer you within touching distance, preferably pressed beween me and a wall, that would be ideal. 8:22pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Well, yes, that part not so much. 8:08pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't like you as you are because its FAR AWAY. 8:01pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I like you as you are. 8:00pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm pretty hairy, it'd become some full time job. I like my trails. 8:00pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger My hair's pretty ******** awful with the two colours, but it gets "maintained" I guess. I dont think I should wax though. 7:48pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Thank you. You know I like your hair. 7:46pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I like your hair though. It's gorgeous ok.
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Jordan
Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I know. So do I. Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I want to go home. More options 12:02am AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime You're not unattractive. You know how I feel. 12:02am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'll leave you alone. 12:02am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Sorry. I feel shitty, really ******** shitty. I 12:02am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't ******** understand anything. 12:01am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger It ******** hurts every time you knock me back you know. I know how unattractive I am. You used to not care. There weren't rules when we met. Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Sadly, at this time, you're right. Sometime, maybe. More options Wednesday, 11:59pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You wouldn't let me go with you on leave anyway. You'd get all stern and stop hitting on me. Wednesday, 11:58pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I guess there are places I can hide it they wouldn't search. Wednesday, 11:58pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @********. You are right. Wednesday, 11:57pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime but that's not something I would hope to see. Wednesday, 11:57pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime If not there, elsewhere Wednesday, 11:56pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime If you did that my capacity to remain unsearched on return would be gone, I'm sure. Wednesday, 11:55pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Hahaha now I know THAT is a joke. Like they'd let me have a headstone. Wednesday, 11:53pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I'll make sure your headstone is suitably monumental and epic. William Hughes @Noaginger Maybe I'll just come with you on leave and then you'd be complicit anyway. Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Yes because I can't stand, all my will to live is just ******** fading away. More options 11:49pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I assume you are sprawled dramatically on the fainting couch at the moment. 11:47pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You'll go to jail for it. Mark my words this is torture. You should just come put me out of my misery. 11:44pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I'll consult the Geneva Convention. William Hughes @Noaginger My punishment is disproportionate to my crime. More options 11:42pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You are a harsh master. Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime A terrible fate. More options 11:40pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Idk if I'll be able to eat I'm nauseous and wasting away. 11:37pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I'll make a note to bring back a cake for you. Chocolate? William Hughes @Noaginger There aren't enough sad faces in the world. Why do you always need to put your foot down? Live a little. More options 11:35pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger sadsad(((( 11:34pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I'm not going to ask around, either. William Hughes @Noaginger Do you know anyone who would? More options 11:32pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I'll repeat this as many times as necessary. Not smuggling coke for you. William Hughes @Noaginger Or I don't know if I CAN. More options 11:30pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And now I feel like absolute s**t and I need to go back to work and I just need to take the edge off just a tiny bit. JUST A BIT. 11:30pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I went home. Or near enough and no one hated me and it was great. I was in love with everything. 11:30pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Likewise. 11:29pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger This isn't caring, I'm able to look after me, I'm an adult. I can make choices. 11:26pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Going home would be nice. 11:26pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I care a lot about you. That's why I'm not doing this. Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I need a hug and some coke and its just the worst and I want to go home. More options 11:24pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You don't care about me and its terrible. 11:22pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Have fun. Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Brb going to die in a ditch somewhere. ABANDONED AND UNLOVED More options 11:20pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Not happening. 11:20pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Why? Coke is less harmful than alcohol and weed. It's totally safe. 11:17pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I enable alcohol and weed just fine, man. No coke though. William Hughes @Noaginger Why do you hate me? What did I ever do to you. More options 11:15pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm going to come over there and I can just cry on you then because you won't enable anything and it is killing me. 11:14pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime No. Not a vice I'm going to enable. William Hughes @Noaginger Just pretend its sherbert or washing powder More options 11:12pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger No if you lose you need to smuggle some, just a wee bit. It can be speed it doesn't need to be coke you won't even know its there. 11:11pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I'll fight you if you want, but I'm not smuggling drugs for you. William Hughes @Noaginger I even bought you a present but you won't want it now since I'll be dead and it will just be a grim reminder of me. 11:11pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'll ******** fight you. I'll come over there and I'll ******** fight you for it. Don't make me have to come fight you. 11:10pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime No. William Hughes @Noaginger LOOK JUST GET ME THE COKE OH MY GOD. 11:10pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Damn right you would because you can save me here and now. i'm on an edge and you can be my er... lifebelt??? parachute?? 11:09pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I suppose I'd have to commit seppuku out of shame. William Hughes @Noaginger And then you'd be wrong and I'd be dead. 11:08pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Maybe I WOULD. 11:08pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime You wouldn't do that, since you wouldn't be taking just yourself. William Hughes @Noaginger What if I like lose all hope and kill myself? I mean seriously man this is keeping me afloat. 11:07pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But why what are your reasons I need to understand what is important enough to warrant having me in this kind of pain. 11:06pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime No, I'm not pissed. I'm just refusing to do that. William Hughes @Noaginger Why have you got to be like this? Is it cause I pissed you off trying to sleep with you? I didn't mean it. 11:02pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I repeat: it's not happening. William Hughes @Noaginger Then why can't you get me a few lines, I'd be SO HAPPY. I'd live again and no be ******** dying. I cant even ask Ace cause I'm in the doghous 11:00pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I would indeed do either of those things. William Hughes @Noaginger Don't be like that, you'd get me a bandage if I was bleeding. You'd get me a drink if I was dying of thirst. I'm ******** dying man. 10:58pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime I'm not getting you coke, man. It's not going to happen. William Hughes @Noaginger Only YOU can help me. ONLY YOU. 10:57pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger No they can't help me. (All of Life hates me and are out to get me especially Dwight) 10:56pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime If you're in pain, I'm sure the infirmary can help with that. William Hughes @Noaginger I'll be like, oh I asked Jordan for help but he was like no, I'll get you cake but not the thing you are dying for. 10:55pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Look, I'm ******** dying here. I am so distressed I can't even keep my weapon summoned, if this withdrawal kills me what then. 10:55pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime If you were asking for a cake, certainly. 10:55pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'll be your best friend. 10:54pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Oh come onnnn. It's no a big deal, I know you are prudey but this is just a thing. Like cake. You wouldn't say no to bringing me back a cake 10:54pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime Flattery will not help your case. I'm not going to do that. William Hughes @Noaginger Aye. You are the most trustworthy guy I know. 10:52pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime You're asking me to do that. William Hughes @Noaginger Your task is smuggling some back for me because they won't search /you/. You are a ******** saint. 10:51pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I went on leave the other night and may have taken quite a lot of coke. I had plenty to bring back but they searched me and its gone. 10:51pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You are going to judge me I ******** know it but I'm fine ok. I'm fine and happy and just fine. 10:50pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Well. 10:49pm AlphaHammerTime's avatar Jordan Miller @AlphaHammerTime What is it? I was planning on taking this weekend. 10:43pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger It's practically life or death. 10:43pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But do you have leave, can you get me something like really important? I wouldn't ask. I wouldn't ask if it wasn't. 10:42pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Totally weird. 10:42pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Look. I know this is going to sound.
