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Posted: Tue Feb 05, 2008 7:47 pm
The Triumvirate warship Adelphia hung high in orbit around a vast, dead planetoid of magnetic ore. It was a giant ship, almost the size of a space station, designed to be a mobile fortress that slung through space like a giant bulldozer destroying anything in its path. Battlements faced in all directions, vast hanger bays opening onto all sides. Little pinpricks of plasma-valved missile chambers glowed red across its silvery hull.
Inside, its corridors were white, its floors silver. Panels and lights lined the walls. The people who strode through the belly of the ship wore uniforms of sleek white and navy trimmed in silver, a perfect match to their surroundings.
In one corridor, a man in the Navy of a starfighter pilot was joined by the white uniform of a bridge officer. "Going home?" asked the officer.
Landor Niela knew the officer's identity by voice, but he looked up in respect. Charles Angheroff Aberdeen, ranked admiral, and captain of the warship Adelphia. "Yes, sir."
Charles looked only ahead as they walked, his hat tucked under his arm. He cut an imposing figure. Over six feet, hair white against his tanned skin, eyebrows and sideburns still black. He was not old, in his early forties, but possessed a bearing and regal air equal any man twenty years his senior. "I'll walk with you."
Even had it been a request, Landor would have obeyed. He scratched his hand and smiled shyly. "Yes, sir." It was an easy game to play, especially for Landor, who had been in the military for almost twenty years now, a touch longer than Charles's own career.
"Your shift go well?"
"Yes, sir. And yours?"
Charles nodded curtly, his first display of anything less than military rigor. "It was well. I'm looking forward to your garden. Are the blue flowers in bloom yet?"
"The hydrangea. Yes."
"I though the hydrangeas were the pink ones?"
There mere a great many things of which Charles Aberdeen was extremely knowledgeable. Horticulture was not one of them. He viewed Landor's garden as a new curiosity, a chance to enjoy a hobby vicariously since Charles himself did not have time for such things. Landor was happy to explain. "Last year, yes. The flower color is dependant upon the soil acidity. By adding aluminum sulfate or lime, it's possible to affect the color." They passed one of the Adelphia's many captains and Charles tipped his head to the captain's salute.
Then Charles asked, "And yourself?" It was a hard question, but one Charles always asked when they neared the transit station. Landor sighed, unable to answer.
They entered the transit station together, the door sliding closed behind them, and a moment later they were automatically deposited on their street. Charles was always kind enough to wait until they were here to continue the conversation. He waited for Landor's answer. "I'm well enough," said Landor at last, and Charles put a hand on his shoulder.
"I'm your neighbor first and foremost." When Charles said it, it meant more than the mere dictionary definition. Charles was one of the people who had formed the Neighborhood -- after he successfully negotiated the truce that ended the war, a truce he conceived of while spending six years in enemy prison -- and to Charles the Neighborhood meant more than the mere collection of allies and friends who lived there. Charles Aberdeen was a truly great man. Landor often wondered if his house being next to the celebrated admiral's was coincidence or part of some greater plan.
Landor smiled again, shy and sad. "I'll be fine." They parted ways, each man going to his own gate, and Landor waved to Charles from his doorway. Charles returned the gesture. Once inside, Landor could only again sigh and say the same thing he did every day. "Sorry, Charles."
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Posted: Sat Feb 16, 2008 5:03 am
Landor checked the cargo manifest against the boxes, confirming the contents of each on the scanner. Peacetime left little for the starfighter pilots to do but practice and transport. Landor liked the quiet certainty of the transport missions. It was a welcome break after the many years of war he had endured both before and after his joining the Triumvirate's navy. His copilot, Becky, was not similarly inclined. She was young and brash and full of youthful energy, preferring the chance to practice with the other pilots over running cargo to and from the Adelphia. Transport missions she tolerated because, like most under Landor's command, she liked Landor, and transport missions were her only chance to fly with him. Even if they were not engaged in battle, she always valued being able to learn firsthand from Landor's experience. He had a graceful style of piloting, she would say, always smiling when she said it. It was the earnest puppy love of a student for a teacher.
Today, though, she was disappointed. The week had not been to her liking. First the rotary cup on her fighter's air pump had blown, grounding Becky, then her hair had gotten gummed by a careless space jock and as a result her hairstyle was now five inches shorter on the right side. She had been woken up in the middle of the night by a fire drill and subsequently overslept for an inspection. Worse, her period had started two days early, ensuring that whatever today was, it was not going to be wholly pleasant. To top it all off she had a cargo mission and figured her beloved teacher was still disappointed in her for the earlier tardiness.
Landor was going to address all of this in as polite a manner possible, but when he saw the glum expression on Becky's face, he decided he might be able to put it off until later. "Say," he said, looking up from his digital clipboard, "You don't have to fly this mission, lieutenant."
Becky was immediately torn, not sure if this was a windfall or a punishment indicating Landor's disappointment. Landor smiled thinly. "Why don't you take my fighter out for today's training mission?"
Her eyes widened. "Sir?"
"If you could do me a favor and check the second aft engine power output while you're flying, they just replaced the main regulator this morning and I'd like to know if it's performing up to spec."
Becky swallowed and Landor had to smile inwardly at vastly uncertain potential of youth, so eager but lacking in the kind of confidence that came only with experience. "But you need a copilot. Sir."
It was technically true, according to regulations, but Landor was well-behaved enough to be able to bend a rule now and again when he felt it warranted. "I'll worry about it," he said.
Becky was still nervous, but she saluted sharply. "Sir! I will happily obey your command. Thank you, sir!"
