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 Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 4:49 pm
Kamau stands stunned by the mares sudden change in temper. He feels as if he hit a point of her and she bursted when he did letting all thr bad of her life come streaming out. What she had said she was right he would never know how it felt he had had never went though it..He feels horrible now like he had done something horribly wrong.
"Im sorry..I just though..I never expected....."
he shakes his head as he cant find the right words and know that the mare will spit his sorry right back out at him. He was just trying to get her attention but that was very unlike him even so. He knew most did not like calm horses...He was just trying to be more outgoing
"I do not know what it feels like to get discrase for who you are..I now regert the actions i took but some of my feeling remain the same..I know your not going to accept my apology..Never be shameful of who you are no matter what your going for..There is no reason to live if your thinking your shame and no one can ever accept you"
Now he was starting to feel something in his gut..Could he be possibly..?? No! How could he? He had only just met her and had no idea who she was! but this feeling was there in a tight knot in his gut but he pushed it out of mind for now"
He risked getting closer he wanted to comfort her to tell her that not all were bad that most were willing to accept and only a few like whoever disdonwed her were far from many.
"I can never feel the pain you do..I may never understand.."
He sighs feeling lonely already..The feeling he had was it even real?? Was he just imaging it because he wanted someone to be his own? Or was it real what he felt?? Did he truly..?? He knew she did not feel the same for him and that was a fact he could never deny
He listens very carefully to her next words and it almost bring tears to his eyes but this is very un stallion like so he just frowns and holds it back. He then turns angry at this mares unknown father for treating her like she was nothing. He stamps his hooves in the ground to keep from lashing out as she did.
"You do have every right to be mad..How could he have claimed your not his own??How could he have been ashamed to love you for who you are???"
His voice is getting more angry by the second he cant take it how one could be so un un.. un caring and cruel to there own foal and mare.
"You may distrust me if thats what you want..I know you do and always will i cant change that..How could he think your sister had more of chance than you when you both were born from the same mother?? I cannot understand such cruelty.."
He can feel the coldness and hatred in her words and he still want to comfort her to be hers in a way..he knows he cannot..how can he have such feelings for a stranger??? This is very odd
"The word shall stay the same till some brave soul decides to change it.."
He gets even closer now truly wanting to know how she looks and her name..Yes what was her name? He had a feeling this was turning out to be his first let down even if his gut told him it was something more like fate..
"You can hide all you want..There will come a day when hiding is no longer an option..when you no longer feel protected..I would just like to see who im facing and have been talking to..I know your a shadow but your also a mare are you not? you have feeling as much as i do.."
He takes a pause thinking about his next words
"I know you are not a shadow..I know this is Fate.."
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 6:09 pm
Umbra was surprised though she wouldn't say anything. He was sorry. It was as if he had judged her and realized he was wrong. It surprised her to say the very least. Einar would never admit he'd been wrong. She shifted where she stood.
"Your right you don't know. Few don't know what it feels like, and I highly doubt many have it happen to them upon first meeting their father. I however do not see anything wrong with me. My mother was too feeble to make him stay and see the error in his opinion." She shook her head her mane dancing like her shadows. "I hide because stallions are judgmental, uncaring, and vicious."
She laughed a small hollow laugh as he went on about how her father could disown her, be ashamed of her, could dain her sister better then her. "It's simple really, we were born without pelts. Pandora rather then refuse his words turn her back to him determined to prove him wrong. She showed promise because she showed backbone." She nearly spat. She didn't resent her sister in the least, loved her still though she knew not what had become of her sister the determined predator.
She shifted uncomfortably as she felt a shift in the air. "Feeling. Ha, that's just a matter of perception." She tossed her mane in a more casual manner and then skirted away from him as he attempted to move closer to her. "Fate." She scoffed at the word. Meeting her was not fate. A cruel trick mayhap but fate no. "You may think what you may. As it stands I do not at this time feel the need to reveal myself or my name."
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 6:26 pm
"I suppose it happens when one falls in love with the wrong person..When they are not meant to be and it is merely a game for one of them..That is was it sounds like to me..Your parents never really loved one another and your father was only using your mother.."
He thinks quick of what to say next because he knos what he has said is likely to se the mare off again but he wont give up on her. no he likes a bit of a challenge and this is just the way he wants it. If one is to outgoing or loving it is to hard to back away from them..One that needs something or is like the shadow mare on the other hand is much better knowing your helping even if none of them will admit it
"You dont know that..Do i seem to be any of those things?? Do i seem harsh? Cruel? Backstabbing? I can promise i am nothing like the father you hate so much"
He shakes his head wondering if he will ever be able to get her to show herself or anything more than hide and talk from behind shadows. He was not going to give up on her his gut still told him the same thing
"So you are a skinwalker..Or your parents were..Your sister decided to try while you decided to do something else and therefor your farther thought she has promise and you were nothing.."