Otto
OttoGraves @OttoGraves hah. like i'd actually let you 1:09am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I ******** will, don't make me do it. 1:09am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger If you come over here I'll hit on you in person. 1:09am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger No! 1:09am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves seriously, im coming over 1:08am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves i aint gunna just turn my back if i can do something 1:08am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves but youre not. your an a*****e a lot, but you been real good to me when it mattered. 1:06am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Just tell me I'm a stupid d**k and leave it at that. 1:06am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Jordan does it too and just. Just don't. 1:06am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Don't be ******** nice to me. Don't like pretend I ******** matter. Don't ******** do it. 1:05am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger No stop. 1:05am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm just freaking out. Happens sometimes. 1:05am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves just say the word and i can be over there. dont want nuthin bad to happen to you ok? 1:04am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm too scared not to be hahaha 1:04am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm always ok 1:03am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves but are you gunna be okay? 1:02am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I would not rec being around me right now. 1:01am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves are you sure you dont need company right now? im worried 1:00am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Look sorry, sorry man. I won't DM you any more. Sorry. 1:00am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm 1:00am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I just need a little ******** bit of.. It was FINE yesterday. I was fine. 12:59am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm not calling you a baby I'm just 12:58am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves well i dont like the idea of holding drugs. call me a baby all you want. aint doing it 12:57am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger No one would even LOOK you wouldn't get in TROUBLE. They just searched me is all, I bet they wouldn't even look at you. 12:56am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves Why? Cuz I wont put my a** on the line for some drugs? Sorry dude. I'd go out and get you stuff that wont get me in trouble 12:55am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Being cruel. 12:53am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves stop what 12:53am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Please stop. 12:53am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves ILL MAKE FUN OF YOU ALL I WANT YOU MAKE FUN OF ME ALL THE TIME 12:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Why sad why would you do it why are you doing it 12:52am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves jordan sounds like a stand up guy 12:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Don't make FUN OF ME 12:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger NO DONT. 12:52am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves wah wah wah lookit me bein all cranky cuz dont got powder up my nose 12:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You are no ******** use, you are like JORDAN. 12:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Though I bet you'd have learned to take it ha ha ha 12:51am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Don't get ******** touchy, you aren't the one suffering here. Sorry I'm frank about things. Sorry you cant take it. 12:51am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves GEE I WONDER WHY 12:51am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves thats dumb. no one has sex the first time and instantly knows what theyre doing 12:51am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I CANT GET IT MYSELF THEY SEARCHED ME AND TOOK IT 12:51am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @******** you 12:51am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Sheltered in bed like you'd have been all naive and vulnerable when ******** is what. 12:50am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves whatever. find someone else to get you coke or get it yerself 12:50am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't smoke it I sell it. I'm more a Speed and not Weed kind of guy but don't get HOLIER THAN THOU. 12:50am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves wtf does sheltered in bed mean 12:50am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Don't you dare look down on me for a simple NEED. Its not a ******** HABIT. 12:50am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves aint a fan of weed neither. it smells bad and slows folks down 12:50am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Omg homeschooled so sheltered ******** I bet you were sheltered in bed too when you got here just ******** WHY 12:49am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger SO? Whats the big deal? We are strong. I grow weed on the ******** island I own a BAR 12:49am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves no one wants to get in trouble for you and some gross habit 12:48am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves no i was homeschooled. and no one is helping cuz its ******** drugs 12:48am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I can't even be properly snarky why the ******** won't anyone on this island help me RIGHT NOW. 12:47am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I should have guessed. Were you an orphan, did you work street corners 12:47am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves i didnt go to school 12:46am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Omg how do you know did they give you classes in school 12:46am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves Do you need to talk? 12:44am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves yeah thats drug use dude nice try 12:43am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Maybe smell it. 12:43am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves why are you upset 12:43am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger To feel it. 12:43am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves so you just want coke to look at it 12:43am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm ok, I'm so ok, I'm just a little bit upset. 12:43am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I never use drugs I'm a saint. 12:41am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves are you ok? 12:40am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves and since when do you use drugs 12:39am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves Why would I do that 12:37am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger JUST GO LIKE BE A LITTLE BOY 12:37am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves then i cant help you 12:36am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I KNEW YOU WOULDNT EVERYONE HATES ME. 12:36am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I do not mean soda. 12:36am OttoGraves's avatar OttoGraves @OttoGraves im gunna wager a guess and say u dont mean soda. in which case i aint doin it 12:35am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Yes or no answer, how amenable are you to bringing coke back to the island? 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Kostya
William Hughes @Noaginger I will owe you a favour then or something. More options 12:40am omniscienterror's avatar konstantin bashmet @omniscienterror Am set for leave for St. Petersburg, just for day trip. Will do what can. Please no servant, that is strange and alarming. 12:37am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'd be your ******** servant. 12:37am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Not the beverage. Any amount would be A ******** BLESSING. 12:37am omniscienterror's avatar konstantin bashmet @omniscienterror A small amount, is not problem. 12:37am omniscienterror's avatar konstantin bashmet @omniscienterror Is safe to assume you do not mean beverage? 12:35am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Yes or no answer, how amenable are you to bringing coke back to the island?