"As you were, lieutenant," said Landor, and let his student flee for a bit of fun disguised as learning. He would check up on her happiness when he returned, but he expected to find her much improved. Closing the shuttle doors after her, he took a seat in the pilot's chair and filed his flight plan with command, noting the absence of a copilot due to reassignment. There was a time when such a rulebend would have incurred severe penalties, but that was years ago, when things had been more desperate. Nowadays even the stricted members of the military could relax. Landor eased the shuttle into gravitic hover and performed his preflight with the traffic communications officer. The signal for departure came: "Gateway intitalized."
"Target acquired," said Landor as the computer found the correct dimensional harmonic resonance. The whole of his flight plan was mapped out before him, a set of interdimensional jumps that would weave around through various checkpoints. Even after the war, there was a need for security.
"Have a good flight, Shuttle 77."
Had Landor been superstitious, he would have considered it an auspicious number. "Thank you, control." He eased the shuttle into jump mode and it leapt forward into the gate.
Though his course was transdimensional, in most regards the flight seemed like any other. The reason starships remained a standard mode of transportation across universes was that the vast majority of universes contained vast amounts of space. The vistas and background radiation might be subtly different from one universe to the next, but overall it was consistently empty. Spaceships were designed to travel through such vacuums. The ones used by the Triumvirate were additionally equipped with enough adaptable systems to hopefully save the craft in the event of encountering a universe that did not conform to the average. On this flight there would be no such surprises. Landor was travelling only through known, mapped Triumvirate universes, without even the threat of a single asteroid to contend with.
It was also a short trip. When travelling through multiple dimensions, the physical distance travelled was less important than the dimensional path taken. In some dimensions, Landor's shuttle existed for only a microsecond before shifting out.
The thing that made cargo missions take so much time was loading and unloading, double- and triple-checking inventories, and confirming the delivery had been correctly made. Landor carefully went through the motions at each stop.
The Triumvirate's territories were vast, and many of its more distant outposts could not be reached by direct transit and required shuttles to ferry goods. They had the technology necessary to automate the whole procedure, but automated systems could not adapt to unforeseen situations the way a pilot could, and at this juncture, the Triumvirate had far more qualified and experienced people than it knew what to do with. Keeping things manual gave those people something to do. Landor appreciated that. He had nothing else in his life. Friends, to be sure, and friends who very much needed him, but his family was years gone and dead and his entire culture decimated by the might of a single destructive weapon, the atomic bomb of his era. Only, the atomic bomb had not so completely destroyed the Japanese people the way the Ederan superweapon had eradicated Tinas from the starcharts. All Landor had left was his handful of friends, his gardening, and his work. Without work, the other two elements might not have sufficed to sustain him in this life.
Landor marked off the deliveries one by one on his databoard, recorded the authorizing signatures, and proceeded on his itinerary to the next stop. Becky would be flying circles in space now, thrilling at the weightlessness of it all. He had been young once, had felt that exhilaration at the wonder of piloting in space. Some days, he still felt it, and it brought a tear to his eye. Thank the stars the cockpits were only equipped with audio transmitters. If his pilots ever knew that their commander wept as he led them, they would have lost all respect for him. Spaceflight was both love and pain, and if Landor could have spent all the hours of all his days in the cradle of his starfighter, staring at eternity, he would. Even if it meant sacrificing the few people he loved and his garden. Space was somehow timeless, somehow comforting in its cold emptiness. There was a poetry there to be found nowhere else.
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Posted: Wed Feb 20, 2008 10:19 pm
His last stop of the day was a Gaia facility. Gaia was not a Triumvirate universe, but somehow one of the Three had gotten tangled up there, and as a result the Triumvirate maintained a few holdings. Technically, the Biotechnology Laboratory (which, had it been a Tinatian facility, would have had a much better name) was not in the Gaian universe. It was just so irrevocably attached that it was pure semantics to call it otherwise. Landor eased the shuttle down into the docking bay, ignored the flashing "NT Universe" warnings, and disengaged the hover. The shuttle sighed to the floor and threw up little clouds of dust. The docking bay at the Lab was not often used.
Landor was expected and was met by the Lab's director Dr. Akari and one of her underlings. "Doctor," Landor said in greeting. They knew each other from the war previous, though not spectacularly well. Akari had once offered to sleep with him, but he had declined. Since then, he rather thought she looked down on him.
Her voice, capable of such honeyed sweetness when she wanted, was cold and steely towards him. He did not think he had heard her offer anyone a kind word in nearly two years. Landor did not know her well enough to guess the reasons why. There was a time she could have been called inviting, but now the doors were closed.
"Commander," she said to him, took and reviewed the cargo manifesto. She had a lot of deliveries, some of them months overdue. Thankfully the static containers prevented any biological or organic compound spoilage. She brazenly marched into the shuttle and began to inventory everything there. Her underling followed.
Landor watched her from outside, hat in his arm, waiting for her to call him over or follow some semblance of procedure. When she emerged some minutes later she merely gave the databoard to her underling and informed him, "It will take us two hours to unload this. See everything gets put in the right place." Her tone implied that deliveries in the past had gotten misplaced, though it certainly could not have been any fault of the pilot's. She said to Landor, "We don't need you."
Landor struck his heels together and stood at attention. "As you wish, doctor." Dr. Akari paid him no attention and left the docking bay.
Landor looked at the lab assistant left standing with the databoard. The assistant shrugged. "There's an employee lounge down the hall to the right."
"Thank you," said Landor, mentally filing that as an authorization.
