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 Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 8:20 am
Nich smiled, he held her close as he said "I meant hurt yourself maddy."
He sighed as she explained to him what she felt, and he knew all too well when your thoughts werent your own. It was like he was a back-seat driver, he had input on what they did... but not conrtrol.
"Maddy... you dont have to worry about that... besides remember when i said im a physicist? well... Ive researched ghosts too. I know it seems odd that an atheist physicist beleives in ghosts too, but Ive got a few theory's... and who knows, maybe i could help you out. You ever heard of natural frequencies?"
Nich thtought to himself for a moment, and then his face looked afraid for a moment... mildly so. He sighhed. he was doing it again, teaching people about thingsa they didnt care about, this girl would get bored eventually.
"On second thought never mind."
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 8:24 am
Reskar was still haveing a hard time seeing her, but he could now hear her as clearly as he could hear himself, "Now why would you want to watch me rot in here? I have tryed to be kind to you even though most would have probably been scared stupid by the sight of you. And aside from the fact that I will not just rot, there is enough food and water stored here to last 10 lifetimes." He leaned against a shelf and pulled a bottled tea from the pallet next to him, "As well as things to keep warm and clothing to change into, it may get a little unsanitary after a while, but there will be no bugs, after all, if they can get in, I can get out."
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 8:37 am
"I don't need your help,""I love having you around, well not entierly yet, you could become a pain in the a**...But it's not entierly easy to say, well, I have a boyfrined, why need to hurt myself anymore..I'd be come dependant on the pain, and I can honestly say that..The whole point was, I'd been like this all my life right? So why stop now, it just got to hard...You can imagen how many times I've laid in my own blood passed out on the ground, and how many times I've awakend an hour later, feeling all disoriented, and you can imagen how many times I've tossed anything i could use against myself into the trash. The thing is, I've become so dependant...I don't even want to try stopping myself," she addmited camly.
Her eye's closed, she tried hard not to hiss at him, clentching her teeth, her jaw followed. "I don't need help with it Nich...It's intresting that you know all this, yes....But I don't need help with it...I'm fine..." she said as she opend her eye's, the colour had changed to an empty black. "I don't know what that is...I care to know, yes, but I just don't want to talk about this right now...This isn't hard to talk about...But I just don't feel the need to need help...I'd love your help, with other things...Not with trying to tune it out...The emptyness is my own sanctum," she whispered as her jaw losend. She said it in a sickly sweet way, that made you want to crawl inside her flesh and feel her emptyness...
"No, you can tell me, some other time though, hopefully." "I'm smart enough to figure it out on my own..." "You're smile isn't making this,"She smiled widely, she leaned infront of him with a small smirk. "Aren't you Mr. Smarty pants?" she asked as she took the tea away from him. "Now, I wouldn't say that...Most of it's rotted to...This is the place for rotting, dying, sucide, and possibly murdur." she cooed in his ear as her chin rested on his shoulder. Wanting him to bend to her will like everyone else that had been here. "any easier."
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 8:47 am
He rased his eyebrow at her ability to take the tea, "Still, I could live here happily for a while, after all, that has no rust on the cap and it is bottled in glass, not going to rot for eons, but enough about me trying to reason with you." He smiled as he tryed to touch her cheek and his hand met no resistance, only a cold spot of air, "I can't help but ask myself, how do I persuade a ghost? I doubt that bribery would work, seduction is imposible,even if I was good at it, and intimidation seems the least posibe of all, so tell me, what did you have in mind? Oh and if you don't mind telling I would like to know how you ended up here."
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 3:11 pm
Nich looked at her seriously... he knew right then how shefelt about this, and he wished he hadnt puched the subject.
She coveted her pain, because out of her life, which had been raped and left in a gutter, this was the one thing left that wasnt violated, her final pure secret, and she had told him. He felt terrible, and he sighed. He hadnt done the right thing then... and he doubted he would generally. This was what happened when people got close, he cared the same as when he first met them but they cared more, so he couldnt act the same, but he was such a big jerk that it didnt matter....
"Im sorry maddy... you know... i just..." He had nothing to say.
He got up and left He put his hand through the old wall once he was in the hallway, and he made his way out of the hall. He found himself in a borken washroom. He looked in the mirror, and he was smiling.