Posted: Thu May 28, 2015 11:53 am
SLOPPY DM RECORD 27/04/2015 READ BOTTOM TO TOP
Kostya
omniscienterror's avatar konstantin bashmet @omniscienterror I do not even know what that mean, but I am taking compliment. Am at bunker, feel free to come get. 6:51pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Me. I'll fork it over, you are a little russian blessing. 6:50pm omniscienterror's avatar konstantin bashmet @omniscienterror 2 gram, $250 USD. Should ask you or Harrison for $? 6:38pm omniscienterror's avatar konstantin bashmet @omniscienterror Am back. 9:06am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Thank you. I can't ******** sleep or anything. 8:48am omniscienterror's avatar konstantin bashmet @omniscienterror Am in Russia now. Is only day trip, won't be too very long.
Dawson
William Hughes @Noaginger But if you ain't I'm going to say I'm just more cheerful! 7:48pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Well if you were offering to go get me some I wouldn't say no. 7:46pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg im gonna guess u found ur drug mule 7:46pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg well u sound peppier on there.... 6:50pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm good. I'm good. I'm fine. 5:09pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg idk u were actin p weird yesterday D: 9:06am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger It's totally harmless and I'm fine. 1:32am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg wats got u worked up man 1:31am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg coke aint harmless??? 1:29am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger It's harmless. 1:28am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg idk man maybe we should think a somthin other than coke 1:28am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg i uh 1:27am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Aye. You carry it. And don't get searched. Some people doo some people don't. 1:25am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg how do u even sneak that s**t in 1:25am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg Like....cocaine? 12:34am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Yes or no answer, how amenable are you to bringing coke back to the island?
Melvin
William Hughes @Noaginger Depends, you could maybe find it cheaper. More options 8:36pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger About 150 bucks I think 8:11pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific How much is a gram? Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific I can sell these stones then and see 8:11pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I am just really poor right now and it sucks. 8:10pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger If you want to chip in any of your own money and can get more I can get more comprehensive results. 8:10pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific No problem. I want to see you again. 8:09pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific or tonight if I can swing that 8:09pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You are amazing biggrinDD 8:09pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific Yeah. I haven't left the island though. I'll head out tomorrow morning 8:08pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger As soon as possible. Whenever you can spare leave. I know its near the end of the month. 8:07pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific How soon do you need this? William Hughes @Noaginger Yeah you shouldn't be, you are TOUGH. 8:02pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific I shouldn't be as much More options 8:02pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific But I guess after that bar fight and a polar bear 8:02pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific Against bullets? I still get jumpy. I can't help having instincts to live. William Hughes @Noaginger Nowhere is too rough for you. 8:00pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You have a MAGICAL BULLET PROOF SHIELD 7:58pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific Detroit sounds a bit too rough for me William Hughes @Noaginger Just don't go to ******** super suburban areas. 7:56pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Just stick around red light districts, dances, sex distrcts. The whole world is your oyster. 7:56pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger They don't look any certain way. I'd buy it online but I don't have internet or ******** tor. 7:56pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific Wish I knew a shady person to ask where they get their stuff 7:56pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Pay in cash (I'll re-emburse you, I'm good for it, it'll come to maybe 500/600) 7:55pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific I guess just walk around and then / do I ask anyone on the street? Do dealers look a certain way? 7:55pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You won't be in any danger like, just ask around if anyone is dealing, don't look like a cop. Get directed to whoever ask for the amount. 7:55pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Well what I need is say like. 5g of coke, (to cover my control groups), to buy it you can go to like, rough neighbourhoods 7:53pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific Do you need any help with this experiment? 7:53pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific Okay. Just tell me what I need. Idk how to buy this stuff. William Hughes @Noaginger No no they won't, I'm fine. But you'd be the best friend ever if you'd do this for me. 7:50pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific I hope you are careful. People might assume the wrong thing about you if you are caught. 7:44pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Don't worry you totally will be. 7:42pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific Oh good. I kind of need to be on my Lead's good side 7:41pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger They shouldn't, they search people who are shifty. If they do they'll just take it, you won't be in trouble. 7:41pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific I guess if you need it but I don't know what is a shady place to go. This is all really weird. 7:39pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific Um. What if they search me then? 7:37pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger but I want to be sure of something I can't tell them directly. 7:37pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger No they won't give me a free pass I have a history 7:35pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific They should give you a free pass though 7:35pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific Why does death need coke? If it's a division thing then why would they search you for research? 7:34pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Are you scared? You just go up to them and say you want to buy two grams of white/coke/whatever, they are people. 7:33pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific But I wouldn't even know how to do that at all!!! 7:33pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific Do I look like I've ever bought drugs before? Sure Rin has her garden. 7:32pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I thought I'd come to a scientist for science but if you can't do it then... 7:32pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger From a dealer on leave, duh. They are everywhere in the rougher parts of the world. It's no hard man. 7:31pm SciFiScientific's avatar Melvin Wood @SciFiScientific What?!!! Where would I get coke?!!! 7:30pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger So if you were able to go get me some that's be ******** amazing. 7:30pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But I can't buy it cause I get searched you know 7:29pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm doing an experiment for Death division and I need oh...2g of coke 7:29pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Speaking of, you think you are able to do me a /favour/ old bestie old pal.