The lab was Earthlike in its design. Landor walked along the linoleum tiles, a design choice he had never fully understood. Tinatians preferred whole, unbroken building materials, and had excelled in advanced pouring techniques to create flawlessly complete floors with subtle gradients of color and translucent sheen. Their buildings rose in curving, artistic forms, corners rounded and smoothed to perfection. Here, the corners were all squared off, very Terran. One of the things Landor liked about the Adelphia was its seeming marriage of Terran and Tinatian aesthetics. His own home reflected that, in more natural tones.
It was a standard employee lounge. Basic kitchen appliances, vending machines. Landor helped himself to some green tea and took a seat at the table.
The lounge door opened. Landor looked up and found a familiar face. Shuuichi Kurata's surprise was plain, but not reflected in his perpetually calm voice. "Commander Niela."
"Shuuichi," greeted Landor, standing and offering Dr. Kurata his hand. Kurata was a scientist, a neurobiologist with specialties in things Landor could not even begin to define. He was also one of the calmest and most reserved members of the Triumvirate, steely in his resolve and silent in his anger.
"It has been too long," said Kurata.
"Since the war ended," agreed Landor.
Kurata helped himself to his own cup of tea. Tea had been the foundation of their acquaintance, a chance encounter in a busy tea shop some years ago when Landor was only newly-arrived in the Triumvirate. He and Kurata had similar demeanors and related to the people and events in the Triumvirate much the same way. It made for frequent conversations, before the war had ended and people had drifted apart into their own lives and stories. "What brings you to the Lab?"
"Delivery mission." Landor quickly unraveled the circumstances for Kurata: the usage of shuttles for peacetime deliveries, the specific delivery to the Lab, Dr. Akari's explicit instructions to not assist with the unloading.
Kurata listened quietly, sipped his tea. When Landor was finished, he placed the cup of tea down. "You might be more comfortable waiting in the garden."
This was typical of Kurata: listen carefully to others' problems and suggest beneficial alternatives. He was a capable administrator because of it, and while he was clearly not the head of the Lab, Landor did not doubt that Kurata's position was one of significance here, in addition to probably being highly classified. "There's a garden?" Kurata motioned for Landor to follow, out into the unmarked corridors past tightly-closed doors until they reached a front entrance filled with sunlight and Landor had to momentarily shield his eyes.
The courtyard was a fine size, beds of flowers surrounding a vast open grassy area. Rows of cabbages provided the focal point of the yard, and several chairs sat under a weeping shade tree beyond. It was quiet, sunny, with a faint fresh breeze. Drops of water clung to the flowers, the result of a recent misting. Landor took a deep breath. The one thing the Adelphia could never provide was the sweet scent of fresh air like this, tinged with the scent of flowers and plants.
Kurata touched Landor on the shoulder. "Someone will come to escort you when your ship is ready for departure."
"Thank you, Shuuichi."
Shuuichi merely waved the thanks away. "Call me." He returned to the building.
The flowers were small, decorative landscaping, not like the cultivated beauty of Landor's garden, but they were healthy and well-care for. Landor bent and examined the leaves and the flowers, admired the colors.
The noise of a child crying attracted Landor's attention. It was coming from several large, open windows on his right. Long white curtains shifted in the breeze. A woman appeared through the window, bent over, and lifted the crying child into her arms to comfort it. She noticed Landor through the window and smiled at him. She was rather pretty, soft golden curls of hair framing her round face, a happy smile. She waved her fingers at him, resting the child against her shoulder. Landor waved back and blushed slightly, He had not meant to spy. He returned his attention to the flowers.
Some minutes passed. A door opened. The girl he had seen through the window appeared, smiling. "Good day!" She wore a pretty blue and white striped dress and a white apron. Her headscarf reminded Landor of something he had seen in a historical Terran movie. Something like a nun's; Landor could not be more specific as he lacked knowledge of Earth history and culture.
"Good day," he answered. "I'm sorry for earlier."
"Oh?"
"I did not mean to intrude," Landor said sincerely.
She only laughed and waved her hand. "Oh, it's fine! I'm Ida." She stuck out her hand.
"Landor." They shook. "You work at the lab?"
Ida swished her long skirts. "No, I'm with the Sisterhood. I work at the Nursery."
"The Nursery?"
"I'll show you. Come on!" Ida took his hand and before he knew it Landor was following her inside.
He had not expected to find rows of cribs, twenty-one total, or children staring back at him, their faces wide with a mixture of fear, excitement, and curiosity. Those who were not sleeping, anyway.
"This is where the children from the cabbages come to wait for adoption," said Ida, as if she thought Landor was familiar with such things. She reached down and picked up a little girl with blonde hair not much different in shade from her own. "All these little ones, waiting to find homes!"
Landor always found the idea of orphanages depressing. Children with no families, no homes, no place to call their own. He was a fully-grown man, but in too many ways he was like them. His family and world had simply been taken from him later in life. He was saerchign for the same thgns they searched for, but for Landor, finding those things was an impossibility.
"Sister Ida," came a voice, and another woman in matching attire emerged from a door on the far side of the room.
"Sister Beatrice," said Ida smartly, and with just a hint of sauciness.
Beatrice eyed Landor with vague suspicion, but he was not paying his attention. His gaze had been caught by a child in one of the cribs, a little boy with his hands on the crib's railing. He was just tall enough to peer over, inky black eyes watching Landor from beneath a crop of shiny black hair. The boy's skin was patterned in black and white and there was a ruff of furry grey feathers beginning at his neck and running down the length of his arms. The tips of his pointy ears stuck out above the crib's railing. Landor waved his hand at the child, just as he had waved to Ida through the window. The little boy, with eyes so wide and so bright, smiled. Landor smiled back.