He shakes his head at how something like this could ever happen. He would never understand this mare from her point of view..no wonder she felt the way she did he would of felt the same.
"Feeling and Fate are both parts of life..I suppose i should of said this was a meeting of chance.."
He knows the mare has gone further away from him but again he gets closer.
"I do think what i want..I am willing to show myself to you..You know my name is Kamau.."
He tries to step out of the shadows but all he sees ahead are more.
"Im not going to give up and leave if thats what you want..Im not going to turn around and just do what i think you want me to.."
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 6:33 pm
Umbra shifted uncomfortable still."Love."Once more she scoffed at a word as if it wasn't real. "What is love if not a fickle and fleeting emotion that is as turbulent as the ever changing tide." She tossed her head, thinking back on her parents. He doubted feelings between her parents. Hell she couldn't blame him, her mother had seemed so unaffected by his anger, by his leaving and such. She was delusional and weak. She was unworthy and the reason she had been deemed unworthy. She shook her head, she wouldn't put it past a stallion to use a mare.
She stared at where he stood as he quickly moved on though she had chosen to respond. "I shall take no chances until proven wrong by you." She shook her mane again the beads and feathers dancing in their blue color. "I have no reason to take your word or your promise. Words are hollow and empty and their is no action you can do to prove me wrong." She stalked further away from him. "My father was a mighty cat skinwalker, my mother a mere being of the shadows." She shook her head looking away.
She frowned. He insisted upon seeing her, wanted t know her name. She would not give him what he wanted though. Even as he feebly attempted to show himself. "It's no use the shadows they grow and make thing dark and thick." She laughed a light laugh. before skirting around as silent as she could be. Perhaps she could sneak up upon him and spook him and receive some pleasure from the meeting, A meeting of chance, Ha she was tempted to say it was more a meeting of misfortune, not for her but he.
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 8:51 pm
Kamau stands his ground planing to stay here all night if he has to. He has grown used to the darkness now and thinks nothing of it as he continues to give conversation.
"Love..Its the power to break someone forever..Or forever to really know what the word means"
He knew this talk was not getting him anywhere as they had been going back and forth for well over an hour with no change in anything. He knew though that eventually he might push something good in this mare.All he need was time and only time could tell
"You never know i may prove you wrong"
He grins in the darkness knowing that he will prove he can be trusty and she can have someone to rely on. She has been though a hard life and he knows its not easy to change after all that time and accept that facts.
"Words mean nothing unless you act upon them..I act upon my words and i keep true to them..I may seem clam but inside i have many emotions as you do.."
He knows it wont be easy to make her show herself but thats the fun of this. He is enjoying himself and in a good way not a bad way
"That explains why you enshroud yourself in the shadows..You are pat skinwalker part shadow.."
"Why must you make the shadows grow thicker? I wish to show myself even if you wish to stay hidden.."
For a moment he lost sight of the shadows and turned around wildly not knowing what to expect she could be sneaking up right now..If she did though he would defend himself like he knew how but if it came down to a real fight..he would let her win
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Posted: Thu Dec 23, 2010 9:08 pm
"You speak as if you know what love is." Umbra doubted that he truly knew least not personally for why else would he waste his time with her shadowed game. "Why would one put themselves in such a position to be broken forever? I dare say it would not be worth it in my opinion." She shook her head still certain tat love was fickle and fleeting.
Why should she give him the chance to prove her wrong when she knew she was right and not he. She found it amusing that he wanted to try. She almost wanted to allow him to do it to laugh as she saw him fail, but to see him fail would be to allow him the chance to begin with. No the chance to laugh in the end was not worth potentially being hurt.
"I bet your just a full bottle of emotions just brimming to burst free." She skirted around him some more. Her whisper like voice floating through the air like the breeze. She grinned as she realized he'd lost sight of her. She would have fun indeed. though she nearly choked when he said she were part skinwalker. She was no skinwalker. She had her fathers teeth but that was about it. She held no other qualities, no blood lust, no desire to kill or maim, just anger issues. "The shadows are not to hide you, but to hide me. if I were to let them up to see you then I'd be letting them up to see me.:
She shook her head tsking. "No my boy you will not be granted that." Then she neared him and flicked her tail causing it to graze his leg before she skittered away out of his reach.
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Posted: Fri Dec 24, 2010 6:30 am
"I do not know what love is but i would be willing to give it a chance..I have always what it felt like to truly felt like to be loved by someone..of course there there still remains the fact they could break your heart and run away.."