Jordan
@NoagingerReply 7:50pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And that you keep snubbing me, everything is ok. Everything is finally ok. 7:49pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Its ok that you betrayed me. 7:49pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I love you biggrinD
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Dawson
William Hughes @Noaginger I'm not ok with those lines when they leave other people as disposable things, I can do my job, I can even kill people, but to think those ******** people were somehow inferior is a ******** insult and cowardly as hell. More options Wednesday, 6:11pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg guess when we got so much gray area already u just get this need to put down lines so it dont blur more Wednesday, 6:06pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And even halloween things are alive. Wednesday, 6:06pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And I don't know what to say when people like Taym and Dwight are like well you aren't human or whatever. Cause I am, I might be a shitty human but I'm a human. Wednesday, 6:05pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Aye. I don't think even people who do bad things like, aren't people any longer. Wednesday, 6:03pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg but not likin someone dont invalidate em Wednesday, 6:02pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg its easier sayn their not bc bad ppl made em n they supposed to do nothin but bad stuff i guess or im oversinplifyin idk Wednesday, 6:01pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg its hard for ppl to accept i guess same way some ppl dont think halloween is ppl either Wednesday, 5:47pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Aren't valid or whatever. Wednesday, 5:47pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And who the ******** are we to say what human is or isn't, what deserves to live and what ******** doesn't. I'm no ok with the attitude that like, clones who fooled us into thinking they were people and s**t like. Wednesday, 5:47pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger That's no awright with me. I mean I do sime shitty things, I'll accept that, but I do it with full knowledge like, that the person I'm hurting is a person, I deal with that, I'm no afraid of that. Making excuses is cowardly. Wednesday, 5:46pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I can't get my head around the idea that like, anything can be classed as "not human" and like, suddenly its ok to hate and hurt and kill. Wednesday, 5:34pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg just font feel like justify in it to the tweet o sphere Wednesday, 5:34pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg for what its worth msn i know how u feel 18 Jul 15, 1:35am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg weird this place is im learnin all sorts of stuff 18 Jul 15, 1:35am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg man thats somethin else 18 Jul 15, 1:31am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger jordn its differnet, he's free, hes no half a prsn 18 Jul 15, 1:31am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger like me n ace r two halves tw ohalves of the same prsn 18 Jul 15, 1:31am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg i guess u gotta be tho bc love n all that 18 Jul 15, 1:31am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger cept each other 18 Jul 15, 1:31am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger thats no a bad thng it means like if u find someon like u then both of u will look out for no one 18 Jul 15, 1:31am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg sounds like a weird relationship if everyone selfish 18 Jul 15, 1:30am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg hha apparently i dunno how to b selfish 18 Jul 15, 1:28am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger and if evryon else is selfsh too, it wroks over all 18 Jul 15, 1:28am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger its like that but if yer a selfish ******** you get whatever u want whnever you want. 18 Jul 15, 1:28am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg or maybe thats just me heh 18 Jul 15, 1:27am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg always anxious someone dont get left out 18 Jul 15, 1:27am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg huh...see i always figured itd b like a hard balance bc then ud gotta always consider other ppl for every lil thing 18 Jul 15, 1:21am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger but its just..we are happier with all of us..thers still a lot of problms though. 18 Jul 15, 1:21am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger wth a lot of difficlty. jrdn and ace don't understand each other very well. I sort of..translate 18 Jul 15, 1:20am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg one persons a lot of reaponsivility how yall manage as three? 18 Jul 15, 1:20am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg hows that even work of u dont mind me askn like 18 Jul 15, 1:20am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger aye its good fr now anyway 18 Jul 15, 1:19am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg well thats good to hear! 18 Jul 15, 1:16am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger lets just say goin reaaal good if you get me 18 Jul 15, 1:12am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Aye sortof. Ace an Jordn have stuff to sort out but me and Doc wellll 18 Jul 15, 1:10am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg Harrison said yall was squatn at Jordans place back at the moon meetn! guess its been goin good huh 14 Jul 15, 5:04am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg doesnt mean thats all u r bro 14 Jul 15, 4:59am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger They just never forget your wrongs. 13 Jul 15, 7:12am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg getn liked is better than good at some point known that theyre whats left 13 Jul 15, 7:12am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg i mean we stuck here no matter what 13 Jul 15, 7:10am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg its good to feel like ppl r good w u even if its just for a moment 13 Jul 15, 7:10am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg sometimes still do honestly 13 Jul 15, 7:10am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg i felt that way comin here 13 Jul 15, 6:31am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Sometimes I want strangers to like me. 13 Jul 15, 6:31am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger He's so busy lately sad they keep working him away. I've got Jordan too but. I mean they NEED to like me. 13 Jul 15, 6:18am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg u got a rad hubby just steal all his attention biggrin 13 Jul 15, 6:16am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm ok, I can keep going. smile 13 Jul 15, 6:11am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg dont* wtf phone what is up today 13 Jul 15, 6:08am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg hey D: bro let it get u down 13 Jul 15, 6:00am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Sometimes its the only thing to wake up for. 13 Jul 15, 6:00am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg thats the worst aint it? getn addicted to attention 13 Jul 15, 5:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Aye, I know it just. He seemed to actually like me though when so few people ******** did. 13 Jul 15, 5:52am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg but like i said out there man someone like otto? what he thinks aint worth the s**t on ur boots 13 Jul 15, 5:50am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg honestly....yeah man i feel u 13 Jul 15, 5:41am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Doesnt matter where it comes from. It was safe, it was nothing. 13 Jul 15, 5:41am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Sometimes you just want to feel attractive. 13 Jul 15, 5:39am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg like hes a ******** douchenozzle 13 Jul 15, 5:39am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg i guess my real question is why ud care if otto would want to do that w u 13 Jul 15, 5:38am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Maybe. 13 Jul 15, 5:37am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg that from experience? 13 Jul 15, 5:32am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger The people who think they are taking are usually the ones giving the most. 13 Jul 15, 5:31am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg that its good but its give n take n sometimes more second than first 13 Jul 15, 5:31am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg just form what i heard about it from other ppl i mean 13 Jul 15, 5:31am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg i think i can see what u mean 13 Jul 15, 5:25am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But they only ever lose more. 13 Jul 15, 5:25am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger People who ******** everyone are trying to steal back what they lost. 13 Jul 15, 5:25am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I mean what I say, sex isn't just something you do. Its not just something you can like, ******** around with. 13 Jul 15, 5:21am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg what u mean lose a part of urself? 