"I was just introducing Landor to the children," Ida said, tickling the chin of the little girl she held.
Beatrice was not amused. "Were you interested in adopting?" she required, quite ready to enforce the unwritten rule that existed in her mind stating only potential parents should be allowed into the Nursery.
Landor registered the question and his own answer surprised him. "Yes." After the initial moment of shock passed, he found it strangely inevitable. The little boy with the inky black eyes was still smiling at him.
"Ah," said Beatrice, a sure admission of defeat in her quest to pin some sort of infraction on Ida. The disappointment in her voice was totally lost on Landor, as was Ida's subsequent smug satisfaction at having outwitted Beatrice yet again. "Please inform me if you need anything." Beatrice moved into the back room again to continue her inventory.
Ida took the little girl she was holding and put her back in the crib. "That was good, Beatrice means well, but--"
"I'm sorry, could you excuse me a moment?" said Landor quickly. Ida was briefly stunned into silence by the interruption. No one interrupted her! (Which was the source of her little feud with Beatrice.)
"Sure," said Ida darkly, but Landor was already making his way back to the waiting room, looking back at the little boy as he did.
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Posted: Thu Feb 21, 2008 3:18 pm
"When I said you should call, I didn't think it would be quite so soon," Kurata deadpanned over the comm. Landor was standing with his shoulder wedged into the corner of the waiting area, shielding this conversation from the rest of the empty room.
"It's vaguely an emergency," said Landor.
"Oh?" Kurata leaned back in his office chair, in the same building but worlds away. He was one of the few scientists lucky and powerful enough to have an office that overlooked the courtyard, sunlight illuminating the tiny, cramped room. Dr. Akari's office was only a few doors down, provided you could walk through walls. Akari's department was adjacent but almost totally isolated from Kurata's. There were several such divided sections, each devoted to different veins of research. When it came to information, the walls were permeable, but for people it was a different matter. Security clearance was everything.
Landor thought quickly about how to explain this. "You've adopted," he said.
"I have." Kurata had two beautiful (if occasionally troublesome) daughters, one a former research subject and one a bona fide orphan. He was careful to keep his personal and work life distinctly separate. His colleagues all knew he had two adopted daughters, but very few knew the circumstances of either adoption, and fewer still had actually met the girls. The only proof they had were the photos on Kurata's desk. There were more photographs hidden in his wallet.
Kurata was not a stupid man in any sense of the word. He leaned forward in his chair and scanned the view out his office window. "You've left the courtyard, haven't you?"
"The Nursery," Landor admitted.
Kurata sighed heavily and removed his glasses, rubbing the bridge of his nose. "Alright. Walk outside into the yard where I can see you."
Landor quietly exited the waiting room, glancing around to make sure he wasn't seen. He hardly wanted Ida and Beatrice to think he had slipped out on them, but that was exactly what he was doing. He peered around the aesthetically displeasing square corner of the building into the courtyard.
"That's fine," said Kurata, opening the latches on his window and leaning out so Landor could see him. Given the disparity in their visions, Landor could see Kurata much more clearly than Kurata could see Landor. "Now, what's brought this on?"
Landor shrugged, something he had the luxury of since Kurata was watching him. "I don't know."
"Are you having a mid-life crisis?"
Another shrug. "I don't know. I don't think so."
"Do you have any idea what's involved in raising a child?"
"Indirectly." That was the sticking point, it would seem, but Landor had given it some thought already. "Did you, when you adopted Mina?"
Kurata went silent. Had this been strictly a phone conversation, the silence might have merited concern, but Landor could see Kurata quite clearly, thinking.
"No," admitted Kurata, glancing skyward for salvation. God forgive him for this, if God still listened to men's prayers. "I had to save her from that situation." Landor remembered something Kurata had admitted long ago, that he did not even like children prior to his daughters entering his life. Landor had no such bias against the young.
"If this were a mid-life crisis, would that be a bad thing?" asked Landor quietly.
Kurata had to don his glasses again to make out the distress on Landor's face across the courtyard. Landor was looking downward, at the freshly-watered soil, his forehead knotted with concern. Kurata gripped his cell phone tightly. "Not necessarily. Sometimes, that's what it takes. Niela, why did you call?"
"Do you think I would make a good father?"
Kurata put his elbows on the windowsill, weighed down by the responsibility being placed on his shoulders. He knew Landor's past, knew Landor had not seen his father or mother in almost twenty years, knew there was probably no one else Landor could ask that question to. He also knew that Landor was a chronic depressive who sometimes barely managed to pull his own life together and had not progressed professionally in almost as many years because he lacked the spark and drive that motivated most people. To call Landor unambitious was being kind. Kurata had eaten breakfast cereals with more personality than Landor usually expressed.
Perhaps most importantly, Kurata knew that Landor, when he was able to overcome his fear of potential loss, cared about people deeply. He cared about complete strangers and criminals. Had not his enemies intended harm to the people Landor cared about most, Kurata suspected Landor would have cared about them, too. Since the destruction of Tinas, Landor had distanced himself considerably from the rest of the world, but over the years Kurata had been able to observe the gradual healing of the war scars, and Kurata felt very privileged to have been a part of that. Kurata himself did not care for as many people or as deeply as Landor did. He was an a*****e compared to Landor. It had taken him years to develop any sort of compassion for the little girl who had been the subject of his experiments. He still had trouble giving a crap about other people's children and problems.