He was thinking about her parents when he said that..the fact it was not love that brought them closer but something horrid and that is why her father left her..he knew he had no idea about what he was like but just by hearing her story he new he was a true skinwalker never taking up a real mate for his own..one to play games and leave when the foals were born to take one for his own
"You would put yourself there because most of the time considering things go right you find the perfect one.."
He gets angry now at her questing of being broken not because he knew it would happen but because he knew it could..but he knew that if he did this right she may fall for him as was falling for her. He would never let that happen he would never break her ot treat her wrong.he silently promised himself hat if she ever started to fall for him he would protect her with his life.
"Sometimes you must challenge what you think sometimes its not always what it seems..If you stay protected and hidden away forever you can never enjoy the true beauty of things..not saying you want to"
He laughs a little but in a kind way not harsh and cruel its a fun loving caring sort of laugh. He can joke as much as the others can he just most of the time chooses not to
"What if i am just emotions? Is that bad thing..?I can express my feelings but i choose not to..i just keep my calm ways as being well.."
he looks around again knowing and feeling she is on the move again and he stopped talking for a moment frowning and moving again. He would not let her win he her heart on his mind and if he did not win it this time surely the next time he met her would prove right? Unless she never felt she needed love or a protector..
"Sometimes you have to take a risk. if the shadows let up if i closed my eyes would you let them to see me?"
he knows its a dumb question why would she do that? She has no trut for him and would think he would peek but he would never do that and violate her to do something she would not want. When the time was right he would see her
"I will be granted that someday..i shall hope"
He flinches as he feels her tail on his leg and then feels her shift away again. He stands still once more knowing she is getting closer slowly taking more chances and he grins. This may pay off he thought
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Posted: Sun Dec 26, 2010 6:46 pm
Umbra thought about what he said about the risk ad about how he'd take it. He was a fool was all she could deduce from it. A fool to say the very least to be standing there in the dark of an ever growing night. The perfect one, like it was really so easy. She shook her head and moved around. "Perfect is on;y perfect for a time and then things change." She wouldn't stand down on the subject. "I dare say I would never willingly put myself there."
She moves around and nips at his shoulder before skirting away. He'd made little reaction to her tail so she hoped the light n** would generate some kind of reaction. She'd barely grazed him and would have only left a light scrape. "Well mayhap your not a bottle full of emotions. Devoid of emotions and hollow."
True beauty, she shook her head. "You make it seem as if there is no beauty in the shadows. You must not see the true beauty of shadows then." She tsked a smirk on her face. "No such risk sir. I shall remain hidden."
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Posted: Sun Dec 26, 2010 7:14 pm
Kamau has gotten much bolder from all of this. He feels he is changing in a good way and he is getting more of a personality each day. This mare is changing him in a way and he feels it is a good thing.
"Things dont change if you dont want them to. There is always something you can do if your try"
He nods still wanting to win her heart no matter how many days, months or years that may take..He wants to win the prize of seeing how she looks under all her shadows.
"I would i would put myself there i say its a risk worth taking .. Im not leaving till something happens i can promise you that..I can also promise you we will meet again if what i am trying for does not happen today.."
He flinches and rears up when he feels her gently bite him. He grunts and shakes his mane out but still not budging. He made a promise to himself and she would not have her way..
"I have emotions and im not hallow like a robot..I can think and make my own decisions weather they be for good or bad"
He stares up at the sky wanting the moon to come back out and light up this mare illuminate her for the world to see but mostly him.
"Shadows are nothing..they cant hurt you all they do is curl and hide whats within them..I know they can be beautiful but right now there only an obstruction.."
He frowns at her resistance to what all he has been saying but he cant be sure what she is thinking. He knows something must of stuck her by now but like before he would not give up on fate.
"Well my lady..when you fell the time is right you shall reveal yourself"
He is grinning now a twinkle in his eye waiting to see her response
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Posted: Sun Dec 26, 2010 8:00 pm
Umbra stomped her foot when he didn't respond much to her n**. She shook her head at his talking about what you could do if you try. "I dare say you are all talk and no play" She tsked masking her frustration that was once more growing.
She danced about in her frustration, she didn't know what else to do, she couldn't butt his chin she'd do more pain then game. "Like a robot." she snorted. She laughed at her obstruction. "At least I'm not cruel enough to allow you a glimpse and then take it away without a second thought. "
She skirted over again and crept up close to him careful not to touch him. "You seem sure of yourself"
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Posted: Sun Dec 26, 2010 8:08 pm
Kamau could be fun but he felt this was not the time for games. He was sure she wanted some reaction from him and a game he would give her he wanted he supposed even if he looked foolish in doing so
"I can be loads of fun i know you want to play right? Your very secretive!"
