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 Posted: Tue Aug 31, 2010 12:38 am
Once you become an adult you miss all the years leading up to it.
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Posted: Tue Aug 31, 2010 12:45 am
Underworld Priestess Once you become an adult you miss all the years leading up to it. Yes and no. I miss the un-seized opportunities that were handed to me on a platter, but I don't miss the confusion, neglect, or well-meaning but ultimately harmful misdirection.
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ScarletFrost Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Aug 31, 2010 3:36 pm
I miss almost everything pre-adult.
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Posted: Tue Aug 31, 2010 3:38 pm
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Posted: Tue Aug 31, 2010 3:44 pm
I miss all the time I had to pursue my intellectual interests, and not having to work for a living. I also miss the ability to just get up and go as far as the money in my pocket could get me, that I was able to experience in my late teens and first couple twenties.
Other than that, I would rather be an adult. I guess really wouldn't miss being a teen if I didn't have to worry about my family. I would rather have my family than my freedom, if that makes any sense to anyone. If I lost my husband or/and my kids right now, I don't think I would long outlive the loss.
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Posted: Tue Aug 31, 2010 6:53 pm
I FINISHED ALL MY AP WORK.
School starts tomorrow.
No big deal.
cool
(P.S. - I'm scared of my senior year.)
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Chieftain Twilight Captain
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Posted: Tue Aug 31, 2010 8:22 pm
sex.drugs.and.rock I FINISHED ALL MY AP WORK.
School starts tomorrow.
No big deal.
cool
(P.S. - I'm scared of my senior year.) i almost caught up to my Math Homework, and i think i'm managing my English Class. sweatdrop i fear my next semester. ._. gyagh! gonk i have a Senate Meeting Tommorrow, two Quizzes and an Essay all on Thursday! crying
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Posted: Tue Aug 31, 2010 9:31 pm
Has anyone ever been so hapy that for what ever reason they can't be angry? But the anger kinda swells until you aren't sure quite what to do with it? If so any advice? Kinda feels like I am going to crack. And I really don't understand this mental and emotional frustation and elation. It is an odd combonation, I am used to my feelings being in check for the most part so this is hard ot grasp and I don't know what to do. crying
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Chieftain Twilight Captain
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Posted: Tue Aug 31, 2010 9:48 pm
man... dealing with uncontrolable emotions.... not my strong suit dude, heh. sweatdrop i'm still kind of a slave to my emotions.
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Posted: Tue Aug 31, 2010 10:50 pm
kingcorrupted Has anyone ever been so hapy that for what ever reason they can't be angry? But the anger kinda swells until you aren't sure quite what to do with it? If so any advice? Kinda feels like I am going to crack. And I really don't understand this mental and emotional frustation and elation. It is an odd combonation, I am used to my feelings being in check for the most part so this is hard ot grasp and I don't know what to do. crying This may sound a little strange but I try to turn my anger into something else. I can't find the words I am looking for but if I'm angry or full of whatever kindof emotion I either clean or exercise. Going for a job is such a release of anger, stress and everything. If that isn't your thing, I also do the whole deep breath, meditate thing.
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Posted: Wed Sep 01, 2010 12:24 am
*sigh* I was supposed to get a call yesterday about a job. I've called him once and he said he would get back to me by the end of the day, yesterday. I was tempted to call again today but I don't want to be annoying. confused
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Posted: Wed Sep 01, 2010 12:26 am
Underworld Priestess kingcorrupted Has anyone ever been so hapy that for what ever reason they can't be angry? But the anger kinda swells until you aren't sure quite what to do with it? If so any advice? Kinda feels like I am going to crack. And I really don't understand this mental and emotional frustation and elation. It is an odd combonation, I am used to my feelings being in check for the most part so this is hard ot grasp and I don't know what to do. crying This may sound a little strange but I try to turn my anger into something else. I can't find the words I am looking for but if I'm angry or full of whatever kindof emotion I either clean or exercise. Going for a job is such a release of anger, stress and everything. If that isn't your thing, I also do the whole deep breath, meditate thing. You can tell when I've been pissed off because the kitchen is very clean. Also, all the cigarettes are gone.
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Posted: Wed Sep 01, 2010 10:47 am
When I am angry on a lower level, such as at my job or with specific friends, I clean. This is a different kind of anger, one thats been buried really deep for many years. I cant put it into excercise, last time I did I tore my knee up and broke 2 punching bags. I cant put it into work bcaus emy job is passive work and heavy on explaining, or me getting blamed for all the bad happenings. Its like I just wanna sting some people up but their toes and watch them dangle over a fire or something. An evil anger that is completely opposite of my normal self.
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Posted: Wed Sep 01, 2010 5:41 pm
kingcorrupted When I am angry on a lower level, such as at my job or with specific friends, I clean. This is a different kind of anger, one thats been buried really deep for many years. I cant put it into excercise, last time I did I tore my knee up and broke 2 punching bags. I cant put it into work bcaus emy job is passive work and heavy on explaining, or me getting blamed for all the bad happenings. Its like I just wanna sting some people up but their toes and watch them dangle over a fire or something. An evil anger that is completely opposite of my normal self.
I am a pretty angry sort of individual by nature... It took me a long time to figure s**t out. I used to be so angry that I felt like it was a solid mass inside my gut and chest. It was always there, even when I was ignoring it, and it took nothing for it to rise to the surface. It was crazy. I could control my actions, and even was able to convincingly act like all was well, but as soon as I could get alone, I had to break something with my bare hands or whatever. It normally resulted in me hurting myself pretty bad, but it was welcome release (and felt much better) from the explosive pressure inside me...
I had to learn several life lessons, and I think getting older and hormones settling had a bit to do with me calming down allot... I had to learn to let go of grudges; not feel bad when others put me down; forgive others when they let me down; reevaluate what I thought was important; and take time to do what I wanted and not what others expected of me big one that last one.
I also found a calming activity. I think the burn off activities are important, and everyone has them, whether it is cleaning house, or exercise. I found it really helps to have an activity that follows the burn-off to help bring yourself as completely out of a negative state of mind as is possible.
I normally clean until I just don't feel like cleaning anymore, or I get to the point I can't clean anymore (whether from fatigue or from running out of stuff to clean). I then take time to actually do something that would normally brighten my mood. I love to read, and I love to have quiet time outside with my cats, or play my guitar. It helps me bring my mood out of the point that I could easily fall back into the seething, violent, dark, hateful, mass of rage.
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Posted: Wed Sep 01, 2010 5:44 pm
*sigh* Today wasn't the best way to start the school year. Spilled soda in my lunch bag... Got lost trying to find homeroom... Had difficulties with my new locker... Couldn't find a seat at lunch... Felt sick all day long... *thud* I hope tomorrow is a ton better...
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