Landor was kind, gentle, and compassionate, three things Kurata had not been when he adopted Minako. Kurata had, in the end, turned out to be a good parent. He did not think it fair to deny Landor that opportunity when, by most standards, Landor was far more qualified than Kurata had been.
Hell, Kurata had adopted Naomi because he had wanted the sweet little orphan girl, six years Minako's senior, to take care of Minako. Jesus, he had been an a*****e back then. And Landor had always been good with the girls and the younger members of the Triumvirate in general. Maybe, somewhere deep inside, Landor had always wanted children and had given that dream up with the destruction of Tinas, not daring to rekindle that hope until today.
Landor was, in Kurata's estimation, damaged goods, but then, wasn't everybody?
"You'll be a fantastic father," Kurata said, impassioned. "Don't listen to anyone who questions if it's the right time in your life, including myself. There is no right time for children. There's only opportunity and choice. If you're capable of choosing to sacrifice your life for a child, you should."
In truth, Landor was not sure what he had expected Kurata to say, but he certainly had not expected an outburst of emotion. Kurata was staring across the courtyard with a fierceness usually hidden deep inside. It was a little frightening.
"It's up to you," Kurata concluded, snapping his cell phone shut and closing the window. Landor was alone with his decision.
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Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 9:38 pm
The paternity leave was easy. Preparing the spare room to be a nursery was easy. Requisitioning the supplies the average parent might need took about as much effort as ordering take-out, and the wait was shorter. Landor even knew exactly what he would need. He had helped Sylvia prepare for the arrival of her children and between the two of them they had developed a very meticulous checklist that Landor committed to memory.
Returning to the nursery at the lab was a bit more difficult. His hand shook when he filled out the final paperwork, even though as he was a Triumvirate citizen he barely had to write his name because all of his information was already a part of the system. It was the worst signature he had ever put to paper. He could not even recognize his own handwriting.
Seeing Grayson Healthcliff again, it all fell into place with the elegance of a trajectory equation. His life had been moving in one direction and based on the thrust and variables of local gravity sources and interstellar particles it had altered just so and he arrived at this moment in time.
Grayson smiled when he saw Landor again, because even though they had only met that one day previous, he had liked the quiet, gentle man a lot more than some of the other prospective parents who squealed and cooed. Not that there was anythign wrong with squealing and cooing, but Grayson had thought, the moment he set eyes on Landor, that this was the person who would be taking him home.
When they were outside the Nursery, Landor looked at the sky and the trees and the grass and felt the fraint breeze on his cheek and the weight of Grayson in his arm and his face flushed a little and he stammered slightly, but his sincerity was without question. "Grayson Heathcliff Niela, welcome to the world."
That was, Grayson felt, very appropriate, but even more so was what Landor said when they arrived at the little rounded cottage with its overflowing garden of pale purple and yellow flowers and cherry birdsong: "Welcome home."
It was just as if Grayson had been able to soar out the window of the Nursery and into the bright and sunny courtyard he had admired for so long. It was the equivalent of stepping into a storybook and finding everything just as pictured. He could scarcely contain himself. The minute they were inside, he wanted to see everything, touch everything, learn everything about this new place and this new man and this new world.
It was very late indeed when the excitement finally wore down and Grayson curled up beside Landor on the couch where Landor had been reading a story and closed his eyes, drifting off. Landor heard the faint cooing snores and put the storybook to the side. Reality was far more sweet.
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Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 10:12 pm
There were quite a few words in Grayson's vocabulary, but by far the most common was, "This?" Grayson wanted to know about everything, and while his memory was good, it was not perfect, and sometimes it took a few to get the more complicated words he demanded from Landor. It was, Landor admitted, exhausting, so much so that it was generally Landor who wanted to go to bed first, especially if Grayson spent the afternoon napping.
Landor had taken the time to childproof everything in the house, but he still worried at leaving Grayson alone for even a minute. Grayson understood the reasons the first time he pulled on something on a table and ended up with a pile of objects falling on top of him. He tried to explain to Landor that he was okay, none of the objects had hurt him seriously, but Landor looked so upset Grayson tried after that to be more careful when he touched or climbed on things, especially indoors.
He soon discovered that Landor's biggest fears involved falling objects; little scuffs and cuts sustained playing in the yard were more realistically dealt with. Landor was happy to teach Grayson how to help with the gardening. He even let Grayson plant a little plot of seeds. Grayson watered the plot each day and waited for the plants to grow as Landor promised.
By most standards, Landor did not live in a large house, but for a single adult and a child the size was just perfect. Between Landor's things and Grayson's toys, there was just enough to fill every space and then a wee bit extra: filled to the brim and a smidgen overflowing. The house was cozy, filled with flowers and sunlight and the wafting smells of garden soup. Grayson's favorites were the carrots. The garden was positively picturesque. Just like the house, the plants were all very slightly grown outside the limits of precision, keeping a casual and organic atmosphere. This was a garden landscaped by nature and nurtured by Landor, not an artificially laid out construction.
If Grayson could have complained about one thing, it was the peace and quiet. He was allowed to make as much noise as he wanted when he played alone or with Landor (and did), but Landor was always quiet. Even when Grayson pulled the pile of things off the table, Landor's shout was alarmed but not intense. Even when angry, Landor did not raise his voice above speaking level. It was a little jarring after the noisiness of the nursery. Grayson missed the noise a little. Sure, there had been crying and shouting and plenty of noises that weren't happy, but all in all the nursery had felt very social, something Landor's house could not claim to be.