13 Jul 15, 5:18am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger It matters. Every time you ******** a random you lose part of yourself. You need to be soulless or you WILL be to do it over and over. 13 Jul 15, 5:18am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg whys it matter who would or wouldnt sex u up? 13 Jul 15, 5:17am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg so help me understand this real quick 13 Jul 15, 5:15am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg ok im gonna move this to dms because this feed getn way too busy forme to keep up 12 Jul 15, 7:49pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Sounds like an idea, I wouldn't ask Cael or Mark for favours, it'd be one way to get ******** up. 12 Jul 15, 5:40pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg ur death right? i hear ur lead can b a hardass so if u guys make a plan i can go ask mine instead 7 Jul 15, 11:41pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Seriously. 7 Jul 15, 11:41pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg not ur fault hes a shitty dude what dont understand anythin about actuslly caring bout ppl 7 Jul 15, 11:38pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg man dont hes a asswipe anyway 7 Jul 15, 11:38pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger it was just like, some weird flattery thing, and then he's been ******** all sorts of s**t on the side and I just feel rotten about it. 7 Jul 15, 11:37pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger He kept it up for ******** ages, I only even played his ******** game cause I thought he was straight, he told me he was straight and that 7 Jul 15, 11:15pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg i mean i knew he was a d**k but wow 7 Jul 15, 10:54pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg the hell he doin flirtn w a married man?? 2 Jul 15, 1:21am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg thnx man srsly 2 Jul 15, 1:21am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Can do. 2 Jul 15, 1:20am theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg heads up me n maebe gonna get hammered break out the karaoke s**t pls n thnx 30 May 15, 10:11pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg didnt wanna put that one punlic in case u want that on the dl 30 May 15, 10:10pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg hehehehehe 30 May 15, 10:09pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger The coke and coconut thing. Made me ******** laugh out loud like a complete tit. 30 May 15, 10:08pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg omg wat 30 May 15, 10:07pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Omg 30 May 15, 9:56pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg u got coke n ur a cocnut 28 May 15, 11:02pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg u wanna talk im here 28 May 15, 11:02pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg aight man u do u 28 May 15, 10:59pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Nah I'm no an addict I'm totally cool. No worries. 28 May 15, 10:49pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg like u want a good rush get u like ******** of pixie stix haha 28 May 15, 10:49pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg just dont like go depend or addict or anything yea? 28 May 15, 10:48pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg i mean ride it man inm glad u got something good 28 May 15, 9:23pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Nah nahhh 28 May 15, 9:22pm theshaggydawg's avatar Dawson Grace @theshaggydawg sounds like a high to me bruh
Jack
@NoagingerReply Sunday, 9:20pm goodonesargon's avatar Jack Hawthorn @goodonesargon I'll let you know when I have time then. Thank you. Sunday, 9:20pm goodonesargon's avatar Jack Hawthorn @goodonesargon Understandable. Sunday, 9:15pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Up to you, twitter is usually monitored, I'd rather it was out of the range of the Boss catching wind of it. Sunday, 9:14pm goodonesargon's avatar Jack Hawthorn @goodonesargon I need as much as you can give me. I've been informed someone has been greatly affected by a vision of masks, and we're not in a position to let it go unchecked. Sunday, 9:13pm goodonesargon's avatar Jack Hawthorn @goodonesargon If you prefer, we can speak here. Or I can find you somewhere beyond the usual cameras.
Otto
Otto Graves @OttoGraves alright More options 18 Jul 15, 3:27am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger i jst..need to keep up apprances 18 Jul 15, 3:27am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger bout the gay thng but i dnt mean it if i say nething 18 Jul 15, 3:26am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger aye jst..its stl hard fr me to be nice 18 Jul 15, 3:26am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves its ok. i get it. are we okay now? i only like fighting you for fun, not for real 18 Jul 15, 3:24am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger i lash out when m hurt, sry if it got you 18 Jul 15, 3:24am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger its fine im just knd of brokn, you dnt kno 18 Jul 15, 3:23am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves sorry man. 18 Jul 15, 3:19am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger bt we wrn and u dnt evn tell me so i cld stop flrtn 18 Jul 15, 3:19am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger i was ok wth bein bothrd whn i thought it ws just caus we wer on equal grnd 18 Jul 15, 3:18am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves cuz you geet all uppity 18 Jul 15, 3:18am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves i dont actually think ur old and disgusting. its just fun bothering you 18 Jul 15, 3:16am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger nd old 18 Jul 15, 3:16am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger i do bt evry time id tlk to u idk just be thnkin about how fckn disgustn you find me 18 Jul 15, 3:15am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves you dont wanna be friends cuz why? 18 Jul 15, 3:08am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger hve fun with ur hot man 18 Jul 15, 3:08am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger no you 18 Jul 15, 3:08am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger i dint want to upset you its just my mstake lettn you this close when you dint even want to be. i misunderstood 18 Jul 15, 3:08am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger im im just sorry 18 Jul 15, 3:07am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger its no but its ok i live with it 18 Jul 15, 3:07am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves i was being sarcastic. mean spirited, yeah. but reds a cool colour 18 Jul 15, 3:03am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger u dnt need to be sarcastc i cant ******** help ben ginger 18 Jul 15, 3:02am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves well stop it. go brush your pretty red hair and get over it. 18 Jul 15, 3:02am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger tht you knew that 18 Jul 15, 3:02am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger im ******** up 18 Jul 15, 3:00am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves how is me dating some dude make u feel ugly? thats ******** up 18 Jul 15, 2:59am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger i cant fckn feel attractiv anymore, hope ur happy u took that a way 18 Jul 15, 2:59am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger ive been down for weeks ur ok ur off with whoever 18 Jul 15, 2:59am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger u think you didnt get to me too? 18 Jul 15, 2:58am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves you also made my cry cuz of yer butthurt a*****e tantrum so ******** you too 18 Jul 15, 2:57am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves you decided I didnt like you, man. i still like you, even if you are a jackass 18 Jul 15, 1:30am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger cuz it relly hurt i thought u wer sensitve 18 Jul 15, 1:30am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger but u wouldnt have fckd me why did u need to hurt me 18 Jul 15, 1:30am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger but u never liked me i would hv ******** u if i wasant in a relatn ship 18 Jul 15, 1:29am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger u used to be a bro i miss you 3 Jul 15, 1:23am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Ha ha ha. 3 Jul 15, 12:57am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves youre a jerk 2 Jul 15, 4:59pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Have a nice ******** life, you faggots are all the same. 2 Jul 15, 4:59pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger No that you are a poof, that you were one and ******** led me on anyway. Whatever idk what I'm still even talking to you about. 