He runs around trying to find her now wanting to join her in some kind of game he knows not. Waiting for her to make a move on him
"Im not a robot i can prove that to! I can show you that"
He grins and keeps running around trying to find the shadows and her. He is feeling great now but he feels this may be to much. She seems not to want happy play but wants him to feel scared by her
"I wound not take away what i saw and turn tail..I would do no harm to you as i think..well.."
He cant say he likes her that would be crazy! He does not know what to say and his feelings are almost to the bursting point
"I am never sure but i think i know..I cant claim to say i know what the future holds.."
He stays still now wanting her to make a move on him so they can play have some action in the middle of this long conversation
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Posted: Sun Dec 26, 2010 9:40 pm
Umbra frowned as gallivanted about, he'd run into a tree if he were not careful. He was happy and searching for her. She was displeased, most displeased with how thing were turning out. He wasn't playing her game. Einar had played her mothers game though. She thought about it a moment, such games were not good then... None sense she would continue she liked her games. Just as her mother did, her mother just let one game get carried away and out of control. As per her existence.
"You act as if you were a colt mindlessly chasing something you'll never catch." Apparently bored with his take on her game she is careful to avoid him. She shook her head softly and sighed. "I did not mean you'd turn tail. I meant I would allow the shadows to let up just to have them swallow you whole. You do not want them to swallow you whole. Trust me. That is something you do not want." She shook her head she was too kind to have the shadows swallow someone whole. Surround them and such was fine she could do that. The shadows liked her danced for her and came to her. Her mother could do the same if she were sane enough to control the shadows but she was insane. "You shall not see me this night I will make sure of that."
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Posted: Mon Dec 27, 2010 6:15 am
"I know that someday i will catch what im trying for..Nothing shall ever stop me now that i have my goal in mind"
He nods and bows in the half darkness smiling. He would not give up on her and he would change her mind someday..someday she would realize something was missing from her life..someday she would think of him only time would tell when..if she needed help he would be there he knew it
"Shadows i do not fear them sure i will admit being swallowed sounds..not pleasing and very much dis pleasing..If thats what comes to me for pursing you than so shall it be.. i have already accepted the consequences i may face for trying to make fate happen..Of course i am scared but i will never show it"
He shakes his head now worried about the shadows but back up a bit but than shakes his head and gets right up the edge of one feeling it flicked onto him and he flinches fear in his eyes but he stays put determined
"Then someday i shall see you i will make sure of that.I will come to lean your name and see you..someday in the future and i hope sooner than later.."
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Posted: Tue Jan 04, 2011 11:33 am
Umbra snorted at his determined statement. "You will fail at achieving your goal." She was not cocky nor confident in her own response, but she was not hesitant. She was calm and unwavering. It was something that could be quite true but it would not make her a fool were she proven wrong.
She laughed at his response to being swallowed by the shadows. "Ah my dear sir, you would not survive. No one survives. Your humanity dissipates and your left a hallow shell of who you once were." The thought had always interested her, she was strong enough to keep her shadows at bay, and was sane enough not to use them. She wiggled a bit excited, and a bit anxious. He was making a challenge, he was challenging her and it was like a game. A winner and a loser. She was sure she'd come out the winner, though time would only tell how she'd end up the winner. Scared, he said he was scared but would never show it. "You may not show it but I'll know it." She grinned, it pleased her that he feared the shadows to a point.
"My name is Shadow, though not in so many letters." Umbra the latin word meaning Shadow was her name. It was as close to a riddle as she could give. She wasn't much for riddles and the likes but it was fun at times. "With that sir, You should be on your way with your night time walk. The sun should be coming up soon anyway..."
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Posted: Tue Jan 04, 2011 2:53 pm
Kamau looks up at the sky and knows as well as the mare that the sun will be rising soon. He can bet she will leave before it rises so he thinks of something to say to her as a parting gift something she can think about in her mind. Something that may draw her to him in due time.
"If i fail i cant help that even though i do wish not to"
He knows now he has to act before she goes but he knows not what to say. He deep down only wishes they will meet again and upon her parting she may mention her name and then next time..show herself. He shivers now at what she says about the shadows
"I am scared of that..the fact i would be a shell of my former..i have admitted i am scared of the shadows but i would still brave them..."
He feels like she can see into him and know he is scared but he was determined to still show he was very brave in the face of danger. He had stayed here the whole time with one he could not see. He felt proud in a way but he was still missing his point.
"If you know it there is nothing i can do to hide it..I suppose i wont try anymore to hold back my true emotions if you can tell what i feel.."
He was willing to go all out for this shadow mare
"You have finally gave me part of what i seek..your name means shadow and with that i am content"
He knows the sun is about to start rising and makes his words quick
"I will continue to walk..but i shall hope to meet you again someday should fate have it..You must question yourself if what you think really is right..I hope someday you may feel what i am starting to feel..for you"
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