One thing was for certain: had it not been for Grayson, Landor's life would have been almost entirely quiet. As much as he missed the people and the noise of the nursery, Grayson was quite sure that he was doing something more important by being here to bring noise to Landor's life.
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Posted: Thu Mar 27, 2008 11:06 pm
Landor's life was quiet, but that did not mean he was lacking for friends, and while Landor's house was not a hotspot of activity, within the first few weeks Grayson had met almost everyone.
There was Charles, their neighbor to the right, who came to check on Landor almost immediately. Grayson was immediately impressed by how tall and regal Charles seemed to be. Towering above even Landor at six feet and two inches, Charles looked like a giant to Grayson. He had thick grey hair but dark eyebrows. Not only was Charles tall, but he was broad-shouldered and strong, too. When Landor needed to extract the wheelbarrow from under a load of bricks, it was Charles who helped and made it look easy.
Everyone who looked at Charles did so with awe and admiration. There was something so compelling and charismatic about Charles that made him seem like a hero. It was more than the obvious traits of honor and dignity. There was a tragedy about Charles, too, like something had elevated him above the rest of humanity, something great and terrible at the same time. From it, Charles had developed the ability to see the world as it truly was, devoid of the pettiness that clouded others.
Grayson did not have words to describe all of this, but at the same time, he understood, because it was impossible not to look at Charles and feel anything less than awe. Landor, too, admired Charles, but with a deeper fervency than Grayson at his young age could muster. The remarkable thing was that, as much as Landor and Grayson and everyone else in the neighborhood looked at Charles with admiration, Charles took an interest in Landor. It was clear from the first moment Charles stepped into the house that he wanted to verify Landor's well-being. Meeting Grayson was a secondary objective, and once Charles had introduced himself and come away with the impression that Landor was in good condition, he had left. He returned again often, hanceforth to check up on Landor and Grayson both. Grayson perceived that Charles was kind enough, but whatever set him apart from the rest of the world prevented Charles from truly being friends with Grayson. He was more like a guardian and protector who was comfortable joining them at the dinner table.
Then there was Tarquinia D'Ardea, someone Grayson immediately liked. Charles was like a towering behemoth of unattainability, but Tarquinia was approachable from the first second Grayson saw her. She was a true rebel at heart. With a conspiratorial smile and a patient, friendly nature, she was someone to whom Grayson could actually talk. She always listened, too, with an attentiveness and respect not found in most adults who converse with small children. She and her girlfriend, (EmforgothernameXD), lived on the other side of Charles' house. She liked Landor, that much was obvious, but it was just as easy for her to like people as it was for people to like her, and she seemed to respect Landor's privacy and not push her friendship on him. Grayson was a different matter, since they got along instantly, and any time Tarquinia saw Grayson playing in the yard she would come to the fence to chat with him. Every so often Landor, who was always within earshot, would even contribute something to the conversation. With her short cropped navy hair and boyish looks, she was not typically pretty, but Grayson figured out rather quickly she was awesome in style, and that was better than mere good looks.
Grayson had not yet fully decided what to make of Apollonius Linderham, who lived to the left. Lindsey, as he was called by everyone, worried a bit too much about propriety and what other people might think. He did things because they were expected of him. That included talking to his neighbor Landor on occasion, or saying hello to Grayson, but not much more. Polite, but simultaneously impolite, because in some sense Lindsey wasn't interested in anything more than mere acquaintance with his neighbors. He seemed to work a lot, and at least every other conversation was about his duties. Grayson got the impression work was very, very important to Lindsey, to the exclusion of people. Grayson found that a little pitiful.
The house across from them had seemed at first to be empty, until one day, it wasn't, and Marvin Fulkirk entered Grayson's life. He was charming, quick-witted, and, he explained when Grayson asked about his seemingly late appearance, he worked for long stretches and then took breaks for equally long stretches. "When you haven't got anyone depending on you," said Marvin, "you can live by that sort of a schedule." He said it with a knowing wink at Landor, and for his charming humor, Grayson liked Marvin a lot. He was further convinced of his opinion when it became clear Marvin and Tarquinia also got along. Marvin was a little distant, not seeming to want to get too attached to anyone, including Grayson, but unlike Lindsey, Marvin liked to interact with people for the pleasure of it, and was more than happy to answer Grayson's questions about the world. He did not always know the answers, but Marvin was happy to listen and even laugh at his own shortcomings when there were questions he could not answer.
And then Sylvia. Grayson only knew her from photographs in Landor's house and from overhearing Landor's half of conversations on the comm, but he thought he could almost feel Sylvia's presence in the house. There was something more to Sylvia. She was important to Landor, probably the most important person aside from Grayson, but Grayson did not know her. It seemed odd, to be two such important people to Landor and never meet. Landor did invite her over, but she always declined, and when Grayson asked about Sylvia, Landor would only say, "She's busy with her own life," and change the subject. Grayson quietly wondered why.
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Posted: Sun Apr 13, 2008 12:33 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 13, 2008 1:14 am
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Posted: Sun Apr 13, 2008 1:25 am
Landor had wisely decided to approach daycare and the Liberty Center in a gradual fashion, beginning with at first a mere hour, but his wise caution was unnecessary. Grayson immediately loved it there. Playing with Landor and Tarquinia was fun, but what Grayson liked was people, lots of people, and was not concerned by either the crowd of children or the distance from Landor thanks to his time in the Nursery. He took the change easily, though when he stubbed his flippered foot on the third day of daycare, he immediately wished for the attention of his father and had to settle for the comparatively inadequate ministrations of the attendant. The daycare workers were all nice enough, but there was no questioning that in Grayson's mind, Landor was preferable to all of them.