2 Jul 15, 12:48pm OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves i was tryin to hide it, so yeah 2 Jul 15, 4:15am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I still can't ******** believe it. 2 Jul 15, 12:10am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Go away. 2 Jul 15, 12:09am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves dont be mad 2 Jul 15, 12:06am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves i didnt give u pep talks to tease you man. 2 Jul 15, 12:04am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves well i am 2 Jul 15, 12:04am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Aye, sure you ******** are. 2 Jul 15, 12:03am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger just ******** you and ******** your s**t you little blonde p***k. 2 Jul 15, 12:03am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves sorry 2 Jul 15, 12:03am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Giving me ******** pep talks when I was upset and all sorts of s**t just so you could yank the rug out from under me. 2 Jul 15, 12:02am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Well ********, you managed to actually get me. 2 Jul 15, 12:01am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I bet it was ******** FUNNY 2 Jul 15, 12:01am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @******** cockteasing me for like THREE YEARS 2 Jul 15, 12:01am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Doesn't ******** matter. Go ******** yourself. 2 Jul 15, 12:00am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves well to be fair yourve been married or in a relationship so really 1 Jul 15, 11:59pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I see how it is. ******** YOU. 28 May 15, 1:10am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves hah. like i'd actually let you 28 May 15, 1:09am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I ******** will, don't make me do it. 28 May 15, 1:09am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger If you come over here I'll hit on you in person. 28 May 15, 1:09am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger No! 28 May 15, 1:09am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves seriously, im coming over 28 May 15, 1:08am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves i aint gunna just turn my back if i can do something 28 May 15, 1:08am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves but youre not. your an a*****e a lot, but you been real good to me when it mattered. 28 May 15, 1:06am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Just tell me I'm a stupid d**k and leave it at that. 28 May 15, 1:06am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Jordan does it too and just. Just don't. 28 May 15, 1:06am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Don't be ******** nice to me. Don't like pretend I ******** matter. Don't ******** do it. 28 May 15, 1:05am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger No stop. 28 May 15, 1:05am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm just freaking out. Happens sometimes. 28 May 15, 1:05am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves just say the word and i can be over there. dont want nuthin bad to happen to you ok? 28 May 15, 1:04am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm too scared not to be hahaha 28 May 15, 1:04am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm always ok 28 May 15, 1:03am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves but are you gunna be okay? 28 May 15, 1:02am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I would not rec being around me right now. 28 May 15, 1:01am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves are you sure you dont need company right now? im worried 28 May 15, 1:00am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Look sorry, sorry man. I won't DM you any more. Sorry. 28 May 15, 1:00am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm 28 May 15, 1:00am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I just need a little ******** bit of.. It was FINE yesterday. I was fine. 28 May 15, 12:59am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'm not calling you a baby I'm just 28 May 15, 12:58am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves well i dont like the idea of holding drugs. call me a baby all you want. aint doing it 28 May 15, 12:57am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger No one would even LOOK you wouldn't get in TROUBLE. They just searched me is all, I bet they wouldn't even look at you. 28 May 15, 12:56am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves Why? Cuz I wont put my a** on the line for some drugs? Sorry dude. I'd go out and get you stuff that wont get me in trouble 28 May 15, 12:55am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Being cruel. 28 May 15, 12:53am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves stop what 28 May 15, 12:53am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Please stop. 28 May 15, 12:53am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves ILL MAKE FUN OF YOU ALL I WANT YOU MAKE FUN OF ME ALL THE TIME 28 May 15, 12:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Why sad why would you do it why are you doing it 28 May 15, 12:52am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves jordan sounds like a stand up guy 28 May 15, 12:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Don't make FUN OF ME 28 May 15, 12:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger NO DONT. 28 May 15, 12:52am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves wah wah wah lookit me bein all cranky cuz dont got powder up my nose 28 May 15, 12:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You are no ******** use, you are like JORDAN. 28 May 15, 12:52am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Though I bet you'd have learned to take it ha ha ha 28 May 15, 12:51am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Don't get ******** touchy, you aren't the one suffering here. Sorry I'm frank about things. Sorry you cant take it. 28 May 15, 12:51am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves GEE I WONDER WHY 28 May 15, 12:51am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves thats dumb. no one has sex the first time and instantly knows what theyre doing 28 May 15, 12:51am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I CANT GET IT MYSELF THEY SEARCHED ME AND TOOK IT 28 May 15, 12:51am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @******** you 28 May 15, 12:51am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Sheltered in bed like you'd have been all naive and vulnerable when ******** is what. 28 May 15, 12:50am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves whatever. find someone else to get you coke or get it yerself 28 May 15, 12:50am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't smoke it I sell it. I'm more a Speed and not Weed kind of guy but don't get HOLIER THAN THOU. 28 May 15, 12:50am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves wtf does sheltered in bed mean 28 May 15, 12:50am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Don't you dare look down on me for a simple NEED. Its not a ******** HABIT. 28 May 15, 12:50am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves aint a fan of weed neither. it smells bad and slows folks down 28 May 15, 12:50am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Omg homeschooled so sheltered ******** I bet you were sheltered in bed too when you got here just ******** WHY 28 May 15, 12:49am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger SO? Whats the big deal? We are strong. I grow weed on the ******** island I own a BAR 28 May 15, 12:49am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves no one wants to get in trouble for you and some gross habit 28 May 15, 12:48am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves no i was homeschooled. and no one is helping cuz its ******** drugs 28 May 15, 12:48am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I can't even be properly snarky why the ******** won't anyone on this island help me RIGHT NOW. 28 May 15, 12:47am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I should have guessed. Were you an orphan, did you work street corners 28 May 15, 12:47am OttoGraves's avatar Otto Graves @OttoGraves i didnt go to school 28 May 15, 12:46am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Omg how do you know did they give you classes in school
