This might be a long rant, so you have been warned, but it's really getting me down and I'd like some advice. Mature advice.
First things first, I am a 15 year old female, still in high school. I live in the UK.
I will be using their real names, but not second names otherwise it'd get confusing for both you and me.
Now that's over and done with, here's the rant. >>;;
It all started sometime last year, around August time if I remember correctly. I really like this guy called Ryan, a year older than me. He knew that I liked him, yet still asked one of my best friends, Jasmine, out, she didn't give him an answer which made me get paranoid. I didn't say anything, and soon it all blew over and we went back to normal. Ryan's best friend Joe, started going out with my best friend/non-biological sister, Hannah. Me and Hannah, wanting to expand our group, invited another friend out, Tara, a couple of times when us two were out with Ryan and Joe. Tara made out she hated Ryan and procceded to punch him on the arm/kick him whenever we went out as a group. A few weeks later (nearing the end of August), she admitted she really liked him, and Ryan overheard and said he liked her also, so they started going out together. Me, being the silly girl I am, still really, really liked Ryan at that point in time, and both of them knew, yet didn't care about my feelings.
That's when it all started to fall apart.
In Novemeber (we're back at school by this time), Hannah started acting weird and completely isolated herself from our group (me, Jasmine, Siobhan, Kim, Tara, Rachel) and only spoke to her boyfriend and his friends, when I finally got her on her own, she said she was only acting like that because I supposedly was closer to Tara than I was her, which wasn't true, considering I resented Tara for the reason stated above, but tolerated her to keep the peace. Hannah's done this three times since then, and it's all been the same reason, along with a few others which aren't important. December and January pass, I turn 15, blah blah blah.
Then, in February, Hannah and the rest of the group basically turned against me because I supposedly said something to Hannah that made her angry. For five weeks, none of them spoke to me. And me, not being the most popular person in school, had no-one else to talk too. I can't remember how it happened, but me and Hannah made up, but the rest of the group weren't happy about it.
Then in April, my dad died (4 months tomorrow actually) and I clung to Hannah, and said to the others 'I don't care what you guys think, Hannah is my best friend and always will be' they took it the wrong way and thought I meant I didn't care about them, so they ditched me and Hannah, refusing to talk to me, saying they didn't have a problem with her it was only with me. Then, on a day of a school trip, I went up to Jasmine, stuck out my hand and said 'Truce'. She just looked at me like I was a piece a s**t on the bottom of her shoe and said 'What's the point, it's not gonna change anything' then turned her back on me and started talking to her boyfriend. A few days before that though, Kim, Siobhan and Jasmine came up to me and Hannah at break and said we need to talk, so we did, and I told them that I thought I'd done nothing wrong quote "What's a girl doing wrong when she either just wants to spend time with her best friend or on her own after her dad's just died?" that made Jasmine angry and she walked off.
Confusing as it may be, I've cut out some of the facts, you can ask for more if you want, but I'm just wondering how to sort it out, because it's the summer holidays, I have no friends other than Hannah and the ones I have online, but Hannah has all the group and her boyfriend and his friends. I just feel isolated and alone, wanting to get my friends back and have fun rather than moping about indoors for the rest of the holiday. It may be stupid saying this, but I want things back the way they were...
First things first, I am a 15 year old female, still in high school. I live in the UK.
I will be using their real names, but not second names otherwise it'd get confusing for both you and me.
Now that's over and done with, here's the rant. >>;;
It all started sometime last year, around August time if I remember correctly. I really like this guy called Ryan, a year older than me. He knew that I liked him, yet still asked one of my best friends, Jasmine, out, she didn't give him an answer which made me get paranoid. I didn't say anything, and soon it all blew over and we went back to normal. Ryan's best friend Joe, started going out with my best friend/non-biological sister, Hannah. Me and Hannah, wanting to expand our group, invited another friend out, Tara, a couple of times when us two were out with Ryan and Joe. Tara made out she hated Ryan and procceded to punch him on the arm/kick him whenever we went out as a group. A few weeks later (nearing the end of August), she admitted she really liked him, and Ryan overheard and said he liked her also, so they started going out together. Me, being the silly girl I am, still really, really liked Ryan at that point in time, and both of them knew, yet didn't care about my feelings.
That's when it all started to fall apart.
In Novemeber (we're back at school by this time), Hannah started acting weird and completely isolated herself from our group (me, Jasmine, Siobhan, Kim, Tara, Rachel) and only spoke to her boyfriend and his friends, when I finally got her on her own, she said she was only acting like that because I supposedly was closer to Tara than I was her, which wasn't true, considering I resented Tara for the reason stated above, but tolerated her to keep the peace. Hannah's done this three times since then, and it's all been the same reason, along with a few others which aren't important. December and January pass, I turn 15, blah blah blah.
Then, in February, Hannah and the rest of the group basically turned against me because I supposedly said something to Hannah that made her angry. For five weeks, none of them spoke to me. And me, not being the most popular person in school, had no-one else to talk too. I can't remember how it happened, but me and Hannah made up, but the rest of the group weren't happy about it.
Then in April, my dad died (4 months tomorrow actually) and I clung to Hannah, and said to the others 'I don't care what you guys think, Hannah is my best friend and always will be' they took it the wrong way and thought I meant I didn't care about them, so they ditched me and Hannah, refusing to talk to me, saying they didn't have a problem with her it was only with me. Then, on a day of a school trip, I went up to Jasmine, stuck out my hand and said 'Truce'. She just looked at me like I was a piece a s**t on the bottom of her shoe and said 'What's the point, it's not gonna change anything' then turned her back on me and started talking to her boyfriend. A few days before that though, Kim, Siobhan and Jasmine came up to me and Hannah at break and said we need to talk, so we did, and I told them that I thought I'd done nothing wrong quote "What's a girl doing wrong when she either just wants to spend time with her best friend or on her own after her dad's just died?" that made Jasmine angry and she walked off.
Confusing as it may be, I've cut out some of the facts, you can ask for more if you want, but I'm just wondering how to sort it out, because it's the summer holidays, I have no friends other than Hannah and the ones I have online, but Hannah has all the group and her boyfriend and his friends. I just feel isolated and alone, wanting to get my friends back and have fun rather than moping about indoors for the rest of the holiday. It may be stupid saying this, but I want things back the way they were...