In truth, Landor took the daycare center harder. He had to force himself to leave Grayson there, out of sight and under the strongest reassurances of the daycare workers (who were used to parents having a harder time than their children), and go find something else to do with his time. Outside of gardening, there was precious little, and the first few days Landor couldn't even find comfort in the garden because his stomach was in knots. He had, that first moment in the Nursery, let the little monochrome boy into his heart, and he had trouble letting go even for a few hours. Grayson might be hurt, might not get along with the other children, might eat something he was unknowingly allergic to. But on the third day when Grayson told his fa that he hat stubbed his toe, it made Landor feel better. See, he thought to himself, Grayson did get hurt as all children eventually do, and it was all right. Landor was much more confident after that, though he still had a hard time finding things to do in the temporary absence of his job.
That time was coming to an end. Landor had gotten his paternity leave, but it was not forever, and since he had worked out all the details of Grayson's care, he would be able to return to work as scheduled. His time would never be the same, of course. He was no long part of the weeks-on, weeks-off schedule he had previously shared with the likes of Marvin Fulkirk. Now he was going to a daily schedule, relinquishing his bunk onboard the Adelphia, returning each night to home and to Grayson.
"Fa," said Grayson on the Thursday before the new work week, "what's wrong?"
Landor, who had not realized he had gone silent for so long, blinked out of his stupor. "Nothing, sif."
Grayson tilted his head to the side, black eyes like the little dots of question marks. He had gotten a fairly good read on Landor at the moment of their meeting, and now, weeks later, his understanding of Landor's psyche was nearly complete. He had figured out a good deal of it on his own, and learned just as much from observing the behaviors of Tarquinia and Charles Aberdeen when they were around Landor. They had much more experience in relationships than Grayson and were both acute observers of human nature. In mimicking their responses to Landor's moods and behavior, Grayson had managed to adopt the same sort of role as confidant. In this regard, and only this regard, he was Landor's superior. Landor, who was so locked up in himself and his grief, had more difficulty in relating to people.
This was one of those times when Landor could not seem to find the words he needed to convey his inner workings to his son and he shrugged it away.
Grayson was not so easily dissuaded. He left the plastic building blocks he had been playing with on the floor and touched Landor on the hand. Landor smiled softly and pulled Grayson onto his lap, sighing into Grayson's hair. He found the scent of his son's clean hair as soothing as the flowers in his garden, and more rewarding. "I'm going to have to go away," he admitted finally.
"But you come back?"
Landor half-nodded. "Every evening. And you'll play at the daycare when I'm gone."
"I like daycare," agreed Grayson.
Landor thought, If you didn't enjoy it, I couldn't leave you there, and I'd quit work altogether.
In quick realization that Landor might misinterpret his meaning, Grayson reassured, "but I like to be with fa best."
Landor's smile, for the first time in a long while, actually broadened honestly and verged on joy, but Grayson, sitting on his father's lap, could not see it. Said Landor, "I love you best, too." And he meant it more than anything before in his life, more than his desire to undertake flight training, more than even his desire to see his planet and his people restored by some miracle. Landor's dream of flying had been one of his childhood, an immature wish without deeper meaning. The dream of the restoration of his people and his planet had been in response to his anguish, an exercise in futility with which he could only punish himself. The dream of fatherhood was his first dream of maturity, a dream of seeing everything he had been and now was live on into a new generation, a dream of sharing his life with someone who actually meant something, a dream of overcoming the fear and the pain and the sadness that had so long consumed him. It was a dream of hope.
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Posted: Sun Apr 13, 2008 3:44 am
On the last Sunday, Shuuichi Kurata and his daughters came for dinner instead of Charles Aberdeen. It was the first time Shuuichi had seen Landor's house and garden and he was quietly impressed with how well Landor had held together in the wake of the Conference that had granted Landor this property. He was even more impressed with the kind, calm little boy Landor had adopted.
"Hiii," Grayson sang characteristically when he opened the front door. Shuuichi's daughters reacted in opposite fashions. The elder, Naomi, reacted with shy surprise, but a moment later her social graces kicked in and she bowed and said, "Hajimemashite!" The younger, Minako, was not shy in the slightest, but grabbed hold of her father with jealous possessiveness and glowered as if to say this was her father and no intrusions were welcome. Grayson only smiled back, and when Shuuichi prompted, Minako repeated Naomi's foreign greeting in darkly reluctant tones. Naomi was dressed quite plainly but Minako's dress could have been a wedding cake with all its ribbons.
Landor hastened them inside and Grayson watched curiously as the visitors removed their shoes and stepped into house slippers Landor had thoughtfully provided. Grayson himself wore no shoes, since shoes were not much suited to his feet, though he did own a pair of sandals made specially for him that he wore whenever he and Landor would be going somewhere with concrete.
The introductions were passed around and Minako, who was a handful of years older than Grayson and not much larger, found her way to a corner with a storybook and Shuuichi gently deterred Grayson from trying to interact with the sullen child. "Ace, why don't you and Mina set the table?" Landor said, and Grayson was just as charmed to go spend time with the elder Naomi, though he kept Minako in the back of his mind.
Dinner was something thoroughly new to Grayson, but from the very start it became Grayson's favorite thing ever. Sashimi and sushi, Shuuichi called it, a delicacy of his homeland. Landor seemed to enjoy it, too, but Grayson had to smack his lips at the smell of the fresh fish and slurped down pieces with such enthusiasm Landor went bug-eyed with worry and said, "Grayson, chew your food!" Naomi giggled at Grayson's enthusiasm and perhaps, if Grayson's skin had been more revealing, he might have been found to be blushing.