He wasnt smiling... he was. He knew what it meant he hadnt even noticed... this girlhad rocked him to the core so herd, that both of him was feeling it, and he was laughing at himself. He heard it then, the cold chuckle and he looked down at his shakingahnd and closed it into a fist.
He took a miserable piss, and washed up a bit. He didnt know where his place was when he looked back at his toothy grin, but he knew it wasnt in that girls arms. She deserved better.
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 6:17 pm
"You only thing of your ******** self!"Maddy stared at him. "It's fi-" he was gone before she could say anymore, she hugged her knees to her chest. "Just because you think it's hard to walk away, dosen't mean it's any easier sitting back and watching you leave.." she sang quietly as the tears slowly ran down her pale and faded cheeks. She closed her eye's shut tightly as she sobbed into her knees.
She felt like a toy, when things got worse, and the toy broke, it was pushed aside and left alone for the rest of it's day's. She slowly got up, she wanted out of here now, not because she didn't desier to see the ghost, but because she NEVER EVER wanted to see Nich again. He said he was a hero, some ******** god damn hero, all he did was break the already damaged goods.
She whiped the tears off her face, heading towards the bathroom to look at herself, maybe get angry enough to go and try and die in this place. She noticed Nich, glaring at him through the mirror in which she could see his face. "Some hero." she muttered as she turned around and headed towards the door. Getting a bit of a running start, she ran at it, slamming into it several times. "URGHH ********!" she shouted as she slid down to the ground. "You don't even understand how much that hurt!" "Sweet dreams,"She smiled a bit, making herself go solid, like a human almost, she took his hand and gentlly pressed it to her cheek. "Now, let's see what you can do for me..What you'd be willing to do...And maybe if you do it well, I'll throw in a little bounus for you.." she said with a sickly sweet smile as she pulled his hand off her face and looked him over. "Are made of these."
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 6:34 pm
Nich's heart ached then as he saw her face in the mirror, and he hated it. He hated the froxen hole on his insides, he hated it beacause he cared about her too much. He cared too much to let her go.
He ran down the halls to where her anguish stemmed, and his feet faltered. His bones had gotten weak, and now all of a sudden when he needed to remain solid he tripped down the stairs. This was an old buddhist trick too. If you meditated enough, your mood could affect your body, and his deppression had made him weak.
He pushed himself to his feet and approached the crumpled heap of beauty that he needed to protect.
"Maddy... I know you probably dont want to listen to me, but Im no reason to go hurting yourself..."
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 6:40 pm
She watched him tumble down the stairs, she felt instantly horrible. If she hadn't run, he wouldn't have chased her. She got slowly up, walking over to him she grabbed his wrist roughly. Dragging him towards the stairs she sat him down. "Sit still.." she demanded as she looked him over. "You shouldn't be walking..Your ankles only going to get worse."
She decided to ignore what he said, but it erked him that he thought she was planning on giving in because of him. "Don't act so mighty...I'm not going to hurt myself over you...Currently..All I want is to hate you half as much as I hate myself." she game in a hard look.
Her insides ahced as she saw the blood comming out of the wond again. She sighed and shook her head, she wasn't good with ruthlussness. She bent down and took his foot, wrapping it softly again. Not wanting to get him injured furthur. "And no, I really don't....You didn't even let me say anything..You just walked out..Even if you were just heading away from me...Clearly it hurts to be walked out on.." she hissed quietly under her breath as she wrapped his ankle and what she had tried to wrap it in earlier. "Now go back donwstairs to the bed, and go sleep, rest would be better for your ankle."
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 6:49 pm
Nich sighed... she was too perfect. He aloowed himselfa nice moment of imagination at their future. Him to take care of her mentally, her to take care of him physically. He could see her growing happier, and learning to be happy, he could see then sitting on a beach and just relaxing. He knew there werent any beaches around, he'd grown up in a port town, and maybe it was part of his fantasy to take her back there in the summer... whatever the case was, he knew it couldnt happen.
"Maddy... I care about you too much to be selfish about this, yo u deserve someone better, and mr. right isnt gonna pop up if your still clinging to some broken excuse for a boyfreind like me. I knw youll want to protest, but ... I want to be there for you, but I dont think its right for you to have to be there for me."
