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Happy New Year! It was wrong this year because I'm in the wrong time zone. New Year in Central Time Zone doesn't work when you are in Eastern time the rest of the year.

Happy New Year and good riddance with the old.

I'm not really sure what to say, except that I'm beyond busy most of the time now. School's done for another two weeks, but most of my friends have gone back to school. My boy and I split about two months ago, but we still see one another often and remain close friends. I miss my college friends, but not college. I can't write for fear of not stopping.

Grandpa died. Finally. I'm with Lion on this one: a man shouldn't die on his back. He had cancer for a long time. He was suffering. In all probability, he's not now. Plans to Ohio were canceled on account of the funeral. Dad flew down.

I made most of the calls. I wrote the eulogy. I delivered it. I almost wish I hadn't done so well, if people wouldn't have congratulated me on giving a speech.

Death, I can handle. Life, not so much.

I'm on edge. Mostly, it's cabin fever and writer's itch. The other parts number temporary insanity, family breakdowns, ******** up holidays, boy issues, a short fuse, and the trouble of being a dependent eighteen-year-old.

So how do I feel? Relieved. Tired. Bitchy. A little depressed. Hurt. Caged. Glad. In turmoil. Coldly peaceful.

In case you were wondering--

L + V,
~Andrew

School was supposed to start for me today, but I got sick instead. I would have rather gone to school.

This new year is getting off to a great start...

LD,
Dying is one of the easy parts of life, Living is on the other hand one of the most difficult things to do.

Take it slow, ease it in if you have to. My grandpa passed away when I was in high school, needless to say, my grandma worked in the lunch room, and was my ride home from school, she wasn't there, i kinda panicked. Then one of the lunch ladies, even though they were told not to tell me was all, "You didn't know, your grandma found your grandpa this morning dead." My heart sank, instantly I went into the office and called my mom, she wasn't in the mood to talk about it, but my brother drove to the school and they checked me out. Learning that one of your family members died from someone that isn't a family member, and that blunt, kills.

That was my mom's side. My grandma on my dad's side passed away as well. She was in pain, and needed to be cared for, so it was easier to let go. The only thing was I had something going on or whatever. The rest of my family went down and I was riding down with my brother who drives semi to get down. We missed saying goodbye by only a few minutes. And now my grandpa isn't doing well now either and refuses to be put in a hospital. I doubt that we'd be lucky if he lasted through this year.

*Edit: and Muse... like I said, you're pretty without makeup... hair is a little goofy, but we'll still love ya... *glomps*

Thanks, and Sha, that sounds rough. Sorry you had to find out like that.

But that's not exactly what I meant about life and death. I meant dealing with life and death.

No, LughsMondKind (I'll find a way to shorten your name yet!), I can't. Last semester my writing impulses led me to falter in my studies. I can't afford mistakes. I'll write when it's necessary, and not until then.

I know you're right, but I won't accept that as a final answer. There must be another way.

EDIT: How heartless of me! I'm sorry about your grandpa. My gram is trying to sell my house. Its...not easy, and you're right, the economy isn't doing any good.

Still being in High School isn't fun, we have school, but we got a snow day today 3in of snow now freezing rain. Maybe I'll be able to work on one of my stories or finish that dragonfly picture. I've had to but that off for over a week. gonk Being half in college, half in high school, and half who knows where doesn't help to get anything done.

Yes i think we all need to work on writing, it's been a while for me. though I've been toying with concept i have, also making it an Roleplay Ow... i hate waking up with a headache... ruins the whole day.