Naomi was a very attentive and kind companion, much as Grayson himself was, and under her careful supervision (and within arm's reach of Shuuichi) Grayson finally did manage to play with Minako after dinner. The rules were easy enough to figure out. Do exactly what Minako wanted, and if you wanted to propose something different, make it so it seemed like Minako had thought it up.
Grayson got the impression Minako was not a very nice person and felt bad for her, wondering why that was, but unlike Landor, Minako's pain was tightly walled up. It would be a long process to find that pain and take it out. Thankfully her sister and father were very patient with her, even if Shuuichi was only patient because Naomi did most of the direct interaction.
When they visited Grayson's room, Minako seized upon one of Grayson's plushies, a furry brown dog, and would not let it go. Naomi was distressed by her sister's behavior and tried to intervene. "You can have it," said Grayson, smiling at Minako and Naomi both.
"But it's yours," protested Naomi.
"That's okay! I have more."
"I want all your toys," glowered Minako.
"You can carry them in my wagon," offered Grayson, and for some reason this disgusted Minako so much she threw the dog plush at him. Later, when they were preparing to leave, Naomi said: "That was very nice of you, Grayson," but when she said his name it was gu-ray-son. Grayson suddenly straightened in surprise and ran back to his room, returning with the plush in hand.
"Here, you forgot this," he said to Minako, having a feeling that Minako had wanted the toy because she really did like it.
"That's not ours," said Shuuichi.
"It's a gift!" Grayson beamed happily up at Shuuichi. Shuuichi looked genuinely surprised that anyone had liked Minako enough to give her a gift. Grayson, he decided, was a very, very special boy, and it was a crying shame that had Grayson been one of Shuuichi's research subjects, Shuuichi would not have rescued the boy. Shuuichi had adopted his two daughters partly because they had been so thoroughly damaged. This was also the reason Shuuichi had befriended Landor. Where Landor was concerned, Grayson was perfect.
"Say thank-you," Shuuichi instructed his glaring daughter. Minako did not immediately comply with the order.
"It's okay," said Grayson, "you already said thank-you."
That, in the end, was even kinder gift than the act of giving the toy had been, and Minako left quietly wide-eyed at this unusual generosity. The little brown dog became her favorite of all her animals, for when she hugged Puru-san, it felt a little more special than when she hugged any of her other stuffed animals. It was the lingering feeling of that moment when someone, a virtual stranger, had done something so nice for her for no reason without expecting anything in return.
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Posted: Wed May 28, 2008 11:10 am
Landor almost took a day off for Grayson's first day of real school, but he would have only spent the whole day worrying, so he forced himself to go. Dropping Grayson off that morning was nerve-wracking enough. It's no different than daycare, Landor told himself, but he was not a convincing orator even in his own mind. As Grayson walked off, backpack over his shoulder, Landor imagined all the terrible things that might happen. There might be bullies, other students might make fun of Grayson's appearance, Grayson might have trouble with the schoolwork... It was just level one, which mostly amounted to learning games and introductory assignments, but still. What if Grayson lost his notebook or his pencils or his planner? It took all of Landor's strength to wave back at Grayson as Grayson disappeared into the building, excited to begin his first day of school.
Onboard the Adelphia, Landor threw himself into his work to avoid thinking about all the worst-case scenarios. He blocked out everything but the tasks in front of him: the technical displays and readouts, the deployment rosters, and training schedules and supply forms. He checked everything twice. His coworkers tried to get him to lighten up at first, but by midday they gave up and accepted his intent focus and lack of humor for the day.
Finally, mercifully, it was over. Landor had never left work so fast, not waiting for Charles to join him on the way to the transporter. He arrived a good fifteen minutes early and had to wait for the final bell to ring. The children came pouring out and he fretfully looked around for Grayson. What if he had gotten detention on his very first day? Grayson was a terrifically sweet boy, but he could sometimes be a bit careless and didn't always think his actions through.
And then he saw Grayson, walking with three other little boys, smiling and happy and totally unharmed. Grayson saw Landor, too, waved good-bye to the other boys and ran over to his fa, hugging him in greeting (even if that wasn't "cool"). "Hi, fa!"
Landor just smiled quietly, relieved. Grayson took his father's hand. "How was your day?" Typical of Grayson to ask.
"Fine, and yours?"
That was what Grayson had been waiting for. He bubbled with enthusiasm as they walked out. "I had a lotta fun! I got to meet all the teachers and they were really nice, especially the science teacher, and we got to learn about water and how it goes in a big cycle! I got a homework to do for that. We had P.E. and played kickball. It's like football 'cause you kick the ball, but the ball is a red one and there are rules like bases. I kicked the ball and it went REALLY far! I can't wait to tell Kitty and Marcus! We have to learn about vocap... vocapillary words, too. Do we have a dizzyonary?"
Grayson could not help but to smile and squeeze Landor's hand, practically skipping along beside his father. He was happy to be able to tell the truth about his day to Landor. If the day had gone badly he probably would have tried to lie, and Grayson was a terrible liar. He could only imagine how much Landor must have been worrying all day long, and just as Grayson had thought, all the worry was for nothing. School was even more wonderful than daycare.
The next day, it was easier, for Landor remembered the excitement of that first day. When he thought of Grayson during work, he had every expectation that right at that moment, his son was at school having fun.
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Posted: Thu Nov 27, 2008 2:01 am
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Posted: Tue May 26, 2009 2:15 am
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