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 6:59 pm
She looked at him, she didn't want him to think like that. "Nich, you talk way to ******** much...I don't car eif you think you're not 'Mr.Right' you can be my faviroute 'Mr.Wrong' there isn't such a thing as Mr. Right." she paused as she sat next to him, turning his head to face her. "All those 'Mr.Rights, are the peppy, morons, who aren't geniues, and who aren't broken, and aren't extreamly firnedly." She held his face in her hands, holding his gaze..
"What if I like broken guy's, almost perffered them," she whispered as she gave him a soft peck on the forhead. Craning her neck she gave him another one on the skin on his chest above his rubs, and muscle tissue which would hold his heart. "I want to be there for you...And nothings going to stop me from doing so." she muttered as she let him go. "Unless of course you don't want to be with me.."
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 7:11 pm
Nich sighed... she knew whatshe wanted, but as psychic as she was, she couldnt tell the future... he could. Not in the regular way, his mind was just intensely logical, and the natural progression of events had Maddy as sad... but he wasnt even sure.
The problem he knew that existed between them, was he needed to help her, and she didnt always feel like she needed help. He knew he couldnt change...
"Maddy... I... I dont beleive you..."
He sighed as he wrapped an arm around her back. It reminded him how small she was, and he sighed even more.
"I dont suppose i have a choice though do I?"
Nich grinned his regular lop-sided grin, and hugged her close as he felt warmth radiae off his skin. Not the heat of madness, but warmth, because he was contented inside.
"Promise me something though. When next i storm from a room, because it will happen quite a bit knowing me... dont ever think that means i care about you any less... that will never be the case."
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 7:21 pm
She looked at him, softly as she stared down. "I don't think I can prove it to you anymore then I am right now that i love broken boy's.. I'm dating a slightly broken boy, and do I look like I want to let go, no." she said as she snaked her long and thin arms around his neck. THey fit around well. She may have been small, but the length of her arms was extordinarily long.
"Well...You do... But I'd rather you just pick what we both know you want." she said softly as she smiled at him. Holding him tightly to her as she cuddled into his body. Her cold body slowly warming up as it pratcially melted into his.
SHe leaned up and rested her forhead on his. "Now see, I can't promise you I wont think that...I've thought that all my life...But you know..I'll probably just end up following you." She addmited as she curled up slightly. "Let's get you someplace to rest your ankle. Come on." she said as she got off of him and extended her hand to help him up.
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 7:36 pm
Nich Looked to her hand almost like a symbol of how far she would go for him. She actually thought she could help him up... If he leant on her, theyd probably both tumble down the stairs.
He stood on his own and made a point not to wince at the pain in his foot. It must be more severe than he thought, because his general scrapes all felt fine.
"He pulled her close, almost violently and kissed her with as much passion as he could muster.
"Ill be fine Maddy... but thanks."
He walked her back to the room with thelone bed and lay back on it. he was more conteted now, but as she stood before him, he couldnt help but feel jubilian. She was beautiful, and she cared about him, and she was his. he love dthat thoguh, and he thought... that he loved her. He didnt feel the need to say it, there was too much social taboo tied to the word, but he knew he felt it, and he was just fine revellingin that.
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Posted: Sat Jun 13, 2009 9:02 pm
He slowly took his hand from her and looked at it carefully, "You are really cold... All right ghost girl, what is it that you want me to do?" He rubbed his hands together to warm them up.
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Posted: Sun Jun 14, 2009 6:34 am
She stared at him, watching him rise without her help. She kind of saw him stepping on his toe so as not to use his ankle as much. She shook her head slightly as she watched him. He seemed to have wanted to be so grown up, he acted like she couldn't help him.
Her eye's widend as she was yanked forward into him, blushing she closed her eye's, finally regestiring that she should kiss him back, she kissed the air instead. Laughing quietly as she rolled her eye's. "Yeah, you know what Nich, I hope you trip," she offered him a sweet smile as she walked ahead of him.
She stared down at him, laying down next to him, she leaned forward and kisses his possibly broken nose. "I'm still sorry about that," she said with a quite laugh. It was hard not to think about it wouldn't laughing. She couldn't frown apon herself for it.
Her finger tips walked along his jagged chest, she enjoyed the feeling of it. "I don't see why you hate your body so much..I like it." she leaned forward and kisses a couple scars, smiling, it was like she was trying to be-friend them.
Monica smirked as she went back to be see through again. "You know,it's rather simple actually, I just want you to show the couples now fourming..THe pain of payment...Heart break..Anguish, Hate, sound good sweetie?"
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