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@NoagingerReply 8 Jul 15, 12:47am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger -a** for any ******** reason, they were never my friend or they'd have ******** understood my pride. 8 Jul 15, 12:47am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't care if he was embarassed or awkward, I'm pretty unflinching like, if someone won't tell me important s**t and lets me look like an- 8 Jul 15, 12:45am Dio_Ex_Machina's avatar Creedence Kramer @Dio_Ex_Machina Yeah, I wouldn't either. I mean maybe he was embarrassed or something? Or it was awkward? But it's still shitty. 8 Jul 15, 12:43am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I got taken advantage of, I feel used and I can't trust someone who would use me like that. 8 Jul 15, 12:43am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Yes. More or less. I trusted him to tell me s**t but instead he just kept using me because it felt flattering. 8 Jul 15, 12:42am Dio_Ex_Machina's avatar Creedence Kramer @Dio_Ex_Machina epiphany hit him? 8 Jul 15, 12:42am Dio_Ex_Machina's avatar Creedence Kramer @Dio_Ex_Machina So you aren't mad he's bi, or whatever? Or that he likes other guys? But that he didn't tell you to cool off once he had whatever big bi 8 Jul 15, 12:39am Dio_Ex_Machina's avatar Creedence Kramer @Dio_Ex_Machina That sucks. 8 Jul 15, 12:39am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger It was. 8 Jul 15, 12:38am Dio_Ex_Machina's avatar Creedence Kramer @Dio_Ex_Machina So you feel like a joke was being played on you or something? 8 Jul 15, 12:38am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger You live and learn. 8 Jul 15, 12:37am Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I was joking. It was meant to be mutual joke, but in the end it wasn't, he had more cards to his chest and I got ******** over. 8 Jul 15, 12:27am Dio_Ex_Machina's avatar Creedence Kramer @Dio_Ex_Machina You definitely did better! 8 Jul 15, 12:26am Dio_Ex_Machina's avatar Creedence Kramer @Dio_Ex_Machina Sorry, I'd always just thought you were joking when you flirted with him. For what it's worth I think he's kind of a grumpy jerk?
William Hughes @Noaginger I want to make up for s**t. It's just hard. More options Wednesday, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** i cant make up for the things ive done that way Wednesday, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** part of why i went away Wednesday, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** staying away is all you can do Wednesday, 9:49pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And who I don’t like because he’s just a d**k and a creep. Wednesday, 9:48pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I’ve no even said anything overly dickish to people for a while, other than Horace who is a ******** bully. Wednesday, 9:46pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I run the bar, I fill drinks, I work on my stash of junk, I play games. Wednesday, 9:46pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I’ve been trying really hard for a long time and I’m ******** tired and lonely. And it seems the best thing I can do for people is just keep away from them. Wednesday, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** it doesnt mean the choices you make will reflect it and its a hard thing to realize when you care for someone Wednesday, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** good stuff in you rep that people can see if they look for it Wednesday, 9:33pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I’m a ******** disappointment machine and I got you in the end too, and Jordan even, who believed no matter what until he couldn’t. Wednesday, 9:32pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger People shouldn’t waste their belief on me. Lots of people made that mistake. Allan for one. Killzone too. It just ends shittily. Wednesday, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** just stopped believing that one day youd try and really mean it Wednesday, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** always thought you could do better More options Wednesday, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** never thought you were irredeemable rep when i gave up it was for me because i felt conned and manipulated by you William Hughes @Noaginger And those three people its really really hard no to get fighty with. 9:25pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And I can't stand sleazy guys. They make me really, really really ******** uncomfortable. REALLY. Even though I know like I'm kind of flirty and s**t maybe sometimes I just. It's just so ******** awful. 9:24pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I can't stand people who like, have given up on me. Who are just like, blankly looking through me like I'm broken and irredemable. I want to get /away/ from those people. I don't want them to look at me cause it takes me back to people who looked at me like that. I don't like smug confident bitches, I don't know why, I just don't. I just want to hurt them, break them and maybe worse. 9:23pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I guess like for me there are types of people I can't stand more than others and I like get more vicious, I don't know why. I mean no ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** avatar William Hughes @Noaginger The only way is up. 9:18pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But its just fine with me if they think I'm no. 9:17pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger People are ******** stupid, generally. It doesn't mean I'm no worse than anything I can call ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** you go around calling people stupid its safe to say that they're assuming you at l at think youre smarter than them 9:12pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I like it better if people think I'm shitty, low, without redemption, without saving. Just nothing. Its why Death division was like, it made me free. 9:12pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Growing up everyone was, my mum, all the ******** guys who were supposed to be my dads it was never ******** enough. I can't handle it. 9:11pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger God I hate people being dissapointed. 9:11pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Its easier if people think I'm a run of the mill stupid guy, that way they are never ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** avatar William Hughes @Noaginger People are just pretentious dicks about s**t, I don't want anyone to think I'm like that. 9:07pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't want to be a ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** theres nothing wrong with dipping into that a ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** are folks that are passionate and into a thing deep enough to get really smart about it 9:05pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Lists are for ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** case theres something hiding in all the ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** you tried making a list 9:03pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Because those things I know aren't wrong. 9:03pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Which is why I've just been in the bar or in my office or training. 9:03pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I know. Which lately has been "******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** about seeing that something you want to do is wrong and then not acting on ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** not about getting rid of 9:00pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I can give up more of me, that's easy. 9:00pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I can't get rid of me, that's the one thing other people want that I won't and can't do because Ace doesn't want that to happen, but some other things I can do. 8:59pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And sometimes its just choosing between those two things. 8:58pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I know what I want and I know what other people ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** not doing harm and doing ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** you know the difference at least Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But I just let him. And I want him to be happy. 8:56pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I didn't want to. Everything in me wanted to hurt him, to keep him for ever, to make him a dead static thing or a memory or something. 8:56pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I let Jordan walk. 8:56pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I try not to do ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** i think trying not to do harm is important ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** think you should keep trying to do good rep 8:54pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'd sooner have hate than pity. 8:54pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Its easier if they are just afraid of me than if they get close enough to see what a ******** pathetic mess I am. 8:53pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** think youre afraid they ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** dont think youre hoping theyll take it and give it back like they would where you came from where they taught you those things 8:50pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Maybe it gets a bit unfair and I get bitey about that too. 8:50pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I get freaked out and maybe it gets a bit bitey. 8:50pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Like Harvard. 8:50pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And a lot of guys are ******** creepy. 8:49pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But ok maybe I don't like most bitches. 8:49pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Sometimes I ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** take everything you know about them and whatever you can guess about their life and vulnerabilities and you ho for their jugular again and ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** you turn it at others thats not part of what you aim at ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** can tell theres affection there with ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** with ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** not what you ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** understand sarcastic and banter and teasing rep 8:46pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Here I joke and everyone is like omg ur literally satan. 8:46pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger It was part of the banter, sarcasm, bite, insults. Ace is the only person who speaks it. 8:46pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Well it ******** was where I came from. People insulted each others as a joke. 8:45pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'd sooner just stay alone than lie to ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** never will ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** isnt attacking people rep 8:45pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger It was just ******** lies, all of it. Lying every day until it soaked into my ******** skin and I couldn't handle it. 8:45pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Aye people did it more when I was doing that horrible toxic act. 8:44pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But what I see as kind people seem to see as ******** attacking them. I cannae preface every goddamn thing I say with "I don't want to upset you" "I just want to speak to another ******** human being I'm no very good at ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** you were being kind or that it was an act 8:43pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Aye. They didn't know I was but I was. 8:43pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And why I wanted to just give up those ******** memories to Circe just to get rid of it because there's no way to undo ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** they do that when you were trying to act like a kind person 8:42pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And its why I drink and its why I ******** and its why I fight and its why I just want to get out of my own ******** skin for ever. 8:42pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And I'm like aye, I remember it most ******** days, along with the other people he doesn't know about. 8:42pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger People do it all the ******** time, I'm terrified to say anything even SLIGHTLY honest or Horace or someone will deride it, or Dwight will be like remember that time you killed someone. 8:41pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And I KNOW I deserve it because I do it to other people like, go for their bravado and try to tear it ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** is trying to take you out ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** gotta listen and ask 8:40pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger And when I try to move softly or not hurt people, other people see it as a weakness and will try to ******** take me out. And I'm not actually strong enough to handle it. 8:40pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I always feel like I'm just crashing someone else's party by existing. 8:39pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't have a local perspective anywhere I've ever been except where I ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** its not because im willing to say im pretty ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** like to call me arrogant a lot and its ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** folks have been hurt or even died of ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** go in guns blazing and try to meddle and fix things that didnt need ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** been that person often enough rep you know ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** the charity was the sort where its an outsider goes in with their own ideas and doesnt listen or pay attention to the harm theyre ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** the place didnt help at ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** they end up putting locals out of business and ruining that economy cause they dont have that local ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** just saying its easy to be like those charities you know the sorts that are all good intentions that go into third world countries to help them fix stuff 8:31pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I guess it seems that ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** point of view just doesnt seem to matter to you 8:26pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I don't ignore the rest. People's points aren't removed by me not ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** you just put your view over things to cover up or ignore the rest then yeah youre gonna have a lot of trouble not hurting folks 8:23pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I'd sooner just not try at all and just be inoffensive than give all of myself till I have another breakdown. 8:23pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Not if they never meet me half ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** folks means trying to figure out what folks feel and the way they see things hun 8:22pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I was just trying to explain it to you, not to excuse it. 8:20pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But I know that's not right so I just won't do either. 8:20pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger That's how I feel about it. I can't do it otherwise. 8:19pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Aye. People hold onto the hurt and there's nothing wrong with ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** last we talked you were trying to tell me you tore folks down and tried to hurt them to make them stronger and open a door for you to praise them ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** the rest lose ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** id say a good 90% of what lawrence does everyday is harmless and even helpful and good but that ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** hurt usually talks loudest and it should 8:10pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger Especially when it feels like all the world talks some alien ******** language and when you reach out they laugh at you. 8:10pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger No one does notice or care when I do good things and its fine really, I don't really like it to be honest, hate's easier. But aye, its hard to no hurt people in ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** the trying not to hurt or ******** up people while doing those things thats ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** really really ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** means being careful of harm too rep doing good things is the easy part it feels good and even if no one notices or cares itll make you proud of yourself 6:01pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I want to be like, a good person. Maybe no in buttering people up, but in doing good s**t, helping people who want help and helping to build the island. Tuesday, ******** avatar AMERICA JONES @******** a harsh start but i think good can come from it and you Tuesday, 7:02pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger But if like somewhere along that line you branched off maybe like there are good things I can do, maybe I'm no jinxed from the start. Tuesday, 7:01pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger I didn't mean to make it sound bad I just like assumed everything about my past was poison. Toxic and ******** horrible and that it was why how I am and nothing good could ever come of it.
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Tuesday, 8:26pm Noaginger's avatar William Hughes